How Did I Get Here?: Navigating the unexpected turns in love and life

How Did I Get Here?: Navigating the unexpected turns in love and life
Barbara De Angelis

Find your way back to happiness from wherever you are with self-help guru Barbara De Angelis.• We all encounter unforeseen obstacles in our lives, as a relationship or a job we were counting on vanishes. This book will teach you how to escape the past and navigate the unexpected to find a life of more purpose, contentment and joy.• Even when a person’s life seems perfect from the outside, they can often feel dissatisfied; that there is a gap between the life they mapped out and the life they ended up with. Bestselling author Barbara De Angelis teaches us how to combat this feeling.• Discover how to deal with personal crisis, both dramatic and gradual, including divorce, unemployment, boredom and restlessness.• If you have realised that the life you have doesn’t fulfil you, this book gives you the practical tools, wisdom and inspiration to turn it around.

Barbara

De Angelis Ph.D.

HOW DID I GET HERE?

Navigating the

Unexpected Turns

in Love and Life

In memory of Luna my moon goddess my ancient friend my love teacher

CONTENTS

Cover (#ua7060fc7-fa8f-5c73-b26a-16f10cfcb852)

Title Page (#ua7598cb3-f286-580d-9e37-042024e548ee)

Introduction (#u51271b10-144c-5cb8-a4c9-8b1e0e3ed56e)

Part 1: How Did You Get Here? (#u7c327423-1774-554a-8dc4-c5a01b6d897e)

1: Digging Deep for Wisdom (#uca323735-c7b2-5245-81a8-ef448da9d612)

2: Turning Points, Transitions and Wake-up Calls (#u6298c64f-2d77-5ea7-af20-396615560d2b)

3: Getting Lost on the Way to Happiness (#udf11275f-ced9-59e9-8a09-e942906ddebf)

4: Playing Hide-and-Seek with the Truth (#litres_trial_promo)

5: Turning Off and Freezing Up (#litres_trial_promo)

6: Will the Real Me Please Stand Up? (#litres_trial_promo)

Part 2: Navigating Your Way Through the Unexpected (#litres_trial_promo)

7: From Confusion to Clarity, From Awakening to Action (#litres_trial_promo)

8: Mourning the Life You Thought You d Have (#litres_trial_promo)

9: Proceeding Without a Map (#litres_trial_promo)

Part 3: Roads to Awakening (#litres_trial_promo)

10: Finding Your Way Back to Passion (#litres_trial_promo)

11: Coming into Your Wisdom Time (#litres_trial_promo)

12: Arriving at the Placeless Place (#litres_trial_promo)

Acknowledgments (#litres_trial_promo)

A Special Invitation from Barbara De Angelis (#litres_trial_promo)

About the Author (#litres_trial_promo)

Also by Barbara De Angelis (#litres_trial_promo)

Copyright (#litres_trial_promo)

About the Publisher (#litres_trial_promo)

Introduction (#ulink_d91eac67-e1b0-5c64-906e-ca5b7bfaf81d)

I don’t know a soul who’s not been battered Don’t have a friend who feels at ease Don’t know a dream that’s not been shattered Or driven to its knees.

—Paul Simon, “American Tune”

All of us find ourselves, at one time or another in our lives, facing the unexpected. We arrive at places we never planned to be, confronting obstacles we did not expect to encounter, feeling emotions we did not expect to feel. We don’t recognize the destination at which we find ourselves as one we chose to travel to, yet, inexplicably, there we are. Somehow our plan for how we intended things to turn out seems to have been replaced by a set of circumstances we could never have imagined, let alone wished for:

A relationship we thought would last forever ends, and we are suddenly and painfully alone.

A job we counted on vanishes, and we feel lost, with no purpose or direction.

Our health or that of a loved one, which has always been good, becomes threatened by illness or disease.

Events beyond our control destroy our financial well-being.

Or perhaps a moment comes when we see our life as it really is instead of seeing it as we want it to be. To our great dismay, we realize that it is time for a change:

Our relationship has become passionless, and sex is something we remember doing months or even years ago.

Our job has turned into something we are utterly bored with or, worse, that we dread.

We have the house, the family and the business for which we worked so hard, but somehow we feel a sense of deep dissatisfaction and disconnection.

What is happening? We are standing face to face with what amounts to a gap—the gap between where we thought we’d be and where we actually are, between our expectations of what we hoped would happen and what has actually happened, between the life we planned and the life we inhabit.

What makes these moments so difficult and disturbing is not simply that we are facing problems or emotionally rough times. Each of us has braved, battled and survived many challenges in our lives. What’s different about these particular experiences is that along with the pain there is a sense of bewilderment, a sort of shock, a disconnect between what we thought we knew to be true and what is actually occurring. We feel as if we are waking up as a stranger in our own lives. We don’t recognize the landscape, the emotions, the circumstances as anything vaguely resembling those things we had expected. And so we find ourselves asking: “How did I get here?” No immediate answer comes to us. It is the presence of this question and the absence of answers that plunges us headfirst into a spiritual and emotional crisis.

“Last month my husband told me he wants a divorce. After fifteen years of marriage, it’s over. I can’t believe I am losing him, that our family is being torn apart. The house, our friends and the life we built—it’s all going to vanish. I am so furious at him for destroying my dream. What am I supposed to do now? How can this be happening to me?How did I get here?”

“I’ve been dreading going to work for a while now, and I finally admitted the truth to myself: I’m miserable because I hate what I do for a living. I don’t understand how this can be happening—I spent years in medical school studying to be a doctor, and I have a really successful practice. This is what I planned to do since I was a teenager, and I’m good at it. But I just don’t want to do it anymore. I’m really frightened—I can’t start over at fifty-six with two kids in college.How did I get here?”