The Last Cheerleader

While he rummaged in the kitchen, I thought about what had just happened. Truthfully, waking up in my bed beside Dan Rucker at five after midnight made me feel like the Whore of Babylon. I hadn’t had sex in four years, and the lack of it hadn’t bothered me much. Most of the men I’d been with didn’t know an orgasm from a mild spasm, so the minute I’d get excited they’d let go and then quit on me. Eventually I found my work more thrilling, and it lasted longer, so I focused on that.

Except, of course, for my fixation on Tony. I don’t know what I’d have done if we’d ever made love and it hadn’t turned out well. With no more fantasies in that department, I might have had to settle down in a rocking chair and knit afghans.

The good detective came back with juice for both of us, so I sat up, pulled the sheets up to my neck with one hand and took the drink with the other. He stretched out beside me, leaning back against the headboard. For a few minutes we sipped our juice without talking. It felt really weird, this man in my bed, a man I hardly knew and yet had shared something rather spectacular with.

Staring out at the now-dark ocean—anywhere but into those dreamy liquid eyes that were so much like Paul Newman’s—I sipped my juice and said, “It’s cooling off out there.”

“The Santa Anas are still blowing, though,” he said. “They make me crazy. Always have.”

“Me, too. In fact, I wonder if that’s what happened with Tony, Arnold and Craig. Some random killer crazed by the winds.”

“Who just happens to hit people you’re close to?” he said skeptically.

I sighed. “No, I guess not. But, look, you don’t really think I killed them, do you?”

“You mean, have I changed my mind because we had sex?”

“No, I mean because you wouldn’t have slept with me if you thought I was a killer.”

“What makes you think that?”

“Oh, how the hell do I know!” I said irritably, grabbing my robe and getting out of bed. I crossed over to the bathroom and stared at myself in the mirror over the sink.

God, I looked awful. Between circles under my eyes from lack of sleep and the matted hair, I looked like an escapee from a Colombian prison.

I started to brush my teeth. “Let’s forget about you for a minute,” I said, spitting. “Does anyone in the LAPD think they could be gay crimes?”

“I’m not sure. Were all three of them gay?”

“Actually, none were, that I knew of. But those dildos…”

“I’m no expert,” he said, coming up behind me and pulling the collar of my robe aside to plant a kiss on my bare shoulder, “but I’ve been told that women use ‘help’ of that sort as much as men. In fact, more.”

I knew that, but hadn’t thought about it in this case. “I just wondered…I guess because I’ve heard that the gay crowd in West Hollywood is into those and Tony used to hang out a lot in West Hollywood. But Arnold? And Craig?” I shook my head. “You must have talked to a few people by now. Neighbors in Tony’s building, friends, maybe even enemies. Are there any you suspect?”

He looked at me in the mirror and raised his eyebrows.

“Other than me,” I said.

He stood beside me and studied his beard, combing it with his fingers. “As for Craig Dinsmore, the LAPD doesn’t have jurisdiction in El Segundo. We may know more about a connection between them when we get the DNA tests and evidence back from Price’s apartment. If there is a connection, we may also be asked to assist with the El Segundo PD’s investigation.”

“There is evidence, then? Something you may be able to arrest someone with?”

He grinned and went back into the bedroom, pulling on his pants and shirt. “I think I’ve said enough. And with very little payoff.”

“Sex with me wasn’t a good payoff?” I called out.

He laughed. “I was actually hoping for more information from you about the three murder victims. But since you ask…” He turned at the door. “I didn’t see sex with you as a payoff. I thought it was more like fun.”

I smiled and pondered that after he left, slipping into a pair of flannel pajama trousers and a sleeveless tee. Then I lay on my bed and listened to the waves crash for a while, until I fell asleep.

It was not to be an easy night, however, and there was more than sweetness and light to come.

I was dreaming about Craig and Arnold and crushed foreheads, Tony and my lost income, when my doorbell rang. I woke with a start and looked at my bedside clock: 1:25 a.m. Not very many people knew where I lived, and none of them would come here at this hour without calling first.

Had the scruffy detective come back for more? Or had he come to arrest me this time?

I drew my silk Chinese robe around me and walked to the front door, turning on a couple of lights along the way. Looking through the peephole I saw a woman blinking in the bright glare of the motion-sensitive light above my front door.

She seemed disheveled and badly dressed, like women I’ve seen on the streets, sleeping in cardboard boxes. I shivered in the cold dampness that blew in from the ocean through a crack I’d left open in a window. I couldn’t imagine what this woman wanted with me, but was doubly cautious because I’d heard from a neighbor that someone had broken into her house recently, and she thought it was “one of the homeless.”

The way she’d said the word homeless was so disparaging, though, I had tended to discount her story and wondered if she’d simply heard a dog in her trash that night. In her circle, a homeless person probably just made for a better story.

“What do you want?” I asked through the closed door.

“I just really need a place to sleep,” the woman said. “Can I come in?”

There was something oddly familiar about her voice, but I couldn’t place it.

“I’m sorry, I don’t have any extra room,” I said. It was all I could think of. “Have you tried the missions?”

“Please, Mary Beth. Let me at least talk to you.”

It startled me that she’d called me by name. “Who is it?” I called out. “Who are you?”

The woman started to cry. “Mary Beth, it’s me, Lindy. Lindy Lou.”

Lindy Lou? Lindy Lou Trent, from high school? Was it possible?

I opened the door a crack but didn’t take off the chain. “Stand over here where I can see you,” I said.

She did, and I had to admit there was a slight resemblance, maybe in the nose and eyes, but that’s where it ended. Lindy Louise Trent had been my best friend in high school—and at the same time my arch-rival. Lindy had the looks, the money, the personality, and all the boys. While I slaved away on the school paper, she became the most popular cheerleader, the homecoming queen, and the one who got the homecoming king—someone I’d had eyes for but was too shy to go after. Lindy just had to toss her long blond hair, stick out her chest, and boys would follow her anywhere.

“Is that really you?” I asked now, though I could see with every passing moment that it was indeed her. I just couldn’t believe the change that had taken place. Several inches of the roots of her hair were dark, and the blond that was still left was dry and frizzled. Her eyes were wide and staring.

My look must have spoken volumes.

“Please let me come in and sit down, Mary Beth. I’ll tell you everything, but I really just need to sit down.”

She started to sway back and forth alarmingly. I opened the door the rest of the way and reached for her. Putting an arm around her waist, I drew her into the living room and helped her to sit on the couch. She was light as a feather, and shaking so much I had to hold on tight for fear of dropping her.

“Oh, God, that feels so good,” she said, groaning. “Just to sit. You can’t know, Mary Beth. I’ve been walking for miles.”

She wore low-heeled, pointed-toe shoes from a good designer, but when she slipped them off I could see that she wore no stockings, and two of her toes were bleeding.

“For God’s sake, Lindy, let me clean that up for you,” I said. I went to the kitchen and spoke to her from across the breakfast bar as I ran water to get it warm. “Where did you walk from?”

“Downtown L.A.,” she said, her voice shaking. “I mean, I started out there, but then I got a ride to Hollywood. I walked down Sunset Boulevard till I got to the ocean, and then I turned on Pacific Coast Highway and came here.”