“He’d be a good father.” There was no question about that. “But...why not adopt?”
“That comes with as many risks.”
“True, but—”
“Anyway, I’m not opposed to it. I could see us adopting at some point. I just need Dylan to believe he gave me one.”
“To salvage all that male pride?”
“It’s the way he is,” she said defensively. “And I wouldn’t change him even if I could. Pride’s one of the things that carried him through the hard times, that gave him the determination he needed to soldier on. It’s—”
“You want to do this,” Presley broke in, going straight to the bottom line.
“If it’ll make Dylan feel better, I do. But I’m scared, too.”
Now that she wasn’t so shocked by the idea, Presley tried to be more open-minded. In a way, it did seem like a technicality that it wouldn’t be Dylan’s sperm. She’d want to save her husband the humiliation and anguish, too, if she had a husband like Dylan and that husband had a brother like Aaron. “I guess you wouldn’t be the first person to use a known donor.”
“People do it all the time.”
More knowledge gleaned from the internet? “Without the consent of their spouse? I still think that’s asking for trouble.”
“It’s not like I intend to sleep with Aaron, Pres. I won’t be cheating. Is it really that terrible to use, with the donor’s permission, some DNA that’s very similar to my husband’s? What Dylan doesn’t know can’t hurt him.”
Presley sat on the edge of the couch and massaged her forehead. She’d used almost the same logic. Which led to the same conclusion. “Unless he finds out.”
“He won’t,” Cheyenne argued. “Who’s going to tell him? Me? You? Aaron? None of us! It doesn’t have to be a big deal unless we make it a big deal.”
“If you do this, we’ll both have children by Aaron.” She chuckled, although it wasn’t funny.
“Maybe it’s time to tell him about Wyatt, since that could figure into his decision.”
“No. Absolutely not.” Cheyenne wanted to end the anxiety that keeping her secret created. But Presley wasn’t ready, wasn’t willing to trade a release of anxiety for what could happen if Aaron found out. “Not yet.”
“Are you sure?”
“Positive. Wyatt’s too little. Maybe when he gets older, when he’s capable of making his own choices.”
“Okay, but...if I go to Aaron about this...donation, do you think he’ll demand we tell Dylan?”
“My bet? He’d rather Dylan not know. That way, it can’t get awkward between them.” The Aaron she knew wouldn’t want or need the credit. He was like that. Bighearted, magnanimous and sensitive to the delicate balance that made it possible to continue having a relationship with Dylan. Some people took home stray dogs or cats. Aaron took home stray people. She had a feeling he’d only befriended her initially because she’d been so isolated from the rest of Whiskey Creek. The night he’d sought her out at Sexy Sadie’s she’d been sitting in a corner alone. He’d walked over and said something about being her neighbor before inviting her to his table.
“I should talk to him, then?” Cheyenne asked.
“If you’re really convinced it’ll make things better for Dylan.”
“You wouldn’t mind if...if I also had a child by Aaron?”
“You felt you had to ask me?”
“Because of Wyatt I thought I should.”
“I have no claim on Aaron.” Wyatt and her baby would be half brothers instead of cousins, but why would that matter? “Our children can grow up together here in Whiskey Creek.”
“It’ll be a far nicer childhood than ours was.”
“No kidding,” Presley agreed with a weak laugh. She especially felt sorry for Cheyenne. She would’ve had a very different life if Anita hadn’t stolen her from her birth family. At least Anita was Presley’s real mother. “So when are you going to approach him?”
“I have to do it soon, before Dylan works up the nerve to go to the doctor, or there’ll be no point.”
Presley tried to picture her sister asking Aaron to donate his sperm. “That should be a very interesting conversation.”
6
Riley wasn’t there when Presley returned. Presley considered that a lucky break. Although she’d baked two apple pies, one for each of her helpers as a thank-you, it would be a lot easier to talk to Aaron if they had a few minutes alone.
Now she had that. Because she’d walked Wyatt over to Cheyenne’s before loading the pies in his stroller, she didn’t have the challenge of trying to restrain her son.
This is the perfect opportunity. Aaron’s just a regular man.
Except that wasn’t true. He meant the world to her....
Reminding herself that that was before and not now, she summoned her courage, swung open the door and leaned against it so she could wheel the pies inside. Aaron was wearing headphones, listening to music on his iPod while he painted, but her movements must’ve caught his eye. He turned and pulled the buds from his ears.
“You’re back,” he said as he climbed off the ladder.
Would he be glad to get the pie? It was the one thing she used to make for him. But Ruthie at Just Like Mom’s served good apple pie, too, so he probably hadn’t missed it any more than he’d missed her. “Where’s Riley?”
“He went to take care of something with his kid.”
The smile he flashed her reminded her that they were alone together on a Saturday night for the first time in twenty-six months. It also made her feel like she was clinging to a rock as the ocean tried to drag her out to sea.
Just hang on...
“Sorry I’ve been gone all day.” It was almost eight o’clock. She’d fallen asleep when Wyatt napped and slept for three hours. Then it’d taken longer to make the pies than she’d expected, since she’d had to scrap her first attempt. She rarely ate sugar these days, was rusty in the kitchen. And once she got the pies out of the oven she was further delayed while deciding what to wear. She’d tried on four different outfits and, for the first time since leaving Whiskey Creek, she even vacillated over her selection of panties, eventually settling on the sheer black bra and thong her friend Roger gave her for her last birthday (while he tried to talk her into “living again”).
Wearing lingerie was silly, since no one was going to see it. But what was the point of letting such beauty languish in the back of her drawer? Aaron made her feel sexy and young again—even if she couldn’t act on the desire he aroused.
“No problem. I’ve been busy, anyway.” He gestured at the work he’d done. “What do you think?”
She’d been rehearsing what she planned to say, had been so focused on it that she hadn’t looked at what he’d accomplished in her absence. But now that he’d drawn her attention to the walls, she was so impressed she couldn’t possibly start in on her “I forgive you, you didn’t owe me anything” speech. Not immediately.
“It’s beautiful!” she breathed, and meant it. She’d picked out a buttery yellow, one that reminded her of the sun. She’d wanted her studio to be uplifting and soothing, since both of her businesses dealt with stress relief. But he’d added a new element. The walls were the yellow she’d requested, but he’d painted the trim black—the baseboards, the doorframes and the window casings. It looked so stylish she almost couldn’t believe this was the same drab space she’d rented.
“I knew it would be nice,” he said, standing back to survey the effect.
She left the stroller in the middle of the room and moved closer to the wet paint. “Someone told you it wouldn’t?”
“Harvey down at the hardware store was pushing me to call you. He thought you should go with white trim, until I showed him the picture.”