Diary of a Domestic Goddess

Kit watched each of her old friends file out the door, shaking Cal’s hand and smiling as they left. Who were these people? It was as if she hadn’t known them at all. She half wondered if there were pods in the basement of the building, like in Invasion of the Body Snatchers.

Lucy took her envelope, opened it and gave a delighted exclamation, as if her Pepsi bottle cap had just declared her a winner.

Jo gave Kit a look, then stood up.

“Are you really going to do this?” Kit asked her.

“I don’t have any choice,” Jo said. “Look at that guy.” She nodded toward Cal. “He means business. You can see there’s no compromise there. He walked into this building intending to fire every one of us today and that’s just what he did.”

Kit felt as if she might cry. But she wouldn’t. No way. “I’m going to change his mind about that.”

Jo put her arm around her friend. “I bet you will, too. I know this is really important to you, but don’t forget there are other opportunities out there if you can’t make this one work. You’ll find a job and get that house.”

There was no sense in pointing out that she needed this job now in order to get this loan at this interest rate. “What about you? Did you win the lottery or something? How come you don’t need to worry about work?”

“I do, Kit, but I’ve been thinking about leaving this job lately anyway. I don’t want to be Mr. Fix-It forever. There are better things out there for me. And if I get to leave here with a good recommendation and a severance package, I’m better off than I thought I’d be two weeks ago when I started seriously thinking of quitting.”

Kit hadn’t even realized her friend had been so close to quitting.

“Listen,” Jo said, “if you want to stay and battle this out, I’ll take Johnny home. We’ll go to dinner and swing by your place later, okay?”

“Thanks,” Kit said. For a moment she’d forgotten Johnny was still waiting in her office.

That was the kind of thoughtfulness that was going to make Kit really and truly miss seeing Jo at work every day. She’d been so lucky to work with her best friend for so long.

Now Kit was on her own. And she was going to go forward and change Cal Panagos’s mind no matter what.

One by one the Home Life staff went until there were only two heartbeats left in the room: hers and Cal’s. And she was pretty sure hers was faster.

Cal turned from the doorway and looked at Kit with what she saw now, on closer inspection, were piercing pale blue eyes. They were Newmanesque. This guy could be a movie star.

In fact, if he’d chosen that route, Kit would have been a lot better off.

“There’s just one envelope left,” he said to her in a voice that had probably melted lots of foolish women’s hearts.

“Let me guess.”

He gave a quick smile, the unexpectedness of which took her aback, and held the envelope out to her. “Thanks for your work, Ms. Macy.”

She took a bracing breath and said, “I can’t take that.”

He cocked his head slightly. “I’m sorry?”

“I can’t accept your severance package.” She swallowed hard. She was suddenly self-conscious about her small, mousy self standing in front of him. She’d been in such a rush today that she hadn’t done anything with her wild tangle of auburn hair. And she hadn’t done the laundry in a few days and was wearing her Emergency Work Clothes, meaning gray pants that would have been a lot more flattering if she’d ever been able to stay on the South Beach Diet for more than two or three days.

Still, she had to work with what she had and she had to pretend she had confidence, even if at this particular moment she didn’t.

“I need this job,” she finished simply.

It was clear he hadn’t been expecting an objection from anyone. He cleared his throat and said, “Well, I’m honestly sorry about this, but—”

She took a gamble. “Moreover, you need me.”

He gave her look of dry query.

She nodded at his unasked question. “You do. I’m the only person who knows how to run this magazine. Okay,” she conceded quickly, “things have been a little rocky here financially, but I know where we are with assignments right now and who needs to be contacted and so on. You wouldn’t want to be sued for breach of contract.” Shoot. She shouldn’t have said that. She should have stopped while she was ahead.

From the look he gave her it was clear that Cal Panagos was not a man who liked being threatened, even in a veiled, passive-aggressive way.

He took a moment to straighten the lapel of his Italian-tailored dark gray suit. It fit him perfectly, both physically and metaphorically. It was perfect and cold.

“Everyone needs to be contacted and all assignments need to be canceled,” he said coolly. “My secretary can do that.”

“Can your secretary find her way around the filing maze Lucy created? Some of our legal papers are filed under L for legal, but others are under S for serious legal.”

Cal frowned as if he was trying to figure out whether Kit was on the level.

“Can your secretary figure out kill fees, which are different for each assignment and which are based on past history with each writer? The files are in a spreadsheet on my computer, but there are a lot of them to figure out. More to the point, do you want to pay her—or him—for the hours she’ll have to spend trying to find her way through that maze? Or do you want to keep on the one person who can expedite it?”

He frowned again, drawing a dark shadow across the expression in his light blue eyes. “It may be hard for you to imagine, Ms. Macy, but, yes, I think I can do all of that—and more—without you.” He tilted his head slightly. “After all, we’ve only just met. I’ve managed a much bigger publication than this without any guidance at all.”

She’d taken the wrong tack. She needed to back off quick and try something different.

Maybe plain old honesty would do the trick.

It wasn’t as if she had a lot of other options.

“Look,” she said, “I’m not saying you and your staff aren’t capable of these things. I’m just saying I’m already up to speed, so it makes a lot more sense, economically and timewise, to keep me on.” She looked into his eyes, feeling as though she was swimming against the current in the turbulent ocean of his eyes. “It would benefit both of us.”

His expression softened almost imperceptibly. Perhaps a slight turning of the tide. “Things are changing around here. A lot.”

“I can change.”

He raised an eyebrow slightly. This was a man who knew how he looked at all times and used it to communicate everything he wanted to say. “Are you willing to commit to doing it my way, even before you know what that means?”

She didn’t have any choice. “Yes. Tell me what you want me to do and I’ll do it. I’m a professional.”

He nodded thoughtfully.

“Please.” She bit the bullet so hard she wouldn’t have been surprised if her teeth shattered. “I really need my job.”

He was still holding the manila envelope with her name on it. He looked at it, then back at her. A long moment passed before he dropped the envelope on the desk.

“This goes against my better judgment,” he said.

Hope lurched in her chest. “Some of the best things in life begin with that very statement.”

He raked his gaze across her. “You’re a persuasive woman, Ms. Macy.”