Натали: искусство жить

Natalie: he was from Pakistan, but we met in Kiev, his name was Ajaz

Amir: why did he leave you?

Natalie: he didn?t want to leave me… may I not tell you now? Later, when we meet and if you still want to know

Amir: honey i want to know

Natalie: but didn?t you tell me just some days ago you don?t want to know anything about my past?

Amir: yes, i just don’t wana do same and loose you

Natalie: he was so nice to me and we loved each other. I was very happy with him, it was the happiest time in my life… but in general it was rather hard time, when Soviet Union collapsed

Amir: yea, i know, so are you originally RUSSIAN?

Natalie: he wanted us to move to Germany… yes, I am half Russian and half Ukraine from my Mother side

Amir: ok then?

Natalie: he wanted us to come to Germany and I didn?t want go here at first… it took a lot of time to make my documents, we even couldn?t wait and he bought passport with visa for me, but then Germany was closed for Pakistani ppl… so we moved to my parents… and I wanted a baby then, same like now… he told me it was not right time, but I insisted… there was no work for us in Estonia and other problems with visa for him… my parents wanted us to go to Pakistan, they thought we would be fine there… so they made him leave but he didn?t want to leave me… cried and told he couldn?t live without me.. but I was SO sure in him and in his love. I forced him to go and he promised to come back after three months and take me with a baby… but never came back. His relatives had a bride for him already… so… sad story, you see

Amir: very bad, he should not do that! If his relatives were having bride for him why he did this to you?

Natalie: well, let’s leave the topic; it is still very painful to me, especially because of my son

Amir: i am sorry honey, i will never talk about it again because i wana see you happy forever, smiling

Natalie: you know what is funny here? That he told me the same thing!..

Amir: hahahhahaha waooo… well i mean it, he just told you and i want to prove it, wana meet you as soon as possible

Natalie: no, Amir, he didn?t just say… otherwise I couldn?t love him for so many years, I didn?t want even to marry again… but at last it has stopped… my love for him

Amir: so you wana marry now?

Natalie: I want to have a baby… how can I do it without your help?;)

Amir: yea, you are right;) so now it depends on Mary and her husband, i will receive your passport to do my part then you will come here and we will plan our baby

Natalie: after Christmas… will you come here before? I want to see you first

Amir: i can’t promise that i will come there

Natalie: and before you told you could…

Amir: i would try that’s what i said

Natalie: so if you won?t come I can?t come too, because I have never seen you… Honestly I’m just afraid!

Amir: i am not an animal, so don’t be afraid

Natalie: yes, but in normal way we have to meet at first

Amir: yea, that’s what i am saying: you can come here, i have work here, hard to take leaves, from here, come meet me, and we will have fun here

Natalie: Amir, it is strange for me now. How can I trust you if just some days ago you?ve told: I can come, I have no any problem! And now you are telling me this… no, I can?t come in this way

Amir: honey i am not saying i can’t come but it will take time, you know visa process and everything, whereas i can arrange for you in some days, that’s why i was saying that

Natalie: but we have the time! more than 2 months! I won?t come earlier in any case!

Amir: i can wait 2 months

Natalie: you can wait, OK, but I would like you to come here on Christmas, we will see each other and then we will know if we want and can be together… I am not mad, Amir! I can?t come to unknown person!

Amir: ok i will tell you about it soon

Natalie: not just tell, but try to do, if you are serious… but I doubt it again… you so easily have changed your mind!

Amir: i don’t, i am in love with you, that’s why i am here with you from last one week, sharing everything with you

Natalie: I can?t take your love seriously now, before we see each other… it is not so real for me, so plz if it is really important for you, do as I ask

Amir: yes, i am coming, to prove my love i am coming to you, to prove that whatever i said is true, i want to spend my whole life with you

Natalie: ok, thanks… we will see. Now good night!

Amir: but if i would be having any problem in visa process, you have to help me out

[18.10.201* 22:19:17] Natalie: ok, now tell me good night! :)

Amir: i love you Natalie, take care honey, good night

Выйдя из скайпа и выключив компьютер, Натали какое-то время сидела неподвижно в тишине, прислушиваясь к себе. Да, он быстро меняет решения… но почему-то она не в силах противиться… Пока говорили, и ей удалось высказать все свои сомнения, что поехать к нему вот так, вдруг, казалось невозможным, но теперь в глубине души она чувствовала, что верит ему и готова действовать так, как он просит.

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САМАЯ ЛУЧШАЯ ДИЕТА

В этот день, как и в этот весь октябрь в Кёльне, Натали чувствовала себя, как переполненный сосуд: энергия счастья, радость жизни сочились из всех её пор. Она помолодела, расцвела, похорошела. Да, «я тебя люблю, моя принцесса» на завтрак, обед и ужин – самая лучшая целебная диета в мире, которая воистину способна творить чудеса.

Натали не могла сдержать напор своих чувств, она подошла, пританцовывая, к ноутбуку и напечатала: «You know how to win a woman! :) miss you today a lot!»

Скайп молчал. Амир обычно не отвечал ей в рабочее время – только в обеденный перерыв или вечером, после работы, и это ей нравилось – мужчина должен быть занят делом и серьёзно относиться к нему. Это вызывает уважение.

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MADE OF FIRE