Inside, she sat on the bride’s side of the church, tucking herself beside a pillar where she couldn’t be seen from most of the church. She couldn’t see, either, and she didn’t look around for people she knew.
So she didn’t realize until the ceremony was almost over that one of the guests was Rashid Kamal.
“We need to talk,” Rashid’s voice said firmly in her ear. Julia twitched nervously, feeling hunted. She shifted the receiver to her other hand.
“Do we? Why?” She had had a mostly sleepless night last night, and she wasn’t ready for this.
She could almost hear him gritting his teeth. “Because you are pregnant with my child and I want to marry you. And we need a reasoned discussion of the choices before you go public with a denial of our engagement.”
Julia was silent.
“You haven’t already done it, have you?”
“No.” Coward that she was. She should have picked up the phone when the mood was on her and called the newspaper reporter most loyal to her. She had told herself that she needed breathing space before stirring up yet another round of speculation. “Not yet.”
“No, of course not,” he reminded himself. “Someone would have called me for a comment immediately if you had.”
“And what would you have said?” She did not want a war with Rashid to be fought in the media. But she did not forget that he was the one who had put her in this position.
“What could I say? That I regretted your decision. And I do, Julia. But I don’t believe that decision is final, or should be.”
“It is!” she cried, almost panicking. “Totally final! I’m going to do it today!”
Damn it, did he always have to handle her wrong?
“Look,” he said, as calmly as he could. “I’d like us to talk. Before you do that.”
She sighed uneasily, not sure why she didn’t feel safe talking to him. He had such charisma. Suppose he convinced her to marry him against her better judgement? Once was enough.
“All right, go ahead,” she said, suddenly wishing she had Christina here to support her through this.
She heard him expel an exasperated breath. “Not over the phone, damn it, Julia! I need to see you face-to-face. And away from the palace somewhere.”
Panic threatened in her stomach. The baby did a somersault. “Where? We’ll be chased wherever we go.”
He said dryly, “I think I can promise to get us to a venue where there will be no journalists.”
“I don’t see what there is to talk about.”
“How about the fact that at the moment a Sebastiani child is the only direct descendant of the Kamal ruling house in the next generation and my father’s people will want to know whether he’s to be in line for the throne?” Rashid said impatiently. “Do you feel that question could be important enough to discuss?”
The panic rushed up to grip her throat. Might the old man name her son a prince of Tamir? She supposed he had the right to confer the status of prince on his illegitimate grandson, if he wished. She was pretty sure that in the dim and distant past of Tamir, Rashid himself had a bloodline that dated back to a favourite concubine.
What kind of chaos would it cause in her life, to be raising the child destined, however briefly, for the throne of another nation? An enemy nation. And what suffering was in store when Rashid married and had a legitimate son, as he surely would, and her son was displaced as heir?
“He can’t do that!” she cried. Rashid was right. They had to talk. “All right, what do you want me to do?”
“I want you to agree not to issue any statement until we’ve talked.”
Her nerves tightened. “Twenty-four hours,” she said.
She heard him breathe. “That’s not much time.”
“Twenty-four hours,” she repeated.
“Twenty-four hours it is. If you can convince your father not to have my helicopter shot down on arrival,” Rashid said with mordant humour, “I’ll pick you up in an hour. Pack a swimsuit.”
It was a beautiful ceremony. Mariel was stunning, with an unusual and artistic scrunch of white veil and flowers framing her head, and a gorgeous silk brocade dress styled with a medieval flavour that exactly suited the chapel. Haroun al Jawadi looked proud and handsome, and every time he gazed down at his bride a shiver of delight went through the congregation.
She wasn’t sure how Rashid Kamal had drawn her eye. When the congregation was kneeling, Julia was no longer hidden by her pillar. A baby started to babble, and her gaze automatically flicked towards the groom’s side of the church.
A man’s black hair was burnished by the winter sunlight streaming in through a stained-glass window. She watched with a smile of absent pleasure before she suddenly recognized the shape of his brow and chin.
Then she pressed her lips together and resolutely bowed her head, feeling as if someone had just walked over her grave. It wasn’t the first time they’d been at the same function, but always before it had been at large, formal gatherings. She’d never been invited to such an intimate gathering with him before. There probably weren’t a hundred people here.
She had no one to blame but herself. If she had accepted the invitation in the normal way, of course Mariel would have forewarned her. And if she had thought for even a moment, she might have guessed that the Crown Prince of Tamir might number among the friends of the groom. For a few moments Julia considered slipping away immediately after the ceremony, but she didn’t want to go without even saying hello.
“Julia! Oh, thank you for coming after all! How wonderful to see you!” Mariel cried with delighted surprise when, in the château later, Julia came over to give her friend a hug. “I’m so glad! It must mean you’re feeling better.”
Then her eyes widened at a thought. “Oh, my goodness!” she said faintly.
Julia laughed. “It’s all right, I’ve seen him.”
“He’s one of Harry’s best friends,” Mariel confided in a low voice. “I was going to warn you if you accepted.”
“I’m keeping out of his way. We’ve done this kind of thing before, after all.”
“Maybe he won’t even recognize you! You look so different, Julia! Have you changed your style completely?”
“Do you like it?”
“Absolutely! You look—softer. You’re way too thin, but—there’s a glow that wasn’t there before. And I love your hair! Is it metaphorical? Are you letting your hair down at last?”
Julia enjoyed herself at the party that followed, and it was easy to avoid Rashid Kamal. People recognized her, but there were quite a few celebrity and royal faces in the room. No stranger paid her particular attention until a gorgeous redhead she vaguely recognized stopped beside her.
“I was just wondering if you’d heard any more news,” she said apologetically, when the two women had exchanged greetings. Astrid had dated Lucas for a while a couple of years ago.
“There’s nothing,” Julia said sadly. “We’re just waiting.”
“But it was definitely his plane?”
Julia frowned. “What do you mean?”
“The piece of wreckage they found yesterday. Are they definite that—” Astrid broke off in horror when she saw Julia’s face. “My God, haven’t you heard?”
Julia clutched at her. “They—they found the wreckage? Lucas? Did they find—” she gasped breathlessly.
“Oh, hell! I’m so sorry to be the one to tell you! But I don’t—the newscast I heard just said a piece of wreckage had been found and they thought—”