Spy in the Saddle

He looked at the brown bottle of peroxide in the middle of the box. “Let’s start with the disinfecting.”

The bullet ripped along her skin but didn’t go through, didn’t damage muscle, or not too badly. That was good. She was right—she didn’t need the E.R. Although, it might have been better if a nurse was doing this.

He hadn’t planned on seeing her in so little clothes that he would have to notice her toned arms. He hadn’t planned on getting close enough to her to touch her.

But fine—he was a soldier. He could suck it up for ten minutes. As long as he didn’t look at the curve of her breasts, which the tank top very unhelpfully accentuated.

“This won’t hurt a bit,” he said.

She raised an eyebrow. “That’s what they always say.”

He slipped into latex gloves and disinfected the wound then dabbed it dry. To her credit, she didn’t make a sound. He leaned closer to get a better look at the damage now that dry blood didn’t obstruct his view.

She held still. “So?”

“The missing swath of skin is too wide for butterfly bandages, but the gash isn’t deep enough to really need stitches.”

To her credit, she didn’t say I told you so.

He put on antiseptic cream then a sterile pad, wrapped her arm in gauze. “It’s going to leave a nasty scar.”

“Good thing I’m not a photo model.”

As she shrugged, his gaze strayed to her naked shoulder, to her soft, tanned skin. Feeling lust at this moment had to be wrong for at least half a dozen reasons. Trouble was, she had him so bamboozled, he couldn’t remember any of them.

He cleared his throat. “Good to go.”

She flashed a smile. “Thanks.”

“Don’t mention it.” He stepped back.

“And thank you for...before,” she added with a tilt of her head, her eyes growing serious. She filled her lungs, a consternated look coming over her face for a second. “I’m sorry if I was a difficult teenager.”

Difficult didn’t begin to describe her. “You were something.”

She smiled again.

He didn’t smile back. “And by that, I mean trouble. And it was pretty obvious you’d be even bigger trouble in a couple of years. I was just hoping we wouldn’t be running in the same circles by then.”

She watched him. “And here I am.”

“And here you are.” He drew a slow breath, and the flowery scent of her soap hit him all over again.

* * *

LILLY WATCHED THE WARY expression on his face.

Being alone in a hotel room with Shepard Lewis had been her teenage dream. To have him here now seemed beyond strange, even if under vastly different circumstances than she’d spent hours daydreaming about back in the day.

She’d written songs about him, for heaven’s sake.

She pushed all that away.

“You kept insurance on the car I borrowed,” she said. Okay, stole. But seeing how they were practically colleagues now, there was no sense splitting hairs.

He shifted where he stood. “Figured you couldn’t afford it. Driving without insurance is illegal. Didn’t want you to get into more trouble if you got caught.”

“You never reported it stolen. That car saved my life. I lived in it the first year after I ran away.”

He nodded.

“How come you’re no longer a parole officer?”

His dark eyes focused a little sharper, his jaw jutting out a little, his masculine lips tightening.

Oh, God. “Did you quit because of me?” Had she been that bad?

He backed away from her, to the window, and looked out. He said nothing.

“You did?” She stared.

He did a sexy, one-shouldered shrug. “Technically, I was let go.”

She stared some more as she tried to make sense of that.

“Why? You were really good. You were the only decent person I met in the system. If anyone could have made me go straight, it was you. You just got me too late. I was... Look, nobody could’ve gotten through to me by that point. Why on earth would they let you go?”

He turned back to her, holding her gaze. “There was that letter.”

For a long second, she had no idea what he was talking about. Then it clicked. “The email I sent?”

“Work emails are not private.”

“But I was thanking you for all your help and apologizing for the car—”

And then it hit her.

Heat flushed her face. The email... Oh, God. At the end, in a fit of teenage drama, she’d confessed her undying love. She might have even mentioned that she would be saving her virginity for him.

She’d blocked that memory, apparently, until now. She cringed as she pushed to her feet and busied herself with packing up the first-aid kit. FBI agents didn’t blush, she tried to remind herself, too late.

“I’m sorry,” she said without looking at him. She couldn’t just now.

She had a fair idea what had happened. He’d probably been accused of encouraging her teenage fancy. He hadn’t. The opposite, if anything. He’d always tried to treat her as a big brother would, which used to frustrate the living daylights out of her.

“I’m really sorry,” she said again, feeling it in the bottom of her soul.

“Don’t worry about it. I found my place.”