Polly

Do I really want to go? But, for a whole year?

Too late to back out now.

‘Is that enough Marmite? Have I packed enough clothes?’

Polly weighs the merit of another jar of Marmite against another pair of jeans, looking from one to the other, chewing her lip and procrastinating.

I’m going to the home of the Blue Jean – bloody brilliant!

I’m going away from the home of Marmite – why would I want to do that?

The clothing loses, easily, and the jar of Marmite is wrapped in a T-shirt currently lying unproductive in the suitcase.

She returns to the bathroom. Dilemma. To pack a half-empty bottle of shampoo or buy new. Where? At the airport? Or over there, in America?

‘Saved by the bell!’ Polly cheers, straightening her brow and running away from the shampoo conundrum to answer the door.

‘Lalalalala-America!’

It’s Max. Singing. He has a lovely voice. Polly throws her arms about his neck and buries her face there while he wraps his arms about her waist and lifts her up. They waddle through the communal hallway back to her flat.

‘Switch the light off, bitch!’ comes the familiar tirade from Edith Dale, the old woman living on the top floor.

‘Hullo, hullo? What is the noise please? Is it Sunday?’ asks Miss Klee, the frail Swiss woman who lives on the floor above Polly.

‘It’s Monday, Miss Klee, the eighth of September,’ a muffled Max informs, Polly still clasped on to him, while he flicks the hallway light back on.

Back in Polly’s flat, Max sets her down. She goes over to the French doors, sighs at her minute patio and then returns to him.

‘I don’t want to go, I don’t want to go,’ she whispers, drumming her fists lightly against his chest. ‘Tell me I don’t have to!’ she pleads. ‘Tell me to stay.’

Max holds her wrists and lays her hands either side of her face. ‘Daft thing,’ he says with affection, noting her eyes are currently a very sludgy green. ‘Of course you’re going. It’s an amazing opportunity.’

‘A-maze-ing,’ Polly repeats ruefully. ‘Will you miss me?’ she implores, scanning Max’s face which she knows off by heart, wondering how on earth she’ll cope without easy access to it over the next year.

‘Will you miss me?’ she asks again, this time pouting becomingly.

‘Just as much as you’ll miss me,’ Max assures, pressing his finger gently on the tip of her nose. Her eyes smart with tears but she swallows them away for the time being.

‘Packed?’ he asks, ‘ready?’

‘Yes,’ says Polly in a small voice, ‘and no.’

‘Clothes as well as Marmite?’

‘Yes,’ Polly replies, ‘and yes. The jars would crack otherwise, wouldn’t they? Come and see.’

The lid on the suitcase had fallen closed and, as she lifted it, Polly wondered whether the contents would be entire, or half eaten.

‘Absolutely fine,’ she said, on close scrutiny.

‘Hey?’ said Max, casting his eyes away from the rattle of hangers in the cupboard, the hungry shelves.

‘Oh, nothing,’ Polly smiled.

‘Come here, Button,’ he said quietly. She went over to him and slid her fingers into the front pockets of his trousers.

‘Why do you call me Button?’ she asked for the thousandth time. Max replied with his thousandth shrug. They heaved the suitcase from the bed and curled up together in the impression it had left.

‘Can’t I pack you?’ Polly asked, walking fingertips over his face.

‘You’d have to forego a lot of Marmite,’ Max qualified, taking her hand and kissing the palm.

‘Do you know, I don’t think I can live without either of you,’ said Polly honestly, folding her fingers lightly over his nose.

Lazily, Max travelled his hand over her body, admiring, as ever he did, her petite frame. Max knelt up beside Polly and looked down upon her.

Polly Fenton. Like a figure ‘2’, folded like that. Just us two, too. I must soak it all up. Commit it all to memory, although I don’t doubt absence making my heart all the fonder. Strange, though.

Polly had placed an arm across Max’s knees, her hand patting his stomach.

‘I’m going to America,’ she told him quietly, as if for the first time. ‘Can’t wait,’ she said, eyes wide. ‘Don’t want to go,’ she continued, eyes wider still, khaki flecking across them as he watched. Max laughed softly through his nose and bent low to kiss her forehead. Suddenly her arms were around his neck and, though it threatened to break his back, he let her kiss him as if she would never stop. Dozens of feathery lip pinches, like popcorn popping, one after another after another, small and involuntary noises accompanying them. It made him smile but still she continued, kissing his teeth now instead. He pulled away, cocked his head and observed her, returning his lips to hers and just pressing against them, no puckering, while privately asking himself ‘Is she really going?’

Max placed his arms either side of Polly’s head and straddled her. He dipped his upper body low, like a press-up, and kissed her nose. He continued these press-up lip-presses, alighting on her forehead, her cheek, her left eye, her chin, her nose, her right eye, her forehead again. As he neared her nose for the third time, she held his face gently and greeted his lips with hers. A long, soft kiss, soon enough a deeper kiss; eyes open and so close that they blurred; passion and love legible regardless.

Up they sat and undressed themselves, like they always did. You touch me while I touch you, like we always do. Under the covers. Cuddle sweetly, kiss lightly. Kiss with tongues. Move closer and grind subconsciously. Fondle her breasts. Feel his cock. Finger her sex. Sidle down his torso and then suck him. Hear his breathing quicken. Good. Flip her over and lick her. Enough. Cover her. Enter her. Hold his buttocks. Kiss his neck. Squeeze her nipples. Kiss. Smile.

Moan. Move.

Swap places.

Move. Moan.

Swap again.

Silence.

Not any more.

Come.

Together.

Kissing and smiling.

Like they always did.

‘Will you miss me?’ she had asked.