Diary Of A Blues Goddess

“Georgia’s-gonna-get-some,” Dominique singsonged, waggling her hips. “A little sucking. A little fucking.”

“Why is it queens don’t know the meaning of the word understated?” In Dominique’s case, I’d settle for mildly dignified.

“I’m going to ignore Her Royal Bitchiness. Maggie, you should have seen the stare-downs between them.” Dominique twirled. A pair of tourists walked by, and she waved at them and struck a pose, daring them to take her picture, which they obligingly did.

“Seize the moment,” Maggie said, moving around to my left side and trimming away.

Dominique leaned over and grabbed her own rear end. “Seize some ass, honey. Some tight little ass.”

I shook my head; she was on a roll. There was no stopping her.

“Stop moving!” Maggie shouted at me. She finished my cut and we went back inside so she could blow out my hair. When she was finished, it looked shiny, straight and perfect. Of course, with my luck it would rain the minute I stepped out the door.

Next up was Dominique, with bleach across her eyebrows. She looks beautiful in platinum hair. When I see how striking she is, I just know occasionally the heavens screw up and send a girl down in a boy’s body.

Jack came into the kitchen, stretching, bare-chested, in a pair of plaid-flannel pajama bottoms.

“Hello, ladies.”

“Hey, Jack.” Maggie smiled. For a chance to be near him, she joins us at gigs every opportunity she gets. We tell the management she’s our manager. Maggie has partied with morticians, the national gathering of Kappa Alpha Phi fraternity, the New Orleans Fire Department (when, despite her love for Jack, she went home with a sexy captain who was Mr. November in a firemen calendar), orthodontists, the navy (when, again, despite her love for Jack, she went upstairs with a sailor who looked a lot like Tom Cruise) and the gathering of a Scottish Highland clan—who partied with us afterward and made us all drink single-malt scotch until we were sick.

“Mags.” Jack smiled back. “I love Georgie’s hair. You did a great job. Georgie, you look very sexy.”

“As opposed to my usual appearance?” I was getting tired of my band thinking I was little more than sequins and pantyhose.

“Give me a break. You always look hot, but this cut shows off your eyes, and how exotic-looking you are. Don’t tell me all this is for that guy last night.”

“Casanova Jones?” Dominique crossed her arms, waiting for the bleach Maggie applied to her eyebrows to work. “So tell us how he looked, Jack.”

“Nothing great. Not as beautiful as Georgia.”

“Get off it, Jack,” I muttered.

“I’m not. He just looked like any average on-the-make guy. In a penguin suit.”

“I’m not listening to this. I’ve got to go. I have a date.”

“Not with that guy, I hope.” Jack’s brotherly protective side took over.

“A certain piano player. Ta-ta, gang,” I said, brushing my shirt. “I’m off to get depressed or drunk enough to sing the blues.”

“Tell Red I said hi.” Dominique waved.

“I will.” I left the house and headed down the street. Whatever weather Cammie’s father had paid for the previous day was gone. New Orleans humidity hung as thick as Spanish moss. I tried to soak in the Crescent City’s native moodiness. If I was ever to become a blues goddess, it had to happen here, in the city I called home.

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5

R ed Watson is the blues. We found each other a couple of years ago when I kept returning to Mississippi Mudslide to hear him play the piano and sing. He won’t tell me how old he is—well, he does, but the number often changes—but I would say he is pushing eighty.

When I first heard him play, I felt a strange sense of déjà vu, as if all my life I’d had a tune in my head I hadn’t been able to quite remember, to give voice to. And then I heard his song, and it was as if it was already a part of me. As if the blues were in my blood. As if the song was mine.

I had finally grown the nerve to ask him to teach me the blues, to work with me. I’d been listening to jazz since I was born. Before that even, in my mother’s womb. But Red wasn’t interested. Not only wasn’t he interested, he brushed me off like a buzzing fly. So Tony, the band’s sometime-bass player and my partner in scouting out jazz music, and I went back to the Mudslide again and again. And again. We were tireless. Tony and I had always stayed through the last set to talk to Red, no matter how late it got.

“Now, you two here again?” Red had asked us.

Tony had just smiled and lifted his beer in salute.

“The Irishman and the lady.” Red sat down at our table. It was almost three in the morning.

“Incredible second set,” Tony said, his brogue made thicker by the beers he’d had.

“Now how’d a man from clear across the ocean—you told me you’re from Dublin—come to know so much about the Delta blues is what I want to know.” Red smiled.

Tony shrugged, always somewhat taciturn until you got to know him.

“Come on, now, how come you’re here most every night I play…when you two ain’t playing?” By now he knew we were in a band. Albeit one that played ABBA.

“I may be an Irishman, but in another life I must have been a Delta bluesman. Since I was this high—” Tony stuck out his hand “—they’re all I’ve wanted to play.” Tony’s black eyes had a faraway look.

“Another life? You a Buddhist, man?” Red asked.

Tony laughed, his smile always having the ability to change his face from incredibly serious and tough-looking to something childlike. He shook his head. “Maybe I am…maybe I am.”

“And you?” Red turned his head to me. “You still got some fool idea you want to sing the blues?”

I nodded.

Red just laughed. More like a hoot. “Child, now singin’ the blues isn’t like singing wedding songs. You gots to feel it, here.” He tapped by his collarbone. “Inside.”

“You ought to let her sing you one,” Tony said almost inaudibly, staring into his beer bottle, the little vein on his forehead throbbing.

Red looked at me. “But do you have it? Inside. See…I used to travel this country in a bus with ten other stinkin’, sweatin’ men and a blues goddess or two. We’d play in club after club until we was so worn-out. Hungry sometimes. Laughing and good times, too. But half the guys, they’re into reefer and sometimes worse. Sometimes a lot worse. And ’cause we’re black, we play the biggest shitholes this side of the Mississippi. We play the chitlin’ circuit. We know the blues, ya see.”

“Let her sing,” Tony said simply, with authority. Something about Tony made people take him seriously. Then he leaned over to me. “Just sing a few lines of ‘At Last.’ Go on, gorgeous.”

So it wasn’t an audition. Not really. Just the three of us in a club still smelling of lingering smoke as the bartenders and barbacks were breaking the place down for the night, glasses clinking, the place sort of echoing now that nearly everyone had left. Half the houselights were up, the floors were sticky with spilled alcohol. I sang the first verse of the Etta James classic, my voice echoing. I had nothing to lose. Red had been telling me for months I was too much of a kid to sing the blues. I wasn’t hardened by the road. I had no right to sing the blues. Not like the first ladies of the blues who all did time in jail, or got hooked on heroin, or went through five and six marriages, unable to find lasting love.

I sang the lines, thankful I’d had four black Russians to give me some extra nerve. And when I was done, Red leaned back in his chair, mouth open. Tony looked smug and bemused. Red didn’t say anything for a good minute. Finally, eyes twinkling, he leaned forward and said, “Now, child, how come you never told me you could sing the blues before?”

I knocked on the door of apartment 1A, the ground floor of an old Southern courtyard home. Red rents it for a song, literally, from an eccentric dot-com millionaire (there are still a few of them left) who trades cheaper rent for weekly piano lessons—even though the guy’s still struggling with “Twinkle, Twinkle, Little Star.”

“Is that my girlfriend?” Red smiled and opened the door, enveloping me in a hug and pulling me inside.

His apartment is nirvana to me. Original posters of Ella Fitzgerald, Nina Simone, Sidney Bechet, Billie Holiday, Mildred Bailey and Duke Ellington hang in frames covering every square inch of wall. It’s a shrine to all things blues and jazz. Each week I walk in and knock on the framed Mildred Bailey picture for luck. Though I don’t know how much luck poor Mildred had. She had an unbelievable voice, a way of singing that made you feel it deep down. But she was sort of homely and overweight, consequently overshadowed by the blues singers who would be packaged and powdered like sex.

“Drink, sugar?” Red winked at me and pulled out a bottle of Chivas. It’s our Sunday ritual. We each have half a glass—all his doctors will allow him each day now—and toast to life, the blues, sometimes even to death. Whenever a blues or jazz legend dies, we observe a moment of silence. On those days, we cheat and have a full glass.