For a time they were silent, and then Father Algarcife looked up.
"John," he said.
"Yes?"
"If – if things should ever occur to – to shake your faith in me, you will always remember that I tried to do my best by the parish – that I tried to serve it as faithfully as Father Speares would have done?"
Ellerslie started.
"Of course," he answered – "of course. But why do you say this? Could anything shake my faith in you? I would take your word against – against the bishop's."
Father Algarcife smiled.
"And against myself?" he asked, but added, "I am grateful, John."
When Ellerslie had gone, a man from the Bowery came in to recount a story of suffering. He had just served a year in jail, and did not want to go back. He preferred to live straight. But it took money to do that. His wife, who made shirts, and belonged to Father Algarcife's mission, had sent him to the priest. As he told his story he squirmed uneasily on the edge of Mariana's chair, twirling his shapeless hat in the hands hanging between his knees. The dog crouched against his master's feet, growling suspiciously.
Father Algarcife rested his head against the cushioned back, and regarded the man absently. He believed the man's tale, and he sympathized with his philosophy. It was preferable to live straight, but it took money to do so. Indeed, the wisest of preachers had once remarked that "money answereth all things." He wondered how nearly the preacher spoke the truth, and if he would have recognized a demonstration of his text in the man before him with the shapeless hat.
Then he asked his caller a few questions, promised to look into his case on Monday, and dismissed him.
Next came Sister Agatha, to bring to his notice the name of a child on East Twentieth Street, whom they wished to receive into the orphanage. He promised to consider this also, and she rose to go, her grave lashes falling reverently before his glance. After she had gone he pushed his chair impatiently aside and went to his desk.
On the lid lay the completed sermon, and he realized suddenly that it must be delivered to-morrow – that he must play his part for a while longer. At the same instant he determined that on Monday he would deed over his property to the church. He would face his future with clean hands. He would start again as penniless as when he received the vestments of religion. Save for the farm in the South and a small sum of rental, he would have nothing. He would be free!
There was no hesitancy, and yet, mixed with the elation, there was pain. Beyond Mariana's eyes, beyond the desire for honest speech, he saw the girlish face of young Ellerslie, and the grave, reverential droop of Sister Agatha's lashes. He saw, following him through all his after-years, the reproach of the people who had believed in him and been betrayed. He saw it, and he accepted it in silence.
Raising his head, he encountered the eyes of the ancestor of Father Speares. For an instant he shivered from a sudden chill, and then met them fearlessly.
CHAPTER XIV
Through the long night Mariana lay with her hands clasped upon her breast and her eyes upon the ceiling. The electric light, sifting through the filmy curtains at the windows, cast spectral shadows over the pale-green surface. Sometimes the shadows, tracing the designs on the curtains, wreathed themselves into outlines of large poplar leaves and draped the chandeliers, and again they melted to indistinguishable dusk, leaving a vivid band of light around the cornice.
She did not stir, but she slept little.
In the morning, when Miss Ramsey came to her bedside, there was a flush in her face and she appeared stronger than she had done since her illness.
"Is it clear?" she asked, excitedly. "If it is clear, I must go out. I feel as if I were caged."
Miss Ramsey raised the shades, revealing the murky aspect of a variable day.
"It is not quite clear," she answered. "I don't think you had better venture out. There is a damp wind."
"Very well," responded Mariana. She rose and dressed herself hurriedly; then she sat down with Miss Ramsey to breakfast, but she had little appetite, and soon left the table, to wander about the house with a nervous step.
"I can't settle myself," she said, a little pettishly.
Going up-stairs to her room presently, she threw herself into a chair before the fire, and looked into the long mirror hanging on the opposite wall.
She was possessed with a pulsating memory of the evening before – of Anthony, and of the kiss he had left upon her lips. Then swift darts of fear shot through her that it might all be unreal – that, upon leaving her, he had yielded once more to the sway of his judgment. She did not want judgment, she wanted love.
As she looked at her image in the long mirror, meeting her haggard face and dilated eyes, she grew white with the foreboding of failure. What was there left in her that a man might love? What was she – the wreck of a woman's form – that she could immortalize a man's fugitive desire? Was it love, after all? Was it not pity, passing itself for passion? Her cheeks flamed and her pulses beat feverishly.
She turned from the glass and looked at her walking-gown lying upon the bed.
"I can't wait," she said, breathlessly. "I must see him. He must tell me with his own lips that it is true."
She dressed herself with quivering fingers, stumbling over the buttons of her coat. Then she put on her hat and tied a dark veil over her face.
As she came down-stairs she met Miss Ramsey in the hall.
"Mariana, you are not going out!" she exclaimed.
"Only a little way," said Mariana.
"But it has clouded. It may rain."
"Not before I return. Good-bye."
She opened the hall door. Pausing for an instant upon the threshold, a soft, damp air struck her, and overhead a ray of sunshine pierced the clouds.
She fastened the furs at her throat and descended to the street.
At first she had no definite end in view, but when she had walked a block the idea of seeing Anthony grew stronger, and she turned in the direction of his house. The contact of the moist air invigorated her, and she felt less weak than she had believed herself to be. When she reached the rectory she hesitated a moment with her hand upon the bell, trembling before the thought of seeing him – of hearing him speak. She rang, and the door was opened.
"Can I see Father Algarcife?" she asked.
Agnes eyed her curiously.
"Why, he's at church!" she responded. "He's been gone about a half-hour or so. Is it important?"
"No, no," answered Mariana, her voice recovering. "Don't say I called, please. I'll come again."
"Perhaps you'll step in and rest a bit. You look tired. You can sit in the study if you like."
"Oh no, I will go on. I will go to the church." She started, and then turned back. "I believe I will come in for a few minutes," she said.
She entered the house and passed through the open door into the study. A bright fire was burning, and the dog was lying before it. She seated herself in the easy-chair, resting her head against the cushions. Agnes stood on the rug and looked at her.
"You are the lady that came once in that terrible storm," she said.
"Yes, I am the one."
"Would you like a glass of water – or wine?"
Mariana looked up, in the hope of dismissing her.
"I should like some water, please," she said, and as Agnes went into the dining-room she looked about the luxurious study with passionate eyes.