The King's Sister

‘You think you are so clever, so beyond criticism. Why will you not listen to good advice?’

No! No more advice!

‘I will take advice. But not from you, little brother …’ And having a weapon I could use against him, I did so, careless in my anger. ‘Who are you to admonish me for my behaviour? You were told to keep your distance from Mary. But you couldn’t, could you? And now she’s carrying your child, and she not yet fourteen years.’

And immediately wished the words unsaid as high colour washed over Henry’s cheekbones and a keen anxiety sparked in his eyes.

‘I did not molest her!’

‘I did not say you did!’

‘Mary is my wife and I love her. There was no indiscretion. You do not know the meaning of the word discretion.’

Which fired my anger again. ‘Discretion? You could not keep your hands off Mary, when everyone knew it would be better if you did! You have no right to take me to task.’

‘I am wasting my breath.’ Henry marched off, collecting his shadow Edward before he had gone more than a dozen strides.

So many warnings. Was I so much at fault? And now I had crossed swords with Henry and instantly regretted it. Mary had desired the union as much as Henry and was perfectly content in her pregnancy. It was ill-done of me to beat my brother about the head with it when they obviously enjoyed the deepest of affection. Unsettled, regretful, I had to watch the departure of Henry’s rigid back and then Sir John leading Isabella into another dance. When I next looked, he had gone, abandoning Isabella too, who had enough court manners that she did not appear disconsolate.

Well, neither would I.

I joined hands in a circle with Philippa and Sir John’s elder brother Thomas Holland, who was enjoying the status of his recent inheritance of the earldom of Kent.

‘And are you going to douse me in reprimand and disfavour?’ I asked Philippa when her lips remained firmly pinned together.

‘No. I don’t need to. You know you shouldn’t encourage him. And you’ve upset Henry.’

‘You don’t like him,’ I accused Philippa.

‘I’m not sure. He’s hard not to like. But I don’t trust him.’

The final day of the tournament dawned as fair and crisp as all the rest. It was to be a day of miracles. I was Queen of the Lists, offering my glove—the partner of the one I had bestowed on Jonty—to John Holland who made me the object of his gallantry.

On that day he fought, demon-possessed. No one could defeat him. He was brave and bold and entirely admirable in his defeat of his opponents.

I crowned him with laurels: presented him with the purse of gold.

After supper I danced with him, conscious only of the clasp of his fingers around mine, the agile strength of his body. Never had I felt so full of life and joy. All sense of duty and discretion was set aside, all the warnings cast adrift. Henry and the Princess meant well, but I saw no dangers in my demeanour, even when Sir John stole another kiss on my wrist.

‘You should not.’

‘Would you rather I did not?’

‘Would you desist if I did?’

‘I would think about it …’

And he would do exactly as he pleased. And since John Holland loved no one but himself, he was no danger to me. And since my father did not see fit to reprimand me, then why should I not enjoy my knight’s company?

Chapter Four (#ulink_e3d31923-8118-58d5-b0eb-29bae8c55e02)

Well, I suppose I had expected this.

‘Elizabeth.’ My father had looked up from the document under his hand as I entered his private chamber, a room set aside for his exclusive use when he stayed at Westminster. The windows on one side looked out over towards the river, if the occupant could drag his eyes from the glory of the tapestries newly purchased by Richard in a bid to make his palaces the perfect setting for his magnificence as King. On this morning, from the expression on his face, the Duke was oblivious to the scenery and the surrounding grandeur.

I curtsied.

‘My lord. You sent for me.’ I waited until he had placed the pen beside the document with infinite care as if his mind were taken up with something entirely different from its contents. I had every premonition that this would not be a pleasant interview. There was a groove between his flat brows.

‘I am gratified that you have enough energy after yesterday’s exertions to present yourself at this early hour,’ he said. ‘I trust you are rested. Or do your feet ache?’

It might have suggested humour, but obviously not. I had been summoned by the Duke. It would not have crossed my mind to be tardy.

‘No, sir,’ I replied warily. His expression was particularly severe, but he rose from his chair where the window allowed what light there was to flood the room, bowed courteously, and came to lead me to a seat by the fireplace. Flames leapt to warm the room but I suddenly found myself shivering with tension and my belly was cold. The Duke’s concern for my comfort was soothing, but my father was well-mannered even when furiously angry, and that is what I saw in the stark lines of his face. Here was to be no easy discussion of the state of the Pembroke inheritance.

‘A cup of wine?’ he asked.

‘Thank you, sir.’ Taking the cup, I remained wary. ‘You wished to see me.’

‘Indeed.’ Unfailingly urbane, yet he looked weary to my critical eye. He was missing Katherine, I thought. It had been a difficult year, with an unmendable rift between them of my father’s making. Yet what choice had he, when Walsingham heaped England’s ills on his shoulders? I regretted Dame Katherine’s absence, and so did he. His temper was short.

‘It is my opinion,’ he pronounced, having poured wine for himself and taken the seat opposite me, ‘that you have entertained the court sufficiently with your conduct in the company of John Holland. I think I have rarely seen you so lacking in dignity since you grew out of your childhood. I wish such behaviour to stop.’

Abruptly I stood, the wine splashing in the cup, unable to sit under such an unexpected attack in so harsh a tone.

‘Sit down, Elizabeth.’

I sank back, my fists clenched around the stem of the cup. Had I expected this? Perhaps I had when the summons had been delivered. But had my behaviour been so very bad? I had laughed and danced, encouraged by John’s charm. Had I abandoned dignity? I did not think so. I had merely thrown myself into the joyous celebration of the day.

Without doubt, I could find all manner of excuse.

But had I flirted? Undoubtedly I had. An honest assessment of my behaviour brought a flush to my cheeks as if I had already drunk the wine that had splattered the front panels of my gown. And now my father, witness to it all, would take me to task.

‘I do not wish your name to be coupled with that of Holland,’ he said, still pronouncing every word carefully as if I would wilfully misunderstand. ‘You will not allow it. You will remember what you owe to your name. Your behaviour will never be less than unimpeachable.’

‘Nor will it, sir.’ I was not a little hurt.

‘Don’t be foolish.’ There was no sympathy in my father’s face. ‘After Holland’s close attention to you yesterday, and your willingness to be encouraged in all sorts of extravagance, I doubt there is anyone in this place who is not commenting on it this morning.’

I felt the flush in my cheeks deepen.

‘Which I regret, sir.’ For I did, in the cold light of day. And in all honesty: ‘You are not the first to point out the error of my ways, sir.’

My father’s straight brows rose in query. ‘Do I understand you have already been taken to task?’

‘Henry has expressed his disapproval. He was very forthright.’

The Duke was lured into a dry smile, which did not fool me for an instant. I was still not forgiven. ‘And do I imagine that you accepted his criticisms?’