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Chapter 66 (#litres_trial_promo)
Chapter 67 (#litres_trial_promo)
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Chapter 71 (#litres_trial_promo)
Chapter 72 (#litres_trial_promo)
Chapter 73 (#litres_trial_promo)
Chapter 74 (#litres_trial_promo)
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Letter from the Author (#litres_trial_promo)
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PROLOGUE (#ulink_4dfd3d6a-100c-597c-b26b-2f8a2386bfd0)
ANON
It’s the blood that gets to you first. It’s messy, gets everywhere. Under your nails, in each line, every crevice. It’s a bitch to clean. It’s practically impossible to remove. No matter how much you scrub, on hands and knees, sponge in hand, if you look hard enough, you’ll find a trace.
That’s why I’m careful about where I do it, where I make the final cut, where I end it all.
It’s in a cabin in the woods.
I know what you’re thinking – cliché? Am I right? OK, sure, I can see why you’d think that. Frankly, I don’t care what you think. I never set out to be original. This life chose me. I’m not a product of my environment.
I was born like this.
Now, isn’t that a scary thought?
So . . . the blood.
After the blood, comes the elation. That feeling of pure ecstasy, running through your veins – at least, that’s what it’s like for me. Each of us is different. Someone else like me might tell it differently. One thing we all have in common, though, is the knowledge that we can’t stop.
Doesn’t matter how many times I hear an innocent beg me to spare their life. It doesn’t matter how many times I hear them cry, or scream, or feel them lash out, trying in vain to fight me off.
No, it doesn’t matter.
The result is the same every time.
They are dead and I’m riding that euphoric wave I can’t ever find the words to describe accurately.
They are dead . . . or they are dying.
Like this bitch is right now, her body twitching under my weight. There’s no sound except for the gurgling as her blood gushes out, bright-red, arterial spray decorating the plastic sheeting I’ve pinned up around the walls and floor of the cabin.
Her name is Bryony Keats.
She’s just celebrated her seventeenth birthday. She didn’t listen to her mother about getting into cars with strangers.
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How many? I’m not sure I can rightly say. It’s either three or four. Reason why I say it’s possibly four depends on how you look at it.
Number four had a fucking asthma attack midway through it all, which, frankly, spoilt the whole thing for me, it really did.
Did she die because of me? Well, yes and no. I’m sure her body wouldn’t have gone into overdrive had I left her alone. BUT, she had asthma – an underlying health problem.
Properly managed, she could have lived another fifty-plus years. So, I can’t take complete ownership of it.
Mother Nature played her part.