Taming Jason

The memories came in swift, dazzling pictures now, and she was forcing herself, like a rider ramming an unwilling horse at a jump. With every step the horse tried to retreat, knowing that what lay ahead was misery and horror. But the rider drove it on.

The dinner party in her honour. Simon crowing that Jason had given in, silencing her instinctive knowledge that Jason would never give in. Puzzled. Fearful. Wondering what Jason was planning.

On the day of the party, a team of caterers arrived and started preparing the dining room, carrying in baskets of food and wine. In the midst of the bustle the two brothers withdrew to Jason’s study and had a furious row from which each emerged set-faced and grim.

‘It’s nothing, darling,’ Simon said when she asked. ‘Just Jason throwing his weight around. Forget him. Go and make yourself look beautiful for tonight.’

But there was something preoccupied about his manner that worried her. Several times that day she caught him looking at her in a thoughtful way.

The twenty guests all smiled and greeted her with interest but with little half glances at Jason, as if curious as to what he was thinking. She, too, wondered what there was behind his smile. In the midst of festivity she felt her apprehension growing.

After dinner someone sat down at the piano and there was an impromptu dance. She danced with Simon, to applause.

Then Jason stepped forward and held out his arms, inviting her. Only it was more command than invitation.

She was surprised at how skilfully he danced. It would have been a pleasure to partner him if she hadn’t been so much on edge.

‘Smile,’ he said. ‘This is your night of triumph.’

‘I don’t feel triumphant,’ she assured him gravely. ‘Only happy. I really do love Simon. If only you could believe that.’

Unexpectedly he said, ‘I find it all too easy to believe. I only wish I didn’t.’

‘Then if you believe me—’

‘Has it ever occurred to you that Simon isn’t the man you think him?’

Enlightenment dawned, and a smile broke over her face. She felt filled with sudden light.

‘What is it?’ he demanded sharply. ‘Why do you look like that?’

‘Because now I understand what’s really bothering you?’

‘Really!’ he said ironically. ‘Then it’s time we had a talk.’

He steered her towards an open door, and led her into the library.

The pictures flickered as Elinor flinched back from what came next. She didn’t want to remember. Leave it there. Surely there was no need to relive the pain?

But some perverse imp of memory forced her to look again, and watch herself go into the library with Jason. She saw not only their two figures, but her own foolish confidence that at last she’d got the better of this ruthless man. She wanted to reach out and snatch that silly little innocent away from the danger she was heading into so blithely. But nothing could do that now.

In the library they faced each other.

‘So tell me about this wonderful insight that’s come to you,’ he said ironically.

‘I’ve just realised—you know Simon’s dark side, don’t you?’

He was startled. ‘So you do recognise that he has a dark side?’

‘Of course. Everyone has.’ A growing confidence made her add, ‘You certainly have.’

Instead of being offended he gave his wolfish grin, and said, ‘Go on. I can’t wait for the next bit.’

‘All right, I don’t know his dark side. But then, he doesn’t know mine.’

‘Your what?’

‘Oh, I do have one,’ she said, laughing. ‘I’m terribly grumpy in the mornings. I can’t imagine Simon ever being grumpy, but I’m prepared to find that I’m wrong. When you really love somebody, you love everything about them—even their faults, because those faults are part of them.’

And so she went blundering on, reciting the confident words, playing into his hands, watching the derision on his face, not understanding it.

As well as scornful, he was furiously angry. ‘You think you know it all!’

‘I know about love, Jason. I love Simon and he loves me, and nothing will ever part us. We’ll stand by each other through the worst that you can do.’

As she grew more exalted she smiled up into his face. He drew in his breath and his brow darkened.

‘You simpleton!’ he grated. ‘You baby! You stupid, pretty little idiot! You naive, gullible—Heaven give me patience!’

He gripped her shoulders, looking at her intently. Suddenly they heard Simon’s voice outside in the hall. She saw the tension come swiftly into Jason’s face as though he’d made a lightning decision, and the next moment he pulled her hard against him, sliding his arms about her body, lowering his head and crushing her mouth with his own.

Abruptly the pictures flickered out into blackness.

Time and again her memory stopped at this point, and only resumed several moments later, with the sight of Simon’s face, white and distraught.

‘You cheating little bitch,’ he cried. ‘You scheming, deceitful—All this time I thought you loved me, but you had your eyes on a bigger prize, didn’t you? I trusted you!’

She tried to protest, but he cut her short. ‘I loved you. I’d have given my life for you, and the moment my back’s turned you go straight into my brother’s arms. What else have the two of you been up to?’

‘Nothing,’ she screamed. ‘Simon, please—it’s not what you think.’

‘It seemed clear enough to me. Oh, God, Cindy, how could you do this?’

All the guests seemed to be there behind him, listening to his heartbroken accusations, witnessing her shame.

‘Listen to me,’ she begged through her sobs.

‘Listen to you! I never want to listen to or even think of you again. Get out of my sight.’

‘That’s enough!’ Jason intervened. ‘You’ve made your point, Simon. Now leave it. It’s over.’

‘Yes, it’s over,’ he choked. ‘Over, Cindy, over! And I thought you and I were for ever.’

He turned and fled upstairs. She followed him, but found his door locked against her, and her frantic hammering produced no response. At last she slid to the floor, sobbing in despair.

She didn’t know how long she stayed there, but eventually Jason came to tell her that all the guests were gone.

She looked up at him through eyes blurred with tears.