âUsed to date?â Mia stared at him, waiting.
âLara died six months ago.â He met her gaze and saw questions widening her eyes.
âOh. Where does Lily live now?â He thought Mia played with her cup to hide her expressions.
âOfficially Iâm her guardian. Lara and Reba lost their parents years ago, so Lilyâs staying with a woman named Hilda Vermeer, a foster mother.â He grimaced. âShe was a real tartar when I was a kid, but sheâs mellowed a lot since. I think Lily feels safe with her.â
âChildren should feel safe,â Mia murmured almost to herself.
âYour mother said that to me once.â Caleb figured it was unlikely that Harlan would talk about his former partner. He thought Mia must feel starved for details about her mother. Again that desire to protect her bloomed inside him.
âShe protected you from your father,â Mia said thoughtfully. âMaybe thatâs why she arranged for me to marry Harlan, to keep me safe.â
Not Piaâs best decision, Caleb mused, given the jerk Harlan turned out to be.
âItâs past three,â he said after checking his watch. âLily will be home from kindergarten. I could phone Hilda, ask her if we could come over.â He waited, certain that if Lily and Mia could form a bond, chances were that Mia might agree to support Harlanâs child and legal action against the estate wouldnât be necessary.
And you wouldnât feel so guilty for not adopting Lily yourself.
âI donât know.â Hesitation was written all over her face. But something dark and fearful also lurked in her eyes, something Caleb didnât understand.
âIt doesnât have to be a long visit,â he encouraged. âI drop in to see her most days. You can say hello.â She didnât look convinced, so he pushed harder. âDonât you want to see Harlanâs child?â
âYes, butââ A nerve ticked in her cheek âYou donât understand.â She glanced sideways at him, then sighed heavily. âToday has been full of surprises.â
âI know. It hasnât been easy for you and this must have come as quite a shock. But surely meeting a five-year-old girl doesnât scare you.â Caleb immediately regretted those words because it was clear Mia was panicking at meeting Lily. âIâll be right there,â he soothed. âWe can leave whenever you want.â
That seemed to ease her fears. âYouâre sure?â
âItâs just a meeting, thatâs all.â
âAs long as you stay. I canât be alone with her,â Mia said, her voice raspy.
âHilda and I will both be there.â He smiled. âIâm so glad youâre doing this. Youâll love Lily.â Caleb made the call and after a few minutesâ drive they were at Hildaâs.
Caleb saw Miaâs face soften when she caught sight of the little girl sitting in a corner of the porch. She studied Lily intensely, taking in every detail of her stepdaughter.
âWelcome. Iâve made us some iced tea. Itâs so lovely today weâll drink it on the porch,â Hilda said after Caleb had introduced Mia.
He wasnât surprised to see Lily hang back. Since her motherâs death sheâd become unsure and tentative about most things. He hated the way the little girl clung to Hildaâs skirt as if fearing sheâd be abandoned again. Caleb knew he wasnât capable of giving her what she needed, but he had a hunch Mia could, if she would.
âIced tea would be lovely. Thank you.â Mia smiled. The warmth in her words reached Hildaâs heart judging by Hildaâs wide smile.
âHave a seat. It wonât take me a minute.â The older woman bustled inside.
Caleb knew Lily would have preferred to follow Hilda, but that would have meant walking in front of Mia, thereby revealing her damaged leg. He felt his heart squeeze with regret, saddened to see the formerly bubbly child now standing silent in the corner, dark blue eyes riveted on Mia. He struggled to find a conversation opener and came up blank.
âItâs a lot of hair, isnât it?â Mia mused aloud, reaching a hand to her head. Though she didnât actually look at Lily, it was obvious the child was the target of her remark. âSometimes I wish it was shorter like yours. Your hair is so pretty. Those ribbons are perfect.â Mia caught her own hair in her hand and tried to twist it into a ponytail like Lilyâs.
âYou look like a clown.â Lily promptly burst into the giggles.
âI know.â Mia pulled out a small tablet and a pen from her purse and began sketching a clown with big curly hair, a bulbous red nose and striped balloon pants. âLike this?â she asked, holding out the pad.
Clever, Caleb silently applauded. Why had Mia been afraid when she was so obviously at ease with children?
Mia held the drawing so that Lily had to move nearer to get a good look, which meant she awkwardly shifted her leg. Mia didnât seem to notice. Instead, she kept drawing, adding to the sketch. In moments Lily was fully vested in the picture, pointing out areas that needed enhancement.
âCan you draw a dog, a brown one?â Lily asked.
âIâll try.â Mia began sketching until under Lilyâs tutelage the face of a chocolate Lab appeared.
âItâs perfect.â Lily grinned. âThatâs the dog I want. And Iâm going to call him Mr. Fudge.â
âThatâs a great name,â Mia said. âWho doesnât like fudge?â
The air left Calebâs chest in a rush of relief. This relationship was going to be a success. Mia would make it so because that was the kind of woman she was: caring, gentle and full of love just waiting to be expressed. Maybe her fear had to do with Lilyâs father, and yet he saw no fear in Mia now, just a sweet spirit that Lily was warming to. Heâd been right to bring them together.
He studied the two heads, one so dark, one shimmering with light, just like her motherâs. He had a hunch that Mia would one day make some lucky child an incredible mother. Some childâlike Lily?
Caleb seldom prayed anymore. God seemed too far away. But this afternoon the soundless plea slipped from his heart.
Can You find Lily a new mom, God?
As Lilyâs giggles filled the air, Caleb couldnât think of anyone heâd rather see her with than sweet, gentle Mia.
Chapter Three (#ulink_1d2a392f-a01c-5f05-a8e2-a8dc97746335)
âLilyâs an incredible child.â Mia couldnât conceal how moved she was after meeting her husbandâs daughter.
âYou didnât feel a barrier because sheâs, well, your stepchild?â
âNot at all.â Her certainty surprised Mia. âItâs obvious Harlan was her father. Those eyes and that chin give it away, but Lily is her own person. She isnât responsible for Harlanâs betrayal. Sheâs just a little girl whoâs lost her mother.â
âIâm glad you feel that way,â Caleb said warmly. The admiration and appreciation in his gaze warmed a lonely place Mia always kept hidden.
Perhaps it also emboldened her because she blurted, âWhat happened to Lilyâs leg?â
âA riding accident.â Caleb shuddered. âA year ago she was on a horse for the first time and it threw her. Lily broke her leg. It was a complicated break and hasnât healed well.â
âCan it be fixed?â Mia asked.
âReba told Lara she couldnât find a surgeon willing to try another operation.â Calebâs forehead furrowed. âI havenât had time to check into that. Abby Lebret, the woman who runs Family Ties and is trying to find Lily a home, might have more information.â
âFamily Tiesâoh, yes, the adoption agency you mentioned. So youâve handed care of Lily over to them?â Mia said, not managing to hide her disapproval.
âIt seemed best. Iâm not father potential,â he said, defensively, Mia thought.
âI thought you were very loving with her, exactly as a father would be.â She mentally replayed her meeting with Lily. âShe reminds me of myself at her age.â She didnât realize sheâd spoken her thoughts aloud until she heard Calebâs voice.