She laughed again, still amused by the image. Then it struck her that he seemed to have been waiting for her. “Is there something you need?”
“Well, actually...” He hesitated. “I know the deal was I would eat out. But I was wondering, would you mind if I bought groceries and cooked for myself? I’ll leave things squared away so you won’t even notice I was in there.”
For some reason she liked the idea that he wouldn’t be leaving her alone three times a day to hunt up a meal. Amazing how far she had come in less than a day. What had initially seemed like a threat now seemed like a bulwark. Nor was this a matter she wanted to take issue over.
“I don’t mind.” Although she was a little surprised that he’d felt it necessary to say she wouldn’t even know he’d been in the kitchen. Most people wouldn’t have bothered to mention it, unless asked.
She drew a sharp breath, and all of a sudden her heart tugged. She’d heard promises like that before, unsolicited ones. You’ll never notice I was in there.
A few faces floated before her eyes, youngsters all, former students all. And she knew what phrases like that really meant. Could this big, powerful man with all his medals still carry scars like that? After all this time?
But she couldn’t ask.
“Is something wrong?”
His question shook her back to the moment. “No. Really. My mind just wanders sometimes. I think I spend too much time alone.” Her laugh this time carried no mirth, but was more of an apology.
“I’ll just go get some groceries then.”
She shook her head. “It may go against your grain to look for help, but you shouldn’t try to carry groceries home when I can drive you. Just let me get a glass of water, and then I’ll take you.”
For an instant she thought he would argue. Something about him said that he didn’t relinquish autonomy easily, or accept help easily, at least not from virtual strangers. But then he nodded. “Take your time. Obviously I’m in no rush.”
Wow, she thought as she headed toward the kitchen, at this rate they might even start to converse in whole paragraphs. She took her time drinking her water because she heard him climb the stairs again, probably to brush his hair, button his shirt and pull on some shoes.
Sure enough, five minutes later she heard him descend again. She finished her water and went out to the foyer. “Ready?” she asked, though it was clear that he was. His boots had given way to some comfortable and battered deck shoes, and he’d buttoned and brushed.
“If you are,” he replied.
She grabbed her purse and keys, saying, “Let’s go then.”
“You’re sure you don’t mind?”
There it was again, a niggle. A hint. She looked at him, wishing she could just come right out and ask. But that might be a mistake, because he’d probably just get angry at her prying, and rightfully so. He hadn’t poked into her life, so she should give him the same respect.
“I don’t mind at all,” she assured him, and summoned a smile. Aware now of what might lurk in his past, she felt old lessons rising up to guide her. And the thought that she might, through her training, help this man feel a bit more comfortable made her feel better than she had in a long time. She might not be able to teach anymore, but it would be so good to help.
Always assuming, of course, that she wasn’t totally wrong about him.
The drive to the store was silent, but she was getting used to that with him, and didn’t feel as uncomfortable as she had just yesterday.
When she pulled into a parking slot, though, he spoke. “You don’t have to wait for me,” he said. “If there’s something you need to do.”
She shook her head. “Not a thing. Maybe I’ll check and see if they can give me any extra hours.”
She climbed out and locked the car. Another car pulled in nearby, and the driver, a man, appeared to be fussing through some papers. Probably lost his shopping list, Cory thought with a small sense of amusement.
Wade waited for her, then walked beside her across the parking lot, measuring his stride to hers.
“You work here?” he asked.
“Yes.” Then she volunteered, “We all had our hours cut back a couple of weeks ago.”
“That hurts. No wonder you need a roomer. How’s Marsha managing?”
“Somewhat better. She gets an alimony check.”
He paused just after they stepped through the automatic doors and looked at her. “Then her ex knows where she is.”
“Theoretically not. The court sends the checks and is supposed to keep her address private.”
He nodded. “Good thing.”
She headed for the manager’s office at the customer service desk while he got a cart and started down the aisles. Interesting that he’d expressed concern for Marsha, she thought. Apparently a real heart beat behind the stone.
The manager, Betsy Sorens, greeted her with her usual wide smile. “Sorry, Cory. No extra hours. Not yet anyway. You’re at the top of my list though when we can start adding them.”
Cory felt almost embarrassed. “Why should I be at the top of the list? That doesn’t seem right, Betsy. So many others need hours, too.”
“We all need hours, some more than the rest. You’re self-supporting. A lot of the other employees have other sources of income.”
Cory felt her cheeks color a bit. “Still...”
Betsy shook her head. “You’re a good employee. If I can do a little something for you, I will.”
A customer came then with a complaint, so Cory smiled, waved and left. Wandering around the store with nothing to buy and nothing to do felt odd. Almost without thinking, she paused occasionally to straighten the stock on the shelves.
She hated to have time hanging on her hands, and she’d certainly had too much of that in the past year. She’d once been busy almost every second of the day, between Jim and her job. Now she had endless hours of free time, and that meant too many hours to think.
Hours to think about the past, about that phone call yesterday, hours to let her fear and anxiety build when there was no real reason for it. Certainly they would have found her by now if they were going to.
She met Wade in one of the aisles and glanced into his cart. There wasn’t much there yet.
“Having trouble?” she asked.
One corner of his mouth lifted. “You might say that.”
“What’s wrong?”
“I’ve been mostly eating in mess halls or eating out of boxes for years. I know the basics about cooking, but shopping for one person isn’t as easy as I thought.”
That was a whole lot of syllables, she thought, and for some reason that made her smile. “I have an idea.”
“What’s that?”
“I hate cooking just for myself. Why don’t we take turns cooking for each other?” she suggested.
“Are you sure? You could be taking an awful gamble.”