Sad Cypress

Laura Welman said:

‘You just thought I was being rather—cheap? My dear, you’re young and sensitive. Life, I’m afraid, is rather cheap…’

Elinor said with some slight bitterness:

‘I suppose it is.’

Laura Welman said:

‘My child—you are unhappy? What is it?’

‘Nothing—absolutely nothing.’ She got up and went to the window. Half turning, she said:

‘Aunt Laura, tell me, honestly, do you think love is ever a happy thing?’

Mrs Welman’s face became grave.

‘In the sense you mean, Elinor—no, probably not… To care passionately for another human creature brings always more sorrow than joy; but all the same, Elinor, one would not be without that experience. Anyone who has never really loved has never really lived…’

The girl nodded.

She said:

‘Yes—you understand—you’ve known what it’s like—’

She turned suddenly, a questioning look in her eyes:

‘Aunt Laura—’

The door opened and red-haired Nurse O’Brien came in.

She said in a sprightly manner:

‘Mrs Welman, here’s Doctor come to see you.’

Dr Lord was a young man of thirty-two. He had sandy hair, a pleasantly ugly freckled face and a remarkably square jaw. His eyes were a keen, piercing light blue.

‘Good morning, Mrs Welman,’ he said.

‘Good morning, Dr Lord. This is my niece, Miss Carlisle.’

A very obvious admiration sprang into Dr Lord’s transparent face. He said, ‘How do you do?’ The hand that Elinor extended to him he took rather gingerly as though he thought he might break it.

Mrs Welman went on:

‘Elinor and my nephew have come down to cheer me up.’

‘Splendid!’ said Dr Lord. ‘Just what you need! It will do you a lot of good, I am sure, Mrs Welman.’

He was still looking at Elinor with obvious admiration.

Elinor said, moving towards the door:

‘Perhaps I shall see you before you go, Dr Lord?’

‘Oh—er—yes, of course.’

She went out, shutting the door behind her. Dr Lord approached the bed, Nurse O’Brien fluttering behind him.

Mrs Welman said with a twinkle:

‘Going through the usual bag of tricks, Doctor: pulse, respiration, temperature? What humbugs you doctors are!’

Nurse O’Brien said with a sigh:

‘Oh, Mrs Welman. What a thing, now, to be saying to the doctor!’

Dr Lord said with a twinkle:

‘Mrs Welman sees through me, Nurse! All the same, Mrs Welman, I’ve got to do my stuff, you know. The trouble with me is I’ve never learnt the right bedside manner.’

‘Your bedside manner’s all right. Actually you’re rather proud of it.’

Peter Lord chuckled and remarked:

‘That’s what you say.’

After a few routine questions had been asked and answered, Dr Lord leant back in his chair and smiled at his patient.

‘Well,’ he said. ‘You’re going on splendidly.’

Laura Welman said: ‘So I shall be up and walking round the house in a few weeks’ time?’

‘Not quite so quickly as that.’

‘No, indeed. You humbug! What’s the good of living stretched out like this, and cared for like a baby?’

Dr Lord said:

‘What’s the good of life, anyway? That’s the real question. Ever read about that nice mediæval invention, the Little Ease? You couldn’t stand, sit or lie in it. You’d think anyone condemned to that would die in a few weeks. Not at all. One man lived for sixteen years in an iron cage, was released and lived to a hearty old age.’

Laura Welman said:

‘What’s the point of this story?’

Peter Lord said:

‘The point is that one’s got an instinct to live. One doesn’t live because one’s reason assents to living. People who, as we say, “would be better dead”, don’t want to die! People who apparently have got everything to live for just let themselves fade out of life because they haven’t got the energy to fight.’