The Cowboy, The Baby And The Bride-To-Be

Shayla was beginning to hear the word now in her sleep.

If her choice was to either keep him for weeks or take him to his uncle in Montana, she was going to Montana.

She had written down Maria’s directions carefully and phoned in to work to tell them the music would be a little late. It was the first time in two years she had missed a deadline, but she was writing the Halloween episode, so she was nearly a month in advance of production, anyway.

As soon as she had started packing, she’d realized she felt happy.

“I think I wanted to get away,” she murmured to herself, pressing down the accelerator just a little bit more. Seventy-two miles an hour. It was absolutely heady stuff.

Away from what?

Her job? It was true that after two years of writing the music for Poppy, her career was something less than challenging now. There were mornings she woke up and absolutely dreaded trying to think of a weather song, or a feelings song or any other kind of song that was going to be sung by adult actors dressed as puppets and furry animals...and clowns.

Which brought her to Barry Baxter. Bo-Bo the Clown on the show. Her beau-beau for the past year.

“You’re going where?” he’d yelped when she’d called him. “Montana? With that kid?”

She’d resented the way he’d said that, as if Nicky was a two-headed monster instead of a child. A bossy child, yes, but still barely a baby nonetheless.

“You don’t like kids, do you?” she’d asked with slow comprehension.

“It’s not that I don’t like them. I’m just surrounded by kid stuff all the time. The show, the kids who come on the show. I’m a man who wears a clown suit for a living. For Pete’s sake when I take it off, I want to be a grown-up. No kids. And especially not that one.”

“It’s going to be that one for weeks, unless I go to Montana.”

“Look, isn’t there a law or something? She can’t just dump her kid off there and expect you to deal with it.”

“Are you suggesting I call the police? On sweet little Maria?”

“She’s abandoned the kid.”

“She has not.”

Shayla sighed as she drove along. That was the real reason it felt so good to get away, she admitted to herself. She had a lot of thinking to do about herself and Barry.

Her mother thought she should marry him. So did Barry.

He was what her mother called a catch. Even though he was an actor, he had a steady job, and he was stable. He was also very good-looking, if just a trifle on the chubby side.

“You’re never going to meet anyone else,” her mother lamented. “You’re a recluse, sitting at home plunking away on that piano. He’s a nice boy. What’s wrong with him?”

“There’s nothing wrong with him,” Shayla said desperately. “Is that a good reason to get married? Because there’s nothing wrong with the person?”

“Shayla, this is your mother speaking. You marry a man with a good heart. A provider. Forget all these schoolgirl romantic notions. Forget your heart beating faster and skyrockets. There’s nothing but pain in those things. I should know.”

Shayla’s mother and father had divorced years ago, a passion burned out quickly.

She had phoned to tell her mother she was going to Montana. How had the whole marriage issue come up?

“He doesn’t like kids, Mom.”

“There are worse things.”

“I like kids.”

“He loves you, Shayla. What more do you want?”

To love him back. She liked Barry. Her mother was right. She’d lived like a recluse until he’d come along. Now she had a charming companion to go to the movies with, to eat dinner with sometimes. They shared a certain creative bent that made them very compatible.

But marry him?

She didn’t even really like kissing him. Why couldn’t things just stay the same? Why did it have to move on? Why couldn’t they just enjoy going to movies and out for dinner together?

But if she truly wanted things to stay the same how could she explain the creeping discontent she felt in a lot of areas of her life? She should like writing Poppy. She should feel lucky to have a job doing something in her field. With the exception of Lillian Morehouse, who was playing with the Philharmonic, ninety percent of her graduating class had not gained employment in the music field. Mike Webster’s job in a record store didn’t count.

It was Montana that was doing this to her—awakening some restless spirit within her, calling to some part of her that was just a touch wild and reckless.

Her mother and Barry had mournfully watched her pack the car to go.

“I can’t believe you’re doing something so harebrained,” Barry had said.

Her mother had nodded vigorous agreement.

Well, she’d hardly been able to believe it herself, but now that she was doing it, it felt great! Perhaps there had been a harebrained side of her, hidden for many years, just dying to get out.

She slowed, approaching an intersection, and glanced at the mileage covered, according to her trip meter. She had passed the small community of Winnet and the even smaller one of Sand Springs. This was it.

The signs were right beside the road, just as Maria had told her they would be.

Provided by the 4-H Club, neat placards said who lived down the road—the family name followed by the number of miles down that road.

Shayla scanned the placards quickly. There it was. MacLeod. Thirty-seven miles down that road. It looked like his closest neighbor was seven miles from him.

The immenseness of the country struck her anew. She got out, looked around, stretched and felt it again. Free.

Nicky slept on. She quietly opened the back door and loosened his little plaid shirt, so painstakingly stitched by his mother. The heat coming off him startled her.

It was a warm day, though, one of those September days that still held the full heat of summer.

When she got back in the car she unrolled the passenger-side window, too, so that the breeze could blow on Nicky.

She reset her trip meter and turned down the gravel road, somehow feeling her whole life was ahead of her.

At mile thirty-seven there was a big-timbered gatepost that spanned a drive on the west side of the road. Hanging from the weathered center beam was a piece of driftwood with the name MacLeod burned deep into it. In this barren country, where only a few spindly deciduous trees grew in the draws, it must have taken quite a bit of effort to get those timbers.

She drove under the sign. She had expected to see a house, but instead it was another road, more narrow now, twisting and dipping over little rolls of land and through small coulees.

She had gone another five miles before she topped a rise in the undulating landscape and saw the buildings sprawled out in the draw below her.