The Very White of Love: the heartbreaking love story that everyone is talking about!

‘I’ll see if I can find a thirty-four.’ The orderly goes out.

Martin pulls on his own trousers. ‘Not quite so elegant as tennis whites, are they?’

‘Lovely girl, Nancy,’ Hugh says. ‘Needs a bit of work on her serve.’ He grins. ‘But seriously, Martin, I can’t believe how much more cheerful you have become since you met her. I think I am going to start calling you the Happiest Man in the World.’

‘I am!’ Martin smiles at his friend. ‘I can’t bear the idea that we are going to be separated.’

‘I can imagine.’ Saunders sighs. ‘Sometimes I think being a bachelor has its advantages.’

The orderly returns. ‘Try this one, sir.’

Saunders steps into the new pair of trousers. They are fitted high in the waist, like a ski suit, with a large exterior map pocket at the front and button flies. This time they fit.

‘What’s this?’ Saunders says to the orderly, sliding a finger into a slit-shaped pocket at the side of his trousers.

‘That’s for your knife, sir.’

‘My what?’

‘Your jackknife.’ The orderly opens the blade. ‘Best Sheffield steel, sir.’

Hugh takes the knife and slides it into the pocket.

‘And this?’ Martin points to a small, horizontal pocket at the front of the trouser.

‘For your field dressing, sir.’ The orderly passes him a small canvas bag, marked ‘First Field Dressing’. ‘There are two dressings inside, sir. Both in waterproof pouches.’ The orderly looks him in the eye. He hands him another packet. ‘And this one is your shell dressing.’

‘What’s that?’ Martin asks.

‘For your . . . er . . . head, sir,’ says the orderly, shifting his feet awkwardly.

‘Won’t be needing that then,’ Martin jokes. ‘It’s all hollow.’

Back at Whichert House that night, Martin perches at the little table in his attic room, drinking a large gin and tonic, with a slice of cucumber in it. Tomorrow, he will be leaving for camp in Sussex. Why a Buckinghamshire regiment has to train in Sussex, he doesn’t understand. All he knows is that it will make it that bit more difficult to see Nancy.

Through the window he can just see the full moon. He imagines them watching it together, his arm around her waist, her hair spilling across his chest. After slowly unscrewing the top of his pen, he brings it to the paper. He has come to love this intimacy between pen and paper: their secret tryst. His chance to be alone with her. Make love to her in words. Express through his pen, as it moves across the page, the passion he feels in his heart. He adjusts the notepaper, a single sheet of grey Oxford Union vellum. And the gold-tipped nib of his Waterman pen begins to rush on.

Nancy, my darling,

You were bubbling over today. I’m so glad because I could never tire of hearing what you say or reading what you write. I know unshakeably I’ve never known anything so well in all my life than I am helplessly in love with you and that I would keep you for myself all our lives.

I think I have everything for camp: a camp bed, a folding chair, a lantern, a basin and a bucket, a suitcase, and a kitbag. My uniform has arrived, too. Needless to say, I look ever so smart.

Everyone sends their love. Michael is back from his weekend away in Worcester. He disappears most of the day doing errands for Aunt D. Roseen is on holiday in Ireland.

He looks at his watch, rubs his eyes.

It’s past midnight now, so I must go and dream – perhaps about you lying in bed, your beautiful hair flowing over your shoulders. I think you have a soft pillow and your head is nestled deep in it. You see, I have all the pictures mixed because I’m drowsy.

I love you.

Martin.

6 AUGUST 1939 (#ulink_a1e01515-0be8-5b19-884a-8f9bc01d631c)

High Wycombe Railway Station (#ulink_a1e01515-0be8-5b19-884a-8f9bc01d631c)

The station is packed with soldiers, getting ready to embark for the battalion’s training camp in Sussex. There’s a festive atmosphere. Union Jacks and bunting hang from the wrought iron fences and pillars. The battalion’s band plays a rousing marching song. Wives and children huddle proudly around their loved ones, as the August sun floods the station with light.

For many of the men, this is the first time they will have left the county. There’s a mood both of excitement and fear. Words of comfort and encouragement are exchanged. Babies dandled. Kisses planted.

Martin looks on, anxiously. Nancy promised she would try to get here to say goodbye. But there’s only twenty minutes till the train leaves. He knows if she doesn’t make it that there will be a good reason. He’s not a child, who needs someone to see him off at the station. But, as he watches a young soldier run towards a woman and child on the platform, and fold them in his arms, he can’t help feeling a pang of loneliness.

He glances at his watch. Two soldiers almost run into him as they push a trolley full of baggage along the platform. The band strikes up a new tune. Martin darts another look at the crowd milling around by the entrance then hurries along the platform to where his platoon of sixteen men is assembling.

‘Everyone here, Sarge?’ Martin asks his platoon sergeant, Joe Cripps, a short, muscular man, built like a fireplug.

‘All present and correct, sir.’

Martin is still getting used to his new role as an officer. Like most of the men in the platoon, Cripps is nearly twice as old as Martin; married and with children. As a twenty-year-old student, who has not even graduated, Martin feels awkward giving him orders. By rights, the sergeant should be telling him what to do.

‘Your family here to see you off?’ Martin asks his sergeant.

‘We’re from the north of the county, sir.’ Cripps lifts a huge canvas bag full of equipment and throws it into the train. ‘It’s too far, what with all the kids.’

‘How many have you got?’ Martin grins.

‘Just the two, sir.’ Cripps spots one of the platoon members swigging from a bottle of beer. ‘Hoy! You! Get rid of that bottle, or I’ll break it over your head!’ He turns back to Martin. ‘You, sir?’

Martin is miles away, peering fretfully around the station, looking for the most beautiful redhead in the world. ‘Sorry?’

‘Are you married, sir?’

‘Not yet, Sarge,’ Martin replies. ‘Soon, I hope.’

‘Better hurry then,’ the sergeant says. ‘We’ll probably be in France before Christmas.’

A deafening hiss of steam escapes from the locomotive, followed by a whistle. Martin glances anxiously towards the entrance.

‘Carry on here for a moment, will you, Sarge?’

Martin doesn’t even wait for the answer but turns and hurries down the platform, bumping into other soldiers and almost tripping over a pile of sacks. Another whistle sounds. Orders are barked. The last men start to board. A young wife, with a blonde baby on her arm, clings to her corporal husband, sobbing. Another whistle pierces the air.

As he approaches the entrance gates, Martin spots a woman with red hair. A blast of steam from the locomotive’s pistons obscures her in a swirling cloud.

‘Nancy!’ He breaks into a run, weaving through the knots of women and children, who now stand waving through the windows of the train to their loves ones.

The cloud of steam clears. The woman turns. Martin’s heart sinks.