Chippinge Borough

"I ought to go to her? You think so? Please-your ladyship, will you advise me?"

Lady Lansdowne hesitated. "I cannot," she said.

"But-there is no reason," Mary asked faintly, "why I should not go to her?"

"There is no reason. I honestly believe," Lady Lansdowne repeated solemnly, "that there is no reason-except your father's wish. It is for you to say how far that, which should weigh with you in all other things, shall weigh with you in this."

Suddenly a burning colour dyed Mary's face. "I will go to her," she cried impulsively. She had been weak once, she had been weak! And how she had suffered for that weakness! But she would be strong now. "Where is she, if you please?" she continued bravely. "Can I see her at once?"

"She is in the path leading to the kennels. You know it? No, you need not take leave of me, child! Go, and," Lady Lansdowne added with feeling, "God forgive me if I have done wrong in sending you!"

"You have not done wrong!" Mary cried, an unwonted spirit in her tone. And, without taking other leave, she turned and went-though her limbs trembled under her. She was going to her mother! To her mother! Oh, strange, oh, impossible thought!

Yet, engrossing as was that thought, it could not quite oust fear of her father and of his anger. And the blush soon died; so that the whiteness of her cheeks when she reached the Kennel Path was a poor set off for the ribbons that decked her muslin robe. What she expected, what she wished or feared or hoped she could never remember. What she saw, that which awaited her, was a woman, ill, and plainly clad, with only the remains of beauty in her wasted features; but withal cynical and hard-eyed, and very, very far from the mother of her day-dreams.

Such as she was the unknown scanned Mary with a kind of scornful amusement. "Oh," she said, "so this is what they have made of Miss Vermuyden? Let me look at you, girl?" And laying her hands on Mary's shoulders she looked long into the tearful, agitated face. "Why, you are like a sheet of paper!" she continued, raising the girl's chin with her finger. "I wonder you dared to come with Sir Robert saying no! And, you little fool," she continued in a swift spirit of irritation, "as soon not come at all, as look at me like that! You've got my chin and my nose, and more of me than I thought. But God knows where you got your hare's eyes! Are you always frightened?"

"No, Ma'am, no!" she stammered.

"No, Ma'am? No, goose!" Lady Sybil retorted, mimicking her. "Why, ten kings on ten thrones had never made me shake as you are shaking! Nor twenty Sir Roberts in twenty passions! What is it you are afraid of? Being found with me?"

"No! "Mary cried. And, to do her justice, the emotion with which Lady Sybil found fault was as much a natural agitation, on seeing her mother, as fear on her own account.

"Then you are afraid of me?" Lady Sybil rejoined. And again she twitched the girl's face to the light.

Mary was amazed rather than afraid: but she could not say that. And she kept silence.

"Or is it dislike of me?" the mother continued-a slight grimace, as of pain, distorting her face. "You hate me, I suppose? You hate me?"

"Oh, no, no!" the girl cried in distress.

"You do, Miss!" And with no little violence she pushed Mary from her. "You set down all to me, I suppose! I've kept you from your own, that's it! I am the wicked mother, worse than a step-mother, who robbed you of your rights! And made a beggar of you and would have kept you a beggar! I am she who wronged you and robbed you-the unnatural mother! And you never ask," she went on with fierce, impulsive energy, "what I suffered? How I was wronged! What I bore! No, nor what I meant to do-with you!"

"Indeed, indeed-"

"What I meant to do, I say!" Lady Sybil repeated violently. "At my death-and I am dying, but what is that to you? – all would have been told, girl! And you would have got your own. Do you believe me?" she added passionately, advancing a step in a manner almost menacing. "Do you believe me, girl?"

"I do, I do!" Mary cried, inexpressibly pained by the other's vehemence.

"I'll swear it, if you like! But I hoped that he-your father-would die first and never know! He deserved no better! He deserved nothing of me! And then you'd have stepped into all! Or better still-do you remember the day you travelled to Bristol? It's not so long ago that you need forget it, Miss Vermuyden! I was in the coach, and I saw you, and I saw the young man who was with you. I knew him, and I told myself that there was a God after all, though I'd often doubted it, or you two would not have been brought together! I saw another way then, but you'd have parted and known nothing, if," she continued, laughing recklessly, "I had not helped Providence, and sent him with a present to your school! But-why, you're red enough now, girl! What is it?"

"He knew?" Mary murmured, with an effort. "You told him who I was, Ma'am?"

"He knew no more than a doll!" Lady Sybil answered. "I told him nothing, or he'd have told again! I know his kind. No, I thought to get all for you and thwart Vermuyden, too! I thought to marry his heir to the little schoolmistress-it was an opera touch, my dear, and beyond all the Tremaynes and Vivian Greys in the world! But there, when all promised well, that slut of a maid went to my husband, and trumped my trick!"

"And Mr. – Mr. Vaughan," Mary stammered, "had no knowledge-who I was?"

"Mr. – Mr. Vaughan!" Lady Sybil repeated, mocking her, "had no knowledge? No! Not a jot, not a tittle! But what?" she went on, in a tone of derision, "Sits the wind there, Miss Meek? You're not all milk and water, bread and butter and backboard, then, but have a spice of your mother, after all? Mr. – Mr. Vaughan!" again she mimicked her. "Why, if you were fond of the man, didn't you say so?"

Mary, under the fire of those sharp, hard eyes, could not restrain her tears. But, overcome as she was, she managed in broken words to explain that her father had forbidden it.

"Oh, your father, was it?" Lady Sybil rejoined. "He said 'No,' and no it was! And the lord of my heart and the Man of Feeling is dismissed in disgrace! And now we weep in secret and the worm feeds on our damask cheek!" she ran on in a tone of raillery, assumed perhaps to hide a deeper feeling. "I suppose," she added shrewdly, "Sir Robert would have you think that Vaughan knew who you were, and was practising on you?"

"Yes."

"And you dismissed him at papa's command, eh? That was it, was it?"

Mary could only confess the fact with tears, her distress in as strange contrast with the gaiety of her dress as with the strains of the neighbouring band, which told of festivity and pleasure. Perhaps some thought of this nature forced itself upon Lady Sybil's light and evasive mind: for as she looked, the cynical expression of her eyes gave place to one of feeling and emotion, better fitted to those wasted features as well as to the relation in which the two stood to one another. She looked down the path, as if for the first time she feared an intrusive eye. Then her glance reverted to her daughter's slender form and drooping head: and again it changed, it grew soft, it grew pitiful. The laurels shut all in, the path was empty. The maternal feeling, long repressed, long denied, long buried under a mountain of pique and resentment, of fancied wrongs and real neglect, broke forth irresistibly. In a step she was at the girl's side, and snatching her to her bosom in a fierce embrace, was covering her face, her neck, her hair with hungry kisses.

The action was so sudden, so unexpected, that crushed and even hurt by the other's grasp, and frightened by her vehemence, Mary would have resisted, would have tried to free herself. Then she understood. And a rush of pent-up affection, of love and pity, carried away the barriers of constraint and timidity. She clung to Lady Sybil with tears of joy, murmuring low broken words, calling her "Mother, Mother," burying her face on her shoulder, pressing herself against her. In a moment her being was stirred to its depths. In all her life no one had caressed her after this fashion, no one had embraced her with passion, no one had kissed her with more than the placid affection which gentleness and goodness earn, and which kind offices kindly performed warrant. Even Sir Robert, even her father, proud as he was of her, much as he loved her, had awakened in her respect and gratitude-mingled with fear-rather than love.

After a time, warned by approaching voices, Lady Sybil put her from her; but with a low and exultant laugh. "You are mine, now!" she said, "Mine! Mine! You will come to me when I want you. And I shall want you soon! Very soon!"

Mary laid hold of her again. "Let me come now!" she cried with passion, forgetting all but the mother she had gained, the clinging arms which had cherished her, the kisses that had rained on her. "Let me come to you! You are ill!"

"No, not now! Not now! I will send for you when I want you," Lady Sybil answered. "I will promise to send for you. And you will come," she added with the same ring of triumph in her voice. "You will come!" For it was joy to her, even amid the satisfaction of her mother-love, to know that she had tricked her husband; it was joy to her to know that though she had taken all from the child and he had given all, the child was hers-hers, and could never be taken from her! "You will come! For you will not have me long. But," she whispered, as the voices came nearer, "go now! Go now! And not a word! Not a word, child, as you love me. I will send for you when-when my time comes."

And with a last look, strangely made up of love and pain and triumph, Lady Sybil moved out of sight among the laurels. And Mary, drying her tears and composing her countenance as well as she could, turned to meet the intruders' eyes.

Fortunately-for she was far from being herself-the two persons who had wandered that way, did but pause at the end of the Kennel Path, and, murmuring small talk, turn again to retrace their steps. She gained a minute or two, in which to collect her thoughts and smooth her hair; but more than a minute or two she dared not linger lest her continued absence should arouse curiosity. As sedately as she could, she emerged from the shrubbery and made her way-though her breast heaved with a hundred emotions-towards the rustic bridge on which she saw that Lady Lansdowne was standing, keeping Sir Robert in talk.

In talk, indeed, of her. For as she approached he placed the coping-stone on the edifice of her praises which her ladyship had craftily led him to build. "The most docile," he said, "I assure you, the most docile child you can imagine! A beautiful disposition. She is docility itself!"

"I hope she may always remain so," Lady Lansdowne answered slily.

"I've no doubt she will," Sir Robert replied with fond assurance, his eye on the Honourable Bob, who was approaching the bridge from the lawns.

Lady Lansdowne followed the look with her eyes and smiled. But she said nothing. She turned to Mary, who was now near at hand, and reading in the girl's looks plain traces of trouble, and agitation, she contented herself with sending for Lady Louisa, and asking that her carriage might be called. In this way she cloaked under a little bustle the girl's embarrassment as she came up to them and joined them. Five minutes later Lady Lansdowne was gone.

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After that, Mary would have had only too much food for thought, had her mother alone filled her mind; had those kisses which had so stirred her being, those clinging arms, and that face which bore the deep imprint of illness, alone burdened her memory. Years afterwards the beat of the music which played in the gardens that evening, while the party within sat at dinner, haunted her; bringing back, as such things will, the scene and her aching heart, the outward glitter and the inward care, the Honourable Bob's gallantries and her father's stately figure as he rose and drank wine with her; ay, and the hip, hip, hurrah which shook the glasses when an old Squire, a privileged person, rose, before she could leave, and toasted her.

Burdened only with the sacred memories of the afternoon, and the anxiety, the pity, the love which they engendered, she had been far from happy, far from free. But in truth, with all her feeling for her mother, Mary bore about with her a keener and more bitter regret. The dull pain which had troubled her of late when thoughts of Arthur Vaughan would beset her was grown to a pang of shame, almost intolerable. She had told herself a hundred times before this that it was her weakness, her fear of her father, her mean compliance that had led her to give him up-rather than any real belief in his baseness. For she had never, she was sure now, believed in that baseness. But now, now when her mother, whose word it never struck her to doubt, had affirmed his innocence, now that she knew, now since a phrase of that mother's had brought to her mind every incident of the never-to-be-forgotten coach-drive, the May morning, the sunshine and the budding trees, the birth of love-pain gnawed at her heart. She was sick with misery.

For, oh, how vile, how thankless, how poor and small a thing he must think her! He would have given her all, and she had robbed him of all. And then when she had robbed him and he could give her little she had turned her back on him, abandoned him, believed evil of him, heard him insulted, and joined in the outrage! Over that thought, over that memory, she shed many and many a bitter tear. Romance had come to her in her lowliness, and a noble lover, stooping to her; and she had killed the one and denied the other. And now, now there was nothing she could do, nothing she would dare to do.

For that she had for a moment believed in his baseness-if she had indeed believed-was not the worst. In that she had been the sport of circumstances; appearances had deceived her, and the phase had been brief. But that she had been weak, that she had been swayed, that she had given him up at a word, that she had shown herself wholly unworthy of him-there was the rub. Now, how happy had she been could she have gone back to Miss Sibson's, and the dull schoolroom and the old stuff dress and the children's prattle-and heard his step as he came across the forecourt to the door!

XXIII

IN THE HOUSE

In truth Mary's notion of the opinion which Arthur Vaughan had of her was above, rather than below, the reality. In her most despondent moments she scarcely exaggerated the things he thought of her, the contempt in which he held her, or the resentment which set his blood boiling when he remembered how she had treated him. He had gone to her and laid all that was left to him at her feet; and she, who had already dealt his fortunes so terrible a blow, had paid him for his unselfish offer, for his sacrifice of much that was dear to him, with suspicion, with contumely, with mistrust! Instead of clinging to him, to whom she had that moment plighted her troth, she had deserted him at a word. In place of trusting the man who had woo'd her in her poverty, she had believed the first whisper against him. She had shown herself heartless, faithless, inconstant as the wind-a very woman! And

Away, away-your smile's a curse
Oh, blot me from the race of men,
Kind pitying Heaven! by death or worse