No Holding Back

“I know you would, O’Reilly. But you don’t get your ‘rathers’ in this business until you’ve been around a lot longer than you have.”

“So you’ve said.” Ad nauseam. “But I—”

“No butts.” He gave her bare shoulder a condescending squeeze and winked. “Just boobs.”

Ew.

She approximated a smile, knowing further argument would only cement his opposition. But grrrrrr. How much girly news could a nongirly woman stand? Girly dress tonight aside.

She needed to find a story on her own, something bigger and sexier than the drug side effects, something so compelling that even Pig Lester couldn’t turn it down. A huge scoop with enough popular appeal to hook him, but enough substance to further her career and get her on such sound financial footing that if her parents’ lives imploded again she could be the one they could depend on.

Like…

Like…

Yeah. Like that.

She blew out a breath and spotted another waiter, wished her boss a Happy New Year that she barely managed to keep from sounding like Damn You and Your Family to Hell, and followed, determined to score more alcohol, this time to numb the frustration. A story about boobs. Whoopee. The year ended in approximately fifteen minutes and as far as she was concerned, good riddance. Landing what she thought would be her dream job hadn’t worked out. Again. Her last boyfriend hadn’t worked out. Again. Her determination to lose ten pounds hadn’t worked out. Again. Twenty-nine years old and she thought she’d be set for life by thirty.

At least circumstances had miraculously turned around for Mom and Dad. Though fat lot of help she’d been able to be.

The waiter stopped to serve an evening-gowned trio. This was her chance.

“Hannah.” Her closest work-friend, business reporter Daphne Baldwin, snagged her hand and dragged her into the library. “You have to meet this person…Dee-Dee something. Royco or Rosmer or Rrrrrr…I forget. But you have to meet her.”

“Why?” Hannah glanced wistfully at the top of the retreating waiter’s head, his tantalizing tray just visible above the crush of people. So close, and yet…

“Because, she’s…wait.” Daphne searched the room and frowned. “She was just here.”

“Where’s Paul?”

Daphne made a face. “He wouldn’t come. Said he didn’t see why he should get dressed up in uncomfortable clothes and hang around people he didn’t know and didn’t want to know, when he could stay home and be comfortable drinking without having to worry about driving drunk.”

He had a point, though Hannah wouldn’t dare admit it out loud. There were times she felt Daphne’s mellower half would be happier with a woman who matched his nonenergy, and that Daphne needed more of a live wire, but Daphne insisted he was her life’s ballast. Hannah thought he was more her life’s punching bag. “So you’re a wild single tonight. He better watch out.”

“I don’t know, Hannah, he’s been acting weird lately. Doesn’t want to do anything with me.”

“You mean he no longer jumps to do everything you want to do?”

“Ha ha ha.” Daphne continued to scan the crowd, unperturbed by Hannah’s bull’s-eye zinger. “I’m serious. He’s been distant and…I don’t know, unresponsive. Like there’s something really bugging him, but he won’t tell me.”

“Do you think he’s cheating?”

“What?” Daphne’s horror was immediate, and so impressive that nearby heads turned.

Oops. Where was the Reverse button on this conversation? Obviously Hannah had struck a nerve, and it wasn’t her place to torture her friend by planting suspicions. “No, no, I don’t think he is, I just…Isn’t that what you always suspect when—”

“Paul would never cheat. He doesn’t have the time. Or the initiative.”

Oof. As much as Hannah loved Daphne, sometimes she thought Paul should cheat, just to stop her from taking him for granted. “Something at work?”

“He’d tell me that. It’s probably a midlife crisis. Men get those all the time, don’t they? Serves them right for not being slaves to hormones every month like we are.” She frowned and plunked her hands onto her enviably trim hips. “Now where the heck is that woman?”

“Why do I need to meet this person?” Hannah sighed, queasy over her friend’s relationship attitudes and feeling generally cranky. She didn’t want to make small talk with any strangers, not even Mr. Hot-Wild-Single-Whoever. The dress was wasted. The night was wasted. The year was wasted. Her life was on its way to being wasted. Only she wasn’t wasted because the damn waiters were avoiding her.

Fine. She’d ring in the New Year, butt-kiss Gerard for spending gazillions on people he underpaid, and get home to the city before the predicted ice storm hit. Too bad about her fantasy of spending the night enraptured with a new love, but probably just as well. It was always the same tired story. She fell for men like stemware during an earthquake, then when they sensed the depth of her passion and excitement and hope for the future, they abruptly moved on. No matter how hard she tried to act indifferent, men could always tell. Maybe she should make a resolution tonight to avoid the gender altogether.

“Come on.” Daphne dragged her out of the library into another room, some sort of study, then another huge garish living room, as if the front living area the size of Hannah’s entire apartment wasn’t enough. “Don’t see her here, either. Let’s go back.”

“Ooh, wait.” Hannah caught a glimpse of Rory, the VP of advertising whom she had a minicrush on, standing alone, looking a little lost. At the office Rory barely acknowledged her in her usual attire of jeans and baggy sweaters. Should she test her slinky red-sequined minidress out on him and see if he—

Argh! What was she, some kind of addict? Ten seconds and she’d already forgotten her resolution. Men bad, Hannah. Alone good. Alone safe.

Alone, boring and predictable.

“Let’s try this way.”

Hannah dug in her feet before Daphne could continue bulldozing. “Would you mind telling me what is so thrilling about this person?”

“Oh. Right. Duh.” Daphne thwacked her forehead, making her fabulous brown curls bounce. “She’s close to Jack Brattle.”

Zip. Hannah’s gaze left Rory’s tall form at light speed and fixed on her friend. “Jack Brattle?”

“Knew that’d get your attention.”

“Where is she?” Hannah grabbed Daphne’s rock-muscled arm, not even indulging her usual envy for Daphne’s discipline in the gym. “Find her. An interview with Jack Brattle could get me—”

“I know, I know, world renown and riches galore. Why do you think I wanted you to meet her?” Daphne pulled Hannah—or was Hannah now pulling Daphne?—toward the house’s huge foyer into which spilled a staircase worthy of Scarlett O’Hara’s Tara. And at this staircase, oh happy day, Daphne proceeded to point. “There she is.”

And there she was, a little-black-dress-clad platinum-blond bombshell cliché, sauntering down the steps on requisite spike heels. A perfect candidate for Lester’s “Rack of Glam” article.

“I’m sorry, is there a Pamela Anderson look-alike contest tonight?”

“Shh.” Daphne positioned herself at the bottom of the staircase. “Hi, Dee-Dee.”

“Hey.” Dee-Dee reached them, shook back her mane of peroxide and flicked a glance at Hannah. “Cool dress.”

“Thanks. Thank you.” Hannah gave her best ingratiating grin. “I love yours, too.”

“This is Hannah O’Reilly. She works with me at the Sentinel.”

“Yeah?” Another shake of overcooked hair.

“She writes the Lowbrow column.”

“Oh!” Something approaching life quivered in her too-taut face. “I love your column! You’re always fighting with that guy who writes the Highbrow column, D. G. Jackson. Too funny!”

“Yes!” Hannah gritted her teeth. Way too funny. Mr. Jackson took malicious delight in thumbing his nose at her column, which extolled the virtues of inexpensive food and entertainment around the city of brotherly love, while his dwelt on places and things no normal person could afford and no sane person would waste that much money on. She’d responded to one particularly degrading remark by sending him a case of Grey Poupon and blogging about it. He’d reciprocated with cans of spray-cheese. Word got out, and now both their editors were fanning the flames…all in the name of circulation and buzz.