Lay Me to Rest

Mrs Parry saw me staring at the painting and chuckled.

‘That used to be a very popular picture in these parts,’ she informed me. ‘It’s called “Salem”. Not my cup of tea at all – it belonged to Will’s mother. Here – ’ She waved a hand at the shawl the woman was wearing. ‘See, if you look carefully in the folds – it’s the face of the devil.’

I recoiled, wondering why on earth anyone would want to hang such a sinister, portentous picture in their home.

‘The story goes that the old woman arrived late for chapel so that everyone would notice her beautiful new shawl, apparently. The devil represents her wicked pride. Now then!’

I peered at the painting and shuddered. The creases of the shawl created the devil’s facial features – the fringe beneath its beard. It sent an unpleasantly cold feeling through my veins.

I followed Mrs Parry up the wide, dogleg staircase, gripping the sturdy oak banister for fear of slipping on the threadbare runner of carpet held in position by tarnished brass stair rods. She led me off the equally dark landing through a heavy wooden door into a pleasant but dimly lit room with an old sash window that stretched almost from floor to ceiling, the long brocade curtains tied back with thick golden cord.

The aspect through the yellow-tinted panes of glass was to the opposite side of the farmland from Tyddyn Bach. It revealed several fields of sheep, divided alternately by the usual low walls and intermittent trees, far beyond which stood a small, solitary house. At the farthest side of the first field, I could make out the well that Mr Parry had spoken of. A shiver ran through me.

The room seemed untouched by time. It was like stepping back into the nineteenth century. The air was stale, as though the space had remained unoccupied for months, or even years. An ancient brass double bedstead stood in the centre, covered with a faded gold silk eiderdown. There was an old blanket chest at its foot. A tallboy stood against the wall opposite, next to the window. In the corner of the room was a washstand, with mandatory porcelain pitcher and bowl, their glaze yellowed and cracked with age. The floor was of dark-stained oak boards, with a small, thin rug placed at one side of the bed. On the same side a large, dusty oil lamp sat on a low bedside cabinet.

With supreme effort, Mrs Parry slid the huge window open, winding the sash cord around a hook to secure its position. The gloom lifted immediately. Particles of dust danced in the soft shaft of light that had been allowed to pass through.

‘Phew! I’ll give it a good clean and make up the bed for you after lunch. It’s not as comfy as the bedroom in Tyddyn Bach, I know. But it’ll only be for a couple of nights. And it’s much cooler in here, to be honest. Better for this time of year, eh.’

I nodded in agreement. It had certainly been unbearably stuffy in the bedroom last night.

Peering through the window once more, I gazed at the old well across the field. I reflected on Mr Parry’s story – and wondered about the wretched girl who had drowned herself. What agonies she must have suffered, God only knows. If it was indeed her causing all the disruption, I could understand why she would feel aggrieved. But why was she targeting me? Was it because I too was pregnant?

I stood staring out of the window, my thoughts racing. Beyond the well, my eye was drawn to the small house in the distance.

‘Who lives there, Mrs Parry?’

The old woman turned to look. ‘That’s Marian’s place.’ She laughed. ‘I told you she was our neighbour. Round here that can mean anything up to a couple of miles or more!’

‘It looks … lonely.’

‘Oh, no – I wouldn’t say that.’ The old woman was dismissive. ‘It might look a bit isolated, but there’s always plenty going on over there. Never a dull moment. Marian’s husband used to farm, but he died years ago, so she sold off the land. It was only a small acreage, mind, so I don’t think she got much. It’s been a struggle for her, being on her own. She’s got two big lads still at home. They help Will out now and again, when it comes to lambing and such. Lovely boys, Ianto and Tudur. I expect you’ll meet them sooner or later; they’re round here often enough.’

I said nothing but resolved to take a walk over to the house at some point. I was more than curious to know if there was some other reason for Marian Williams’ animosity towards Peter and equally keen to learn more about Aneira. I began to churn the whole intriguing situation over in my brain like the plot for a whodunnit.

‘Anyway, bathroom’s down the landing, second door on the left. Well, cariad, I must press on. Will shall be back soon and I haven’t peeled the tatws yet!’

‘Is there anything I can do to help?’

‘No, no. You can come and talk to me if you like. I’ll tell you all about the antics our Glyn and Peter used to get up to. They were a pair, those two!’

Mrs Parry clearly relished an opportunity to talk about Glyn. I still found it desperately hard to speak of Graham in the past tense. Everything was still very raw and any mention of him sent me tumbling back into a very dark place. He had been part of my life for fourteen years. We met when I was working part-time as a waitress in a café, whilst finishing my PGCE. I served him and a group of his friends and had immediately been taken by his quiet, gentle manner and expressive grey eyes. I was thrilled when he had approached me at the end of the evening to ask for my phone number.

Ours was a whirlwind romance. I was bowled over by him and we had moved in together within three months. It was the happiest time I had ever spent. I hated myself now for having lost sight of what was important in life. My career had been the main focus of my existence these last few years; it now seemed completely irrelevant. I couldn’t care less if I ever entered a classroom again – but it was too late to realize that now. He was gone and nothing could bring him back.

Mrs Parry and I went back down to the kitchen and had been there only minutes when to my astonishment, a dishevelled Peter strolled in, his shirtsleeves rolled past his elbows, face and hands smeared with grime.

‘Bloody car!’ He sounded exasperated. ‘I’d barely done twenty miles when it broke down. I had to walk into Bethesda to the nearest sodding garage. The chap towed it and dropped me back here. He’s not sure what the problem is yet and said he’ll ring later. I’ve no hope of making the meeting now.’

‘Ah, bechod!’ Mrs Parry could not disguise her pleasure. ‘Well, looks like we’ll be needing to set an extra place for lunch.’

Inwardly, I could not help but squirm a little. In spite of all of Mrs Parry’s assurances, I was beginning to wonder if Peter was all he seemed. I tried to behave normally, but he had obviously seen enough of me by now to realize that something was awry.

‘What have you been up to today, then? Have you had chance to take a good look round yet?’ He stood leaning next to the sink as Mrs Parry frenziedly peeled more vegetables like a woman possessed.

I decided that honesty was the best policy. ‘I’ve had a bit of an upset, actually.’

Peter raised an eyebrow. ‘Oh? What’s happened?’

‘I … something weird happened out in the fields …’

I swallowed hard, unsure how much to divulge about my discovery. Mrs Parry decided to speak on my behalf. She shot Peter a knowing look.

‘Mrs Philips had, well, a bit of a fright out there. Seems it might have something to do with what happened to her last night … and she also enlightened me about some mischief you and Glyn got up to when you were lads,’ she said, hand resting on hip in a mock-scolding fashion. ‘What have you got to say for yourself?’

Peter looked sheepish. ‘It was a long time ago, Gwen. We were just daft kids – you know what we were like. Anything for a laugh.’

‘Well, I can’t pretend to understand what made you do something that daft. You weren’t stupid, either of you.’

‘No. I can’t explain it. We just felt … compelled, somehow. I suppose it was a bit of bravado too, you know, “I bet you wouldn’t dare” – that sort of thing.’

‘No matter. It’s over and done now. Anyway, Mrs Philips has decided to stay here in the house tonight. She doesn’t want to be in the cottage on her own. I suppose you’ll be staying too, then?’

‘It’ll all depend on what’s up with my car. The bloke will let me know before this afternoon, so I’ll know by then.’ He looked down at his hands. ‘Is it OK if I have a bath? I feel a right mess.’