To Love An Older Man

“Back on the farm, we don’t accept charity, either.”

“I thought people helped their neighbors in small towns.”

She blinked. “You aren’t a neighbor. You’re a stranger, really, and I’m embarrassed enough that I’ve had to depend on you.” Her hand went to her stomach. “If it weren’t for the baby, I wouldn’t even—” She shook her head. “It doesn’t matter. If you think it’s a bad idea that I stay, I’ll leave first thing in the morning.”

His gaze lingered on the hand she had pressed to her slightly rounded belly. If she weren’t so slim, no one would be able to guess her condition. She could get a job somewhere. A potential employer wouldn’t have to know about her pregnancy.

David thought about his accountant. Didn’t he have a clerk out on temporary disability? Maybe the timing would work out. And then what? Once Beth delivered the baby, what would she do about child care and medical insurance and…

Dammit! This was not his problem.

“David?”

He looked up and met her troubled eyes. Worry lines had formed between her brows.

“You’re looking funny again.”

“I was just thinking.”

She took a deep breath, her breasts rising and falling and gaining his full attention. They weren’t too large, but round and high. “If you have to think about it that long, then there really isn’t anything to think about,” she said and abruptly stood.

“What?” He stared absently for a moment. “No, it’s not that. Please sit.”

She shifted, her stance and expression hesitant before slowly lowering herself back to the chair.

He didn’t understand his resistance. Filling in during Ida’s absence was truly the perfect solution for both parties. His mother needed the help. Her kindness, wisdom and support meant the world to him, but when it came to domestic duties, she was hopeless.

Clueless, in fact. She’d gone from rich parents to a wealthy husband and never worked a day in her life. Her efforts on behalf of her pet charities, however, were tireless and unrelenting. Which worried him. Beth wasn’t a project.

He understood his mother’s desire to want to rescue and protect her. Her youth, her situation. He noticed the fullness of her breasts again, and the way the vee of her dress exposed the top of her cleavage.

Okay, so she wasn’t that young. A totally inappropriate tug in his groin filled him with disgust and he forced his gaze away. Obviously he’d been celibate too long. Still, his reaction was inexcusable.

“David, if you’d rather I come back later—”

He straightened. “Why?”

She shook her head, while regarding him with curiosity. “You seem very distracted.”

If she only knew…He cleared his throat. “I was wondering about your medical insurance.”

Her expression fell, and she sighed.

“Or lack thereof…”

She nodded, her face miserable. “Lack thereof would be appropriate.”

“That’s a problem.”

“Well, no kidding, Sherlock. When did you figure that out?”

Taken by surprise, he laughed.

Beth groaned and covered her face. “That was rude,” she muttered. “I’m sorry.”

“No need to apologize. You’re right. That was an inane remark.”

“Am I fired?”

He frowned, and then saw the twinkle in her eye and realized she was teasing. “On the contrary, I’m thinking I should add you on as an employee of the firm so that you’d be eligible for medical insurance.”

Her eyes clouded with doubt.

“Of course you’d remain here to help my mother. Making you an employee would only be a technicality.”

“But what about Tommy? He’d find out, wouldn’t he?”

The surge of anger that assaulted David shocked him. He wasn’t a violent man, but he’d love nothing more than to have his hands around Snyder’s scrawny neck. “Tom isn’t going to hurt you.”

“I know,” she said quickly, her eyes wary. “I only meant that his co-workers might find out about me. I don’t want to cause trouble for him.”

David’s anger swelled. “Why the hell do you care if he’s put out? Have you forgotten what he’s done to you?”

Her hand went to her stomach again. “Hardly.”

He pushed a hand through his hair. “I’m sorry. I was out of line.”

“No, you weren’t. You’re trying to help.” She shrugged, a serene smile curving her lips. “But my dragging Tommy down isn’t going to change anything between us. No matter what, he’ll still be my baby’s father. I hope someday they can have a relationship.”