Chapter 5 (#uaf788062-a468-5d1d-a912-9c7e931838ef)
Chapter 6 (#u2e1e1096-a9f9-54e5-a19c-f1f553122088)
Chapter 7 (#u1f8f5e32-07ab-566d-8e0f-cbc175d30c3d)
Chapter 8 (#u1efaf44a-0d89-5583-a9d4-8bfd39030928)
Chapter 9 (#ua8423b41-5291-5f03-b9cc-11b190dd30ec)
Chapter 10 (#ufdd7170e-a94b-5e87-be0b-50da50e175ce)
Chapter 11 (#uca006f29-6dc4-59b6-b7ed-d7bd30b3d56f)
Chapter 12 (#u93e1d677-707f-508e-99ad-8c008e17f554)
Chapter 13 (#u5a8c8cce-93b7-5fab-827b-76ace76fec75)
Chapter 14 (#u18d76c2b-907c-5aa0-bbfc-b3563a1ccd37)
Chapter 15 (#litres_trial_promo)
Chapter 16 (#litres_trial_promo)
Chapter 17 (#litres_trial_promo)
Chapter 18 (#litres_trial_promo)
Chapter 19 (#litres_trial_promo)
Chapter 20 (#litres_trial_promo)
Chapter 21 (#litres_trial_promo)
Chapter 22 (#litres_trial_promo)
Chapter 23 (#litres_trial_promo)
Chapter 24 (#litres_trial_promo)
Chapter 25 (#litres_trial_promo)
Chapter 26 (#litres_trial_promo)
Chapter 27 (#litres_trial_promo)
Chapter 28 (#litres_trial_promo)
Chapter 29 (#litres_trial_promo)
Chapter 30 (#litres_trial_promo)
Chapter 31 (#litres_trial_promo)
Chapter 32 (#litres_trial_promo)
Chapter 33 (#litres_trial_promo)
Chapter 33 (#litres_trial_promo)
Chapter 21 (#litres_trial_promo)
Chapter 34 (#litres_trial_promo)
Chapter 35 (#litres_trial_promo)
Chapter 36 (#litres_trial_promo)
Chapter 37 (#litres_trial_promo)
Chapter 38 (#litres_trial_promo)
Chapter 39 (#litres_trial_promo)
Chapter 40 (#litres_trial_promo)
Chapter 41 (#litres_trial_promo)
Chapter 42 (#litres_trial_promo)
Acknowledgements (#litres_trial_promo)
Zoe Cook (#litres_trial_promo)
About HarperImpulse (#litres_trial_promo)
About the Publisher (#litres_trial_promo)
Prologue (#ub5dc1be2-cd46-589b-bffb-48bb7b9d9bf0)
September, 2005
Can you believe that after all these years I have to write this in a letter because I can’t say it to you, can’t get the words out right?
I know you think I’m running away. You’re probably right. But what do you think I have if I stay here? There are too many ghosts here, Tom, too many memories. It’s like walking around in my own nightmare sometimes, and it will drive me mad.
I wish we weren’t fighting about this. I don’t know what I expected you to think or to say about it all, but I didn’t expect you to be so angry with me. I feel like you’re taking it the wrong way. It’s not you I want to leave; it’s this place.
If you knew how many hours I’ve spent thinking about what the hell to do – honestly, the thought of being without you is unbearable. But I didn’t want to put you in this position, to do what I’m about to do now. I didn’t want to ask you to come with me, to leave everything you have here. This place means so much to you, and you have so many reasons to stay.