It was an odd thing, he thought, that the nearer they got to finding out who had murdered his family, the more distant he seemed from it all; as though he was a stranger looking on.
The love for his family was still there, but it was moving away, to that corner of his heart where he could put down the shutters and keep it safe for all time, without allowing it to overwhelm his life.
The realisation made him feel guilty, yet strangely relieved.
Suddenly his thoughts were shattered when he heard the outer doors swing open. Into the reception area came two officers. With them, and obviously in custody, was Lilian, accompanied by his brother, Dougie.
Dougie saw Tom there and nodded. Lilian, however, glanced once and afterwards kept her gaze averted.
The shame of what she had done to him was unbearable.
Taken to the desk, she was duly charged in connection with the murder of Sheila Arnold and her children.
When she heard the charge, she was riveted with shock. ‘No!’ Shouting and struggling, with both officers holding her still, she vehemently protested her innocence. ‘You’ve got it all wrong. I wouldn’t murder them … they were my friends!’
Appealing to Tom, she screamed, ‘Tell them! Tell them I would never hurt them. I’m innocent. Tom, please … tell them!’
Torn by powerful emotions, Tom was out of his depth. ‘If you’re innocent, you have nothing to fear,’ he said quietly.
His gentle voice and quiet manner seemed to calm her, for suddenly the fight was gone from her and she was sobbing. ‘I wouldn’t hurt them, I wouldn’t.’
Dougie spoke to her. For a moment she looked at him, then, as they took her away, she told him, ‘You believe me, don’t you, Dougie?’
He nodded.
She smiled. ‘You understand me, don’t you?’
Again, he nodded.
Now, as the officer urged her away down the corridor, she shocked both Tom and Dougie to their roots: addressing Dougie, she revealed, ‘I didn’t tell you before, but now I want you to know … I’m having your child.’
As they took her away, Dougie stood stock still, eyes wide with amazement and something else: a look of horror on his face that Tom had never seen before. ‘Dougie, are you all right?’ What Lilian had said was a complete and utter shock. Not for one minute had Tom imagined anything was going on between his brother and Lilian.
And it wasn’t only that, because there was something here he could not understand; some dark business he could not quite get to grips with.
Behind them, Inspector Lawson flung open the door of the interview room. ‘Charge him!’ Having got the information he wanted, the interview was over.
‘Bastard!’ William Aitken had not taken kindly to being interviewed.
As he looked up at the inspector, standing there in the open doorway, his attention was caught by Tom and Dougie quietly talking beyond: one calm and reassuring, the other seeming to be upset and agitated.
Without warning, Aitken was out of his chair and running across the room. ‘THAT’S HIM!’ Surging forward, he was swiftly intercepted by the officer, who fought hard to hold him. ‘THAT’S THE GEEZER WHO PAID ME TO HIDE THE CAR!’ Pointing and yelling, he struggled to escape.
All eyes turned to Dougie, who by now was edging towards the door.
To his horror, he had recognised the young man who had been at the breaker’s yard. The very same young man who had taken his money and hidden the car so well that it had never been found. Until now!
Disbelieving, Tom looked at the young man, then he turned his gaze to Dougie. ‘YOU?’ Unable to comprehend what was happening, he stared at his brother for what seemed an age, his brain echoing with what Aitken had said. It was too much to take in. He shook his head, a half smile creeping over his features, now grey with shock. ‘No!’ The word was soft, almost gentle, then stronger as he asked, ‘Was it you who killed my family?’
When he saw the guilt in his brother’s eyes, the truth hit him like the blow of a hammer. ‘Oh, God!’ Lurching forward, he grabbed hold of Dougie, his voice escalating to a scream, his eyes swimming with tears. ‘NO … o … o … oo!’ Tom’s heart-wrenching scream sent a chill through everyone there.
In that split second, everything erupted: Dougie made a dash for the door, and Tom went after him, leaving chaos in his wake.
Yelling for somebody to help, and taking along the only free officer, Inspector Lawson sped after Tom and his brother, but they had a head start, and with the smog closing in all over London they could be lost to sight in minutes.
Outside, the fall of night mingled with the choking smog, lying like a dark blanket over everything: a real ‘peasouper’, the officer called it.
They scanned the road ahead. ‘THERE!’ The officer caught sight of Tom, relentlessly pursuing his brother along the narrow streets.
‘Quick! Get after them!’
Sending the younger, fitter officer to try and head them off, Inspector Lawson stayed with Tom; through the railings on the far side of the street, then on, across the park, and towards the railway embankment. One minute he was there, the next he was gone from sight, dodging in and out; hidden where the fog was thickening, and visible again where it wasn’t quite settled. He could see Tom going like a crazy thing. ‘Leave it, Tom. We’re onto it!’
His heart went out to Tom and, though he wouldn’t blame him if he closed his bare hands round his brother’s neck and squeezed till his eyes popped out, he didn’t want Tom to pay the price for what his brother had done. ‘TOM! LET IT GO!’ And still Tom dogged his brother’s footsteps, closing in on him with every second, suffocated by hatred and confusion. It had been Dougie all along, he knew that now. Yet, how could that be?
When the chase took them across waste ground, the smog had settled low and heavy; it was difficult to see a hand in front of your face, but Dougie was slowing down, stumbling and tripping, giving Tom the advantage he needed. Behind him, equally determined, the inspector kept sight of Tom.
Ahead of them, the officer cut across, trying to hem them in, but several times they veered away and he lost them again.
Tom had only one thing in mind. He had to look Dougie in the eye. He had to know the truth. Why did he do it? WHY? WHY?
In his frantic mind he could see Sheila’s face, the way she had glanced back and recognised him. What was going through her head? Why didn’t she call out his name?
As he ran, he could hardly see for the tears that ran down his face: tears of rage; tears of sorrow. As they trickled down his face, the cold night air dried them on his skin. He felt like a man broken – a man, yet not a man.
The thick burning smog clogged his throat, yet he could feel none of it. All he could see was Sheila’s shocked face as she had glanced out of the back window. Then they were over the cliff and she was no more.
For a minute Dougie disappeared. Frustrated, Tom paused and looked about. Out of the corner of his eye he caught sight of Dougie. Suddenly he seemed to dip and fall, vanishing from Tom’s view, before Tom, too, fell over the edge, slipping and sliding, until now the two of them were on the railway track.
As the dry, smouldering smog closed in about him, he could taste it on his tongue, feel the burning in his eyes. His vision was impaired. Negotiating the slim, hard tracks beneath his feet, he kept up, with Dougie slowing and stumbling just ahead.
What happened next was so sudden it took the breath out of Tom.
They didn’t hear Inspector Lawson’s warning as he called out, ‘FOR GOD’S SAKE, GET OUT OF THE WAY!’ Nor did they see the train until it was on top of them.
Frantic, Tom threw himself forward, at the same time screaming out a desperate warning to his brother. Dougie, though, was intent on escaping, his mind filled only with the horror of what he had done to his own brother. He thought of what Lilian had told him …‘I’m having your child.’ Oh, God!
Thundering forward, the train bore down on him. At the last minute he tried to leap out of the way, but it was too late. His foot caught in the track and he was mown down. Unaware, the engine-driver shovelled more coal onto the fire. He had a timetable to stick to. The train sped on.
Clambering forward, the inspector had seen it all. ‘Oh, Jesus!’ Like Tom, he ran on, to find Dougie writhing in a river of his own blood, his leg severed at the thigh.
Distraught, Tom knelt beside him. For a minute he couldn’t speak. All he could do was hold his brother, and listen.
‘You had them … all … not fair.’ He gave a half smile, more sad than wicked. ‘I killed them … Sheila … mine.’ Dougie’s life ebbed away, and with it his confession. ‘She wanted … me.’ He gave a yell of pain that tore at Tom’s heart. ‘She … changed her … mind.’
The look he gave Tom was filled with hatred. ‘You always … had everything! I wanted her … so much. She did … love … me.’ Lying back in Tom’s arms, he closed his eyes. ‘Six years … together. Not … your … son.’ He looked into Tom’s stricken eyes, and felt a measure of regret. ‘Forgive me.’
His head lolled backwards, that fragile, gossamer-like sigh telling Tom that Dougie was no more.