Valentine's Fantasy: When Valentines Collide / To Love Again

I want you. Chanté panted and tried to gain control of herself.

“Tell me.”

She met her husband’s fevered gaze while the war continued to rage inside of her. Bend—be flexible. But giving in to him wouldn’t magically erase their problems.

“Who knows, tonight might be the night...”

A baby. She closed her eyes. Always a baby. Forcing ice into her veins, Chanté lifted her chin, and with her next words extinguished the small fire crackling between them. “I want you to get the hell off of me.”

Chapter 3

Matthew didn’t sleep a wink.

How could he when all he could think about was marching down the hall to the master bedroom—his old bedroom—and demand his wife perform her wifely duties?

Fat chance.

He chuckled under his breath and watched as the sunlight beamed through the thin slits in the venetian blinds. The rays warmed his face but he wondered when it would touch his heart.

This was not supposed to be his life.

He was never the type of man who trembled at the idea of settling down, having the white picket fence or having the customary two point five children...

Children.

Coming from a large family of four brothers, four sisters and a host of cousins, nieces and nephews, Matthew had always assumed that one day he, too, would raise a small army of children. He’d originally delayed those plans to support his wife in her career. But when they actually started planning five years ago, there was a snag. Chanté could get pregnant, but ten weeks into the pregnancies, like clockwork, her body would reject the fetus.

Five years. Nine miscarriages. Nine heartbreaks.

Matthew swung his legs over the side of the bed and sat up. Children were what was missing from their home—from their lives. He knew it, she knew it and all their friends knew it, too.

And yet, it wasn’t in the cards for them.

He sighed; mourned for the children he didn’t have, and then reached for his copy of Chanté’s latest book, I Do. “Following an argument, we need time to cool off. When one person hisses a sarcastic comment and the other, hurt and angry, feels justified in topping the insult. The volleys begin. By the time we realize the mistake we’re making, it’s too late to ‘take it back.’”

He slapped the book closed and hung his head in shame. Seth was right. “I should have apologized.”

A loud rip caught his attention and he jerked his head toward the door. When he heard it again, he frowned and went to investigate. Upon opening the bedroom door, he couldn’t wrap his brain around what he was seeing.

“What in the hell are you doing?”

Dressed in sexy, silk pink boxers and a matching lace chemise, Chanté stood with a large roll of duct tape and a pair of scissors. “What does it look like I’m doing?”

“It looks like you’ve lost your mind.” He took another glance at the silver duct tape running down the center of the floor, the wall, and even the ceiling. “Do you know what’s going to happen when you peel that off?”

“I’m not going to peel it off.” She huffed. “Since a real divorce doesn’t suit either of our interests—at the moment—it doesn’t mean that we can’t go ahead and divvy things up.”

He heard her and his brain replayed what she’d said, but it still wasn’t making a lick of sense.

“Split everything in half,” she clarified at his look of confusion. “Fifty-fifty.”

Matthew crossed his arms over his bare chest and leaned against his bedroom’s doorframe. “You don’t think people might notice? I mean, the tape clashes with the furniture.”

“Then we won’t invite anyone over,” she settled, turning on her heels and marching away.

“You’re joking, right?” He started after her.

“No.”

He reached the top of the staircase just as she bolted from the bottom of it. “Can we please talk about this like two rational adults?” he shouted.

“I’m through with being rational.”

“Obviously.”

Chanté stopped and glared up at him. “I’m tired of this lie—this life. I’m tired of...”

He sucked in a deep breath as his eyes narrowed on her. “Go ahead. Say it.”

Chanté clamped her mouth shut and stormed away.

Matthew descended the stairs two at a time, ignoring the ugly silver tape down the center. “Say it, Chanté.”

She ignored him and continued toward the kitchen. It, too, had been duct taped in half. The sight of it ignited his anger.

“You have something to say, Chanté. I want to hear it.”

“Since when?” She rounded on him.

He stopped within inches of her. “I’m standing right here.”

Their glares fused as they stood in a stalemate.

“What else are you tired of, Chanté?” he asked.

“You.” She lifted her chin, now that she’d said the word. “I’m tired of having to deal with you. Satisfied?”

“Quite.” Matthew turned and stomped out of the kitchen.

Chanté watched him leave with a wave of regret and relief. She had no explanation as to why she baited him. She also didn’t understand why she was so angry all the time. She could psychoanalyze herself. After all, she was a professional; but the truth is: doctors made terrible patients.

Why couldn’t she just say what was really on her mind? Because it would destroy him. She shook her head and turned toward the sink and filled a glass with water, where she proceeded to take her morning vitamins and pills.

The phone rang and Chanté snatched the cordless from the kitchen’s wall unit. “Hello.”

“What on earth did you do?” Edie asked in a high, strained voice. “No, scratch that. I know what you did. I need to know why you did it.”

Chanté sighed as she pinched the bridge of her nose. “You’re talking about last night’s program?”