‘Training for what, Jeff?’
‘Navy,’ Jeff said with a sigh. ‘Why he asked me not to tell you, it beats me. But now I have, so do me a favour and keep it to yourself, okay?’
Ben set his wineglass down. ‘He wants to join the navy?’
‘That’s what I said. He’s serious, too. Got the initial interview lined up in February, then the medical and PJFT two weeks later.’ Jeff was talking about the Royal Navy’s strenuous pre-joining fitness test, which all recruits had to pass before they could even commence the ordeal of basic training. ‘So when he called me and said he wanted to get in shape and talk to me about what navy life was like, I said no problem, come over.’
‘I see,’ Ben said, tapping his glass with a fingertip.
‘He’s a natural,’ Jeff said. ‘Always saying how much he loves the sea, so I took him up to the Pointe de Barfleur to watch him swim. He’s like a bloody fish in the water. Then we did weapons training, physio, technical knowledge, the works. He won’t have a problem getting past the tests. In fact I’ll eat my boots if he doesn’t come top of the class in all of them. Where he gets it from, vicar’s son and all that, who knows?’
Ben frowned.
Jeff went on, ‘So, yeah, he hung around for a few weeks, helping out around the place to earn his keep. I enjoyed having him here, and he had a good time too, even if I worked him like a bastard. Like I said, you just missed him. He left for Africa this morning.’
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Ben blinked and thought for a second that he must have misheard. ‘Africa?’
‘Strictly speaking, he left here for Oman,’ Jeff said. ‘And he won’t be in Africa unless he goes ashore when they touch at port, he’ll be off Africa. South from the Port of Salalah, around the horn and down the east coast to Mombasa. He’s got himself a crewman gig on the MV Svalgaard Andromeda.’
‘A merchant vessel?’
Jeff nodded. ‘Big Yank container ship, one of the Svalgaard Line. It’s a good way for him to get the feel of things, learn about life at sea before he goes in at the deep end, so to speak. Wants to put a bit of money under his belt, too.’
‘And I suppose it was you who set this up for him?’ Ben asked.
Jeff nodded again. ‘I know a guy who knows a guy, the usual thing. All it took was a couple of calls. Where’s the bloody harm?’
Ben felt his rising frustration reddening into anger. ‘Jude doesn’t need to take a job like that to earn money. He has plenty already. He inherited everything from his parents when they died.’ It still upset Ben to think about his old friends, and the car smash that had claimed both their lives that terrible December night, just a few miles from their village in rural Oxfordshire.
‘Not what he told me,’ Jeff said. ‘He said he’s skint. Doesn’t have the nails to scratch himself with. All he has is the house, and he doesn’t want to sell it. They didn’t leave him much else. I don’t think vicars earn a heck of a lot.’
‘Anyway, that’s not the point,’ Ben said irritably. ‘I don’t want him joining the navy. Or the army, or the RAF, or anything else.’
‘What’s wrong with it?’
‘It’s just not the kind of life I see for him,’ Ben said.
‘The kind of life you see for him? What’s that supposed to mean?’
‘You heard me,’ Ben said. Their voices were rising. ‘I’m not happy about this, Jeff. You should have cleared it with me first.’
‘Oh, right. Like I needed your permission to show him a few things and help him on his way doing something he’s got his mind set on?’
‘That’s the whole point,’ Ben said. ‘He’s stubborn, and he’s wilful, and he’ll throw himself into any risky situation that comes his way without a second thought. And you went and encouraged him, behind my back.’
‘What are you getting so uptight about anyway? Jesus Christ, you talk as if he was your bloody son.’
Ben was silent a beat.
Then said, ‘Jeff, he is my son.’
Jeff sat back in his chair, stunned. ‘Are you kidding me? How can that be?’
‘It just is,’ Ben said.
Jeff stared at Ben, scrutinising his face as if he was seeing him for the first time. ‘It’s obvious, really, when you think about it.’
‘Fancy that.’
‘He’s got your eyes. And your chin. Hair colour too.’
‘If that was all he had of mine, it wouldn’t be a problem.’
‘But now I’m confused. Only a minute ago, you said his parents left him money when they died.’
‘That’s just what Jude thought.’
Jeff frowned, even more confused. ‘So … his father wasn’t a vicar at all.’
‘That’s the whole point, isn’t it?’ Ben said. ‘I wish he had been. Simeon was a good man. A better one than me, that’s for sure.’
‘Then … what about his mother?’
‘His mother was his mother. Michaela Arundel.’
‘Then you and she—’
‘You’re the last guy I’d imagine believing in Immaculate Conception,’ Ben said. ‘Obviously, yes.’
‘When did this happen?’
‘Uh, at a rough guess, I’d say Jude’s age plus nine months ago,’ Ben said. ‘It was when we were all students together, long before she and Simeon were married. Simeon knew all about it. She never tried to pretend that it was anything other than it was.’
Jeff was staring at him in amazement. ‘And what about Jude, does he know?’
‘It was agreed to keep it secret from him. He only found out the truth by chance, after they died. It was a bit rocky at first, but he accepts it.’ Which wasn’t strictly accurate, but it was the best Ben could do to describe their faltering relationship without getting into the painful details. The reality was that they hadn’t spoken in well over a year, and Ben could easily imagine more years going by before they spoke again, if ever. The last words his son had said to him still resonated in his mind.
‘Oh, just fuck off, Dad.’
Jeff was still stunned. ‘Who else knows about this? Does Brooke know?’
Ben nodded.
‘And Boonzie?’
‘Him too,’ Ben said.