As Luck Would Have It

Mark’s father was a chemist who ran the dispensary at Whipps Cross Hospital. They cooked octopus in its own ink, and we drank wine with it. We never had wine at home, so wine with dinner was my introduction to a more sophisticated style of living. It was strange eating this new dish swimming in black juice, and I’m afraid I almost gagged.

‘Did you enjoy it?’ my hosts enquired.

‘Oh, yes, very much,’ I replied politely, so they insisted I had seconds: I had talked myself into a second helping.

Mum and Dad were up when I got back home, waiting excitedly for news of what we had eaten for dinner.

‘Octopus,’ I told them.

‘Octopus!’

They frowned. What kind of friends was I cultivating?

It was entirely due to Bobby Brown that I started my theatrical career. Bobby was a fantastic influence for the good, so he was the first to stamp Hamlet on the passport (metaphorically so, in his case) that gained me entry to the wider world.

Bobby had a passion for drama and later left teaching to join the British Film Institute. We often wondered if there was a lady in his life, but we could never quite work it out. But there was never any suggestion that he was interested in boys. He followed my career later with extraordinary devotion, and he came round after the shows to give me stringent notes and say devastating things when all I wanted to hear was lavish, unstinting praise!

Our withered-arm headmaster, Mr Cummings, didn’t wholly approve of acting and actors: he created fear in our eyes, not a bad thing for the maintenance of order. Now the school is a sixth-form college, stuffed with glass and hi-tech gear, overrun by security guards in luminous coats with clipboards.

‘All a bit cissy’ was what the headmaster thought of us then. Mum cultivated him through the PTA, to which she belonged, to look more kindly on our acting talents, so you could say she was my first agent.

I met Mr Cummings at some function years later and ‘You’ve done all right for yourself, Jacobi!’ was what he said: just like that – ‘Jacobi!’ But he was more than pleased to see me again, and to know me.

Grandpa and Grandma were always a benign presence in my early existence, but it was one that could not go on forever. When they were near the end of their lives they were both (though in different wards) in Whipps Cross Hospital, a walking distance away from Essex Road.

It was here that Grandpa died first. We went down the corridor to see Grandma to tell her. I was there with Mum and Dad, Uncle Henry and Auntie Hilda. We stood looking at Grandma, wondering how she would take it. I remember Grandma just saying, ‘I know, I know. He came to say goodbye.’

I could feel Mum jerk a little and pull herself together as she stifled her tears. Grandma died a few weeks later.

I knew that these wonderful close family relatives my good fortune had brought me would not last forever. I wonder now how they could have lived and died in such proximity to each other. Uncle Henry, with his yen for betting heavily on horses and dogs, had been bailed out more than once by Hilda. He died from a heart attack in the front room in Essex Road, his body blocking the door when Dad found him and tried to get in. Hilda had gone some years before from cancer.

Auntie had been a very strict mother to Raymond. They waited till he was twenty-one before they told him he was adopted. Discovering this had a traumatic effect on him and he began to drink. He was twice married, and had a girl and a boy from each wife. I became godfather to the eldest, Gail, just before I reached fourteen.

Raymond died before his time. I guess life in the end just wasn’t good to him. Gail became a croupier for a time working at the Trocadero, Piccadilly, and we are still in touch.

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CLOUD-CAPPED TOWERS (#ulink_85f87e50-a884-5a5b-8109-4c335b39de45)

I had already picked on Cambridge as a means of entering the acting profession for good reason, and there were many there of exactly the same bent. I knew that Oxford and Cambridge were full of actors, and that it was how a lot of actors and directors embarked on successful careers. Most parents weren’t keen on their children going on stage and therefore many in the acting crowd I joined as soon as I arrived there had to make the choice between pleasing themselves or their parents, while I had the luxury of both.

I’d had an idyllic childhood, and now Mum and Dad were very supportive of me in whatever I wanted to do. Of course, they still had at the back of their minds that ‘Oh well, if he’s brainy, it would be much better if he became a doctor or a lawyer,’ because that was an accepted profession, and acting was not. It was always seen as important to have a ‘second string to the bow’, even by my parents, and I also wanted to continue my education as long as I could, as I loved school.

Armed with my State Scholarship I went up for two interviews at Cambridge to try for a place. My first choice was King’s College, where they said, ‘We’d love to have you, but you have to sit an entrance examination to confirm we have made the right decision.’ My other interview was at St John’s with Harry Hinsley, the Master of the College.

The Master was in appearance a rather grey man, very calm, friendly, very controlled like a schoolmaster, and quite retiring.

It was Saturday, the day of the Oxford–Cambridge boat race, and during the interview the Master said, ‘Do you mind if we break for a moment and listen to the boat race?’

‘No, that’s fine,’ I said, so we duly listened to the boat race. I was nonplussed by this unexpected turn of events. The race began and Harry grew more and more agitated and excited, while I had more or less switched off with all the prepared interview topics clanging around in my head.

‘We’ve won!’ the Master finally exclaimed. He was in such an excellent mood that he spun round and said, ‘You’re in!’

‘But don’t I have to take an exam?’ I stammered.

‘No, that’s fine,’ he said. ‘Let’s celebrate!’ and proceeded to open a bottle of champagne.

It was almost certainly the case that, more than anything else, it was my newly acquired reputation as an actor that got me into Cambridge. The Master – whom I was later to call Harry (as he became a good friend) – clearly knew all about my recent success in the Edinburgh Festival Hamlet. It would not be unfair to say that as a result I arrived at Cambridge already with a certain seal of approval.

I didn’t even have to do an interview or an audition, for as Alan Bennett has written, ‘Being interviewed for Cambridge was like being auditioned.’ Without the ‘like’, this actually is what my good friend Ian McKellen did a year later when he applied to St Catherine’s. Asked by the tutor Tom Henn for a speech from Henry V, which he had just played at school, he stood on a table and recited the whole of ‘Once more unto the breach, dear friends, once more.’ They gave him a college exhibition.

So now I could combine my love of school and schooling with my desire to act and become an actor. However, I must add at this point that it was also my good fortune to have been blessed with a near photographic memory, which was to be invaluable not only throughout my acting career, for obvious reasons, but during my time at Cambridge, when academic studies played second fiddle to acting and I was forced to rely on last-minute ‘instant revision’.

Also I had three years of paid irresponsibility ahead of me, which I was quite looking forward to. My state scholarship gave me over £100 per term, an enormous sum in my eyes. What was now coming out in me, in a more defined and understandable way – although who could ever know what was going to happen in the future? – was that I had only ever dipped my toe into life. Protected as I was, the golden boy, and now with the added protection of a scholarship, I never jumped in and wallowed. And yet when I acted, already I could feel the texture and depth to what I was doing and could dive deep down. But into real life I only ventured up to my ankles.

This is how my callow, early reasoning went: ‘I can cope with the unreality of the world of the imagination because it was laid out for me what was going to happen, and what I had to do.’ This was probably one of the reasons, later as a professional actor, I have never been much good at improvising – improvising is nearer to the real world when the unexpected happens, and I am not totally relaxed with that. It seems that I have always relegated my responsibilities to someone else in the real world.

Whenever I did try to improvise later I set out to try to make people laugh – the get-out, an easy way. Many actors do this: you can kid yourself you are doing it properly when you are not. A fun sketch I played later on the American TV comedy show Frasier, when the old ham actor, Jackson Hedley, is making his comeback, provides a good instance of this, with the audience’s ‘smiling faces frozen into a rictus of revenge’ (by now hamming was so second nature that when the episode came out I won an Emmy for it!).

But up to that point in my life, Hamlet and the twenty other roles I played at school were the be-all and end-all of my experience: ‘The readiness is all.’ I was completely unattached and did my best, as Hamlet did, to avoid being asked to cope.

I needed a director, as Hamlet found one in the ghost of his father. I needed a life director. I needed, too, an ensemble, a company, because I had always been a part of a wider family – the Jacobis of Leytonstone: Mum, Dad, the aunts and uncles, my cousins and grandparents. I would have to watch out.

What would happen when I was plunged into the real world?

AGE III (#ulink_d50c601c-b84a-50c9-8faa-bc7e1d3b5781)

SIGHING LIKE FURNACE (#ulink_d50c601c-b84a-50c9-8faa-bc7e1d3b5781)

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FIRST TERM, FIRST LOVE (#ulink_40bb8e1b-270c-5bfe-ab2d-b119d5ed5fb8)

This was the hallowed St John’s College, third on the left down King’s Parade after King’s, Clare’s and Trinity, with its beautiful St John’s Chapel, built by Margaret Beaufort, the founder, daughter of John of Gaunt, its famous choir, its Bridge of Sighs seen from the River Cam on a punt.

On arrival I felt just like a schoolboy. My parents dropped me off at my digs: in spite of my scholarship, the college had no room for me in my first year. We all cried – it was like being left on the moon. I was 54 miles from home, and to me that was a distance near to infinity. I was an only child from local Leytonstone schools where I had hardly walked more than 200 yards from home to my form room, where I had sprinted to classes with my mates, where we’d race each other along the road to the silver 1930s nude sculpture of a lady which stood in a window in a house nearby to see who could reach the naked lady’s bum first. The winner had the day at his feet.