Mummy Said Goodbye

She told the boy’s father which field practice would be held on and what time they started. “Will you be able to bring him tomorrow?”

“I fly out in the morning. My father stays with the kids. I’ll ask him.”

“Good. I’ll look for Brett.”

“Thank you,” Craig said, with a depth of emotion impossible not to hear.

“It wasn’t any huge effort. I’m just…nudging.” That was how she often thought of her job: tiny prods, scarcely noticed, that gradually steered kids in a different direction, or made their parents react differently. She couldn’t demand, couldn’t order, couldn’t produce revelations that would change people’s lives. What she could do was nudge. “But you’re welcome,” she added.

“Will you let me know how the week goes?”

“Of course I will.” She had a thought. “In fact, I’ll e-mail you, if you like. Brett supplied your address for school records. I don’t know if you check it when you’re out of town…”

“I do, when I can.”

“Then I’ll give you an objective view of how the first practice goes.”

“Great. Thank you,” he said again.

At school the next day, Brett was quiet and withdrawn, but he did get a 90% on a pop spelling quiz. She smiled at him when she handed the graded quizzes out after lunch. Robin thought she saw a quick flush of pleasure on his face.

She’d already talked to her son about Brett, but she repeated herself on the way to practice that afternoon.

“Brett may not want to come back if he feels ignored.”

“Mom…”

She frowned at a red light. They couldn’t be late today. Not today! They just had to be at the field ahead of Brett and his grandfather. “You’ll kind of stick with him, right? Make sure he’s not sitting off by himself?”

“Mom…”

The light finally—finally!—turned green and she rocketed forward, ignoring her son’s exaggerated grip on the armrest. “His soccer skills may be rusty. Maybe you could give him tips. Not obviously. Make it casual, so he’s not embarrassed, but…”

“Mom!”

“What?” Startled, she shot a glance at her lanky, almost-twelve-year-old son, who was tugging wildly at his brown hair.

“I heard you the first time! Brett’s cool. Okay? Nobody’s going to ignore him. Jeez, Mom. It’s not like we stand around. We’ll be doing drills or running laps. Okay?”

She took a deep breath. “Okay. I’m sorry. I’m just kind of nervous about this. Since I set it up.”

“I can tell,” he said with heavy irony.

Robin grinned at him. “Have I mentioned lately that I love you?”

He rolled his eyes. “Yeah, like, ten times a day.”

“I love you.”

“Don’t say that in front of anybody.”

“I’m not a complete idiot.”

They both laughed. He trusted her; she trusted him.

They turned into the gravel parking lot and crunched their way to the far end, closest to today’s field. Malcolm leaped out, freed his soccer ball from its net bag and tossed it to the grass. Turning back, he grabbed his water bottle.

Robin popped the trunk and pulled out her lawn chair and the tote bag in which she carried a book and a can of soda. Just as she slammed the trunk, a red Honda van pulled into the next slot.

A dizzying sense of déjà vu swept over her. Julie would leap out, calling out, “We made it! Hold up, and we can walk over together.”

Julie had loved her van for everything she could pack into it and for its shiny strawberry-red color. She’d always been willing to drive to any activity, to run anybody’s kid home, to whisk across town for someone’s forgotten shin guards or jersey. She was every team mother, every room mother.

Robin felt a painful squeeze in her chest, as if only at this moment did she understand that her cheerful, generous friend was truly gone.

How? Why? she begged incoherently, knowing there would be no answers. And then, I’m trying to take care of him. She tried to tell Julie, hoping she could somehow hear, know.

Out of the driver’s side climbed an older man who looked a great deal like his son. Robin remembered seeing him at games, although he’d tended to be down on the sideline rather than sitting in the bleachers with her and Julie. With dark hair cut short and an erect carriage, he had the air of retired military. Wearing a polo shirt and shorts, he glanced around, his expression wary when he met Robin’s gaze.

“Mr. Lofgren?”

“Yes?”

She smiled. “I know we’ve met before. I’m Robin McKinnon. Brett’s teacher this year. This…” she turned in search of him, “is my son, Malcolm, who has grown about a foot since you last saw him.”

Brett’s grandfather, too, smiled, his face relaxing. “Robin. Malcolm. I remember you.” He nodded at the lawn chair. “Do you watch practice?”

“Yes, usually, unless I have quick errands to run.”

“Ah. I wondered if I should stay.”

Brett and a pretty, younger girl had gotten out, the girl looking around curiously, Brett pretending he hadn’t noticed anybody else’s presence.

“Hey!” Malcolm said. “It’s great you’re joining the team. We missed you.”

Bless him, Robin thought. The speech was unusually loquacious for an eleven-year-old boy. They seemed to communicate mainly in grunts and raucous laughs. Malcolm had been listening to her.

Brett pretended to look surprised to see her son. “Hey,” he said in response.

“Come on.” Mal jerked his head. “You know how Coach feels about us being late.”

Brett grimaced. “Yeah, I remember.”

Kicking their soccer balls before them, the two boys struck off across the field. They were a handsome pair, both tall and athletic in their shorts, shin guards and loose-fitting T’s.

Beside her, Brett’s grandfather said, “This was nice of you.”

“I hope it works out,” she worried.