Salted with Fire

Isy was silent for a long time. The foundations of her coming peace were being dug deeper, and laid wider.

She still found it impossible, from the disordered state of her mind at the time, to give any notion of whereabout she had been when she laid her child down, and leaving him, could not again find him. And Maggie, who loved him passionatately and believed him wilfully abandoned, cherished no desire to discover one who could claim him, but was unworthy to have him. For a long time, therefore, neither she nor her father ever talked, or encouraged talk about him; whence certain questing busybodies began to snuff and give tongue. It was all very well, they said, for the cobbler and his Maggie to pose as rescuers and benefactors: but whose was the child? His growth nevertheless went on all the same, and however such hints might seem to concern him, happily they never reached him. Maggie flattered herself, indeed, that never in this world would they reach him, but would die away in the void, or like a fallen wave against the heedless shore! And yet, all the time, in the not so distant city, a loving woman was weeping and pining for lack of him, whose conduct, in the eyes of the Robertsons, was not merely blameless, but sweetly and manifestly true, constantly yielding fuel to the love that encompassed her. But, although mentally and spiritually she was growing rapidly, she seemed to have lost all hope. For, deeper in her soul, and nearer the root of her misery than even the loss of her child, lay the character and conduct of the man to whom her love seemed inextinguishable. His apostasy from her, his neglect of her, and her constantly gnawing sense of pollution, burned at the bands of her life; and her friends soon began to fear that she was on the verge of a slow downward slide, upon which there is seldom any turning.

The parson and his wife had long been on friendliest terms with the farmer of Stonecross and his wife; and, brooding on the condition of their guest, it was natural that the thought of Mrs. Blatherwick should occur to them as one who might be able to render them the help they needed for her. Difficulties were in the way, it was true, chiefly that of conveying a true conception of the nature and character of the woman in whom they desired her interest; but if Mrs. Blatherwick were once to see her, there would be no fear of the result: received at the farm, she was certain in no way to compromise them! They were confident she would never belie the character they were prepared to give her. Neither was there any one at the farm for whom it was possible to dread intercourse with her, seeing that, since the death of their only daughter, they had not had a servant in the house. It was concluded therefore between them that Mr. Robertson should visit their friends at Stonecross, and tell them all they knew about Isy.

It was a lovely morning in the decline of summer, the corn nearly full grown, but still green, without sign of the coming gold of perfection, when the minister mounted the top of the coach, to wait, silent and a little anxious, for the appearance of the coachman from the office, thrusting the waybill into the pocket of his huge greatcoat, to gather his reins, and climb heavily to his perch. A journey of four hours, through a not very interesting country, but along a splendid road, would carry him to the village where the soutar lived, and where James Blatherwick was parson! There a walk of about three miles awaited him—a long and somewhat weary way to the town-minister—accustomed indeed to tramping the hard pavements, but not to long walks unbroken by calls. Climbing at last the hill on which the farmhouse stood, he caught sight of Peter Blatherwick in a neighbouring field of barley stubble, with the reins of a pair of powerful Clydesdales in his hands, wrestling with the earth as it strove to wrench from his hold the stilts of the plough whose share and coulter he was guiding through it. Peter’s delight was in the open air, and hard work in it. He was as far from the vulgar idea that a man rose in the scale of honour when he ceased to labour with his hands, as he was from the fancy that a man rose in the kingdom of heaven when he was made a bishop.

As to his higher nature, the farmer believed in God—that is, he tried to do what God required of him, and thus was on the straight road to know him. He talked little about religion, and was no partisan. When he heard people advocating or opposing the claims of this or that party in the church, he would turn away with a smile such as men yield to the talk of children. He had no time, he would say, to spend on such disputes: he had enough to do in trying to practise what was beyond dispute.

He was a reading man, who not merely drank at every open source he came across, but thought over what he read, and was, therefore, a man of true intelligence, who was regarded by his neighbours with more than ordinary respect. He had been the first in the district to lay hold of the discoveries in chemistry applicable to agriculture, and had made use of them, with notable results, upon his own farm; setting thus an example which his neighbours were so ready to follow, that the region, nowise remarkable for its soil, soon became remarkable for its crops. The note-worthiest thing in him, however, was his humanity, shown first and chiefly in the width and strength of his family affections. He had a strong drawing, not only to his immediate relations, but to all of his blood; who were not few, for he came of an ancient family, long settled in the neighbourhood. In his worldly affairs he was well-to-do, having added not a little to the little his father had left him; but he was no lover of money, being open-handed even to his wife, upon whom first your money-grub is sure to exercise his parsimony. There was, however, at Stonecross, little call to spend and less temptation from without, the farm itself being equal to the supply of almost every ordinary necessity.

In disposition Peter Blatherwick was a good-humoured, even merry man, with a playful answer almost always ready for a greeting neighbour.

The minister did not however go on to join the farmer, but went to the house, which stood close at hand, with its low gable toward him. Late summer still lorded it in the land; only a few fleecy clouds shared the blue of the sky with the ripening sun, and on the hot ridges the air pulsed and trembled, like vaporized layers of mother-of-pearl.

At the end of the idle lever, no sleepy old horse was now making his monotonous rounds; his late radiance, born of age and sunshine, was quenched in the dark of the noonday stall. But the peacock still strutted among the ricks, as conscious of his glorious plumage, as regardless of the ugliness of his feet as ever; now and then checking the rhythmic movement of his neck, undulating green and blue, to scratch the ground with those feet, and dart his beak, with apparently spiteful greed, at some tiny crystal of quartz or pickle of grain they exposed; or, from the towering steeple of his up lifted throat, to utter his self-satisfaction in a hideous cry.

In the gable before him, Mr. Robertson passed a low window, through which he had a glimpse of the pretty, old-fashioned parlour within, as he went round to the front, to knock at the nearer of two green-painted doors.

Mrs. Blatherwick herself came to open it, and finding who it was that knocked—of all men the most welcome to her in her present mood—received him with the hearty simplicity of an evident welcome.

For was he not a minister? and was not he who caused all her trouble, a minister also? She was not, indeed, going to lay open her heart and let him see into its sorrow; for to confess her son a cause of the least anxiety to her, would be faithless and treacherous; but the unexpected appearance of Mr. Robertson brought her, nevertheless, as it were the dawn of a winter morning after a long night of pain.

She led him into the low-ceiled parlour, the green gloom of the big hydrangea that filled the front window, and the ancient scent of the withered rose-leaves in the gorgeous china basin on the gold-bordered table-cover. There the minister, after a few kind commonplaces, sat for a moment, silently pondering how to enter upon his communication. But he did not ponder long, however; for his usual way was to rush headlong at whatever seemed to harbour a lion, and come at once to the death-grapple.

Marion Blatherwick was a good-looking woman, with a quiet strong expression, and sweet gray eyes. The daughter of a country surgeon, she had been left an orphan without means; but was so generally respected, that all said Mr. Blatherwick had never done better than when he married her. Their living son seemed almost to have died in his infancy; their dead daughter, gone beyond range of eye and ear, seemed never to have left them: there was no separation, only distance between them.

“I have taken the liberty, Mrs. Blatherwick, of coming to ask your help in a great perplexity,” began Mr. Robertson, with an embarrassment she had never seen in him before, and which bewildered her not a little.

“Weel, sir, it’s an honour done me—a great honour, for which I hae to thank ye, I’m sure!” she answered.

“Bide ye, mem, till ye hear what it is,” rejoined the minister. “We, that is, my wife and mysel, hae a puir lass at hame i’ the hoose. We hae ta’en a great interest in her for some weeks past; but noo we’re ‘maist at oor wits’ en’ what to do wi’ her neist. She’s sair oot o’ hert, and oot o’ health, and out o’ houp; and in fac’ she stan’s in sair, ay, desperate need o’ a cheenge.”

“Weel, that ouchtna to mak muckle o’ a diffeeclety atween auld friens like oorsels, Maister Robertson!—Ye wad hae us tak her in for a whilie, till she luiks up a bit, puir thing?—Hoo auld may she be?”

“She can hardly be mair nor twenty, or aboot that—sic like as your ain bonnie lassie would hae been by this time, gien she had ripent here i’stead o’ gaein awa to the gran’ finishin schuil o’ the just made perfec. Weel min’ I her bonny face! And, ‘deed, this ane’s no’ that unlike yer ain Isy! She something favours her.”

“Eh, sir, fess her to me! My hert’s waitin for her! Her mither maunna lowse her! She couldna stan’ that!”

“She has nae mither, puir thing!—But ye maun dee naething in a hurry; I maun tell ye aboot her first!”

“I’m content ‘at she’s a frien o’ yours, sir. I ken weel ye wad never hae me tak intil my hoose are that was na fit—and a’ the lads aboot the place frae ae mornin til anither!”

“Indeed she is a frien o’ mine, mem; and I hae never a dreid o’ onything happenin ye wadna like. She’s in ower sair trouble to cause ony anxiety. The fac’ is, she’s had a terrible misfortun!”

The good woman started, drew herself up a little, and said hurriedly,

“There’s no a wean, is there?”

“‘Deed is there, mem!—but pairt o’ the meesery is, the bairn’s disappeart; and she’s brackin her heart aboot ‘im. She’s maist oot o’ her min’, mem! No that she’s onything but perfecly reasonable, and gies never a grain o’ trouble! I canna doobt she’d be a great help til ye, and that ilka minute ye saw fit to lat her bide. But she’s jist huntit wi’ the idea that she pat the bairnie doon, and left him, and kens na whaur.—Verily, mem, she’s are o’ the lambs o’ the Lord’s ain flock!”

“That’s no the w’y the lambs o’ his flock are i’ the w’y o’ behavin themsels!—I fear me, sir, ye’re lattin yer heart rin awa wi’ yer jeedgment!”

“I hae aye coontit Mary Magdalen are o’ the Lord’s ain yowies, that he left the lave i’ the wilderness to luik for: this is sic anither! Gien ye help Him to come upon her, ye’ll cairry her hame ‘atween ye rej’icin! And ye min’ hoo he stude ‘atween are far waur nor her, and the ill men that would fain hae shamet her, and sent them oot like sae mony tykes—thae gran’ Pharisees—wi their tails tuckit in ‘atween their legs!—Sair affrontit they war, doobtless!—But I maun be gaein, mem, for we’re no vera like to agree! My Maister’s no o’ ae min’ wi’ you, mem, aboot sic affairs—and sae I maun gang, and lea’ ye to yer ain opingon! But I would jist remin’ ye, mem, that she’s at this present i’ my hoose, wi my wife; and my wee bit lassie hings aboot her as gien she was an angel come doon to see the bonny place this warl luks frae up there.—Eh, puir lammie, the stanes oucht to be feower upo thae hill-sides!”

“What for that, Maister Robertson?”

“‘Cause there’s so mony o’ them whaur human herts oucht to be.—Come awa, doggie!” he added, rising.

“Dear me, sir! haena ye hae a grain o’ patience to waur (spend) upon a puir menseless body?” cried Marion, wringing her hands in dismay. “To think I sud be nice whaur my Lord was sae free!”

“Ay,” returned the minister, “and he was jist as clean as ever, wi’ mony ane siclike as her inside the heart o’ him!—Gang awa, and dinna dee the like again, was a’ he said to that ane!—and ye may weel be sure she never did! And noo she and Mary are followin, wi’ yer ain Isy, i’ the vera futsteps o’ the great shepherd, throuw the gowany leys o’ the New Jerus’lem—whaur it may be they ca’ her Isy yet, as they ca’ this ane I hae to gang hame til.”

“Ca’ they her that, sir?—Eh, gar her come, gar her come! I wud fain cry upo Isy ance mair!—Sit ye doon, sir, shame upo’ me!—and tak a bite efter yer lang walk!—Will ye no bide the nicht wi’ ‘s, and gang back by the mornin’s co’ch?”

“I wull that, mem—and thank ye kindly! I’m a bit fatiguit wi’ the hill ro’d, and the walk a wee langer than I’m used til.—Ye maun hae peety upo my kittle temper, mem, and no drive me to ower muckle shame o’ myself!” he concluded, wiping his forehead.

“And to think,” cried his hostess, “that my hard hert sud hae drawn sic a word frae ane o’ the Lord’s servans that serve him day and nicht! I beg yer pardon, and that richt heumbly, sir! I daurna say I’ll never do the like again, but I’m no sae likly to transgress a second time as the first.—Lord, keep the doors o’ my lips, that ill-faured words comena thouchtless oot, and shame me and them that hear me!—I maun gang and see aboot yer denner, sir! I s’ no be lang.”

“Yer gracious words, mem, are mair nor meat and drink to me. I could, like Elijah, go i’ the stren’th o’ them—maybe something less than forty days, but it wad be by the same sort o’ stren’th as that angels’-food gied the prophet!”

Marion hurried none the less for such a word; and soon the minister had eaten his supper, and was seated in the cool of a sweet summer-evening, in the garden before the house, among roses and lilies and poppy-heads and long pink-striped grasses, enjoying a pipe with the farmer, who had anticipated the hour for unyoking, and hurried home to have a talk with Mr. Robertson. The minister opened wide his heart, and told them all he knew and thought of Isy. And so prejudiced were they in her favour by what he said of her, and the arguments he brought to show that the judgment of the world was in her case tyrannous and false, that what anxiety might yet remain as to the new relation into which they were about to enter, was soon absorbed in hopeful expectation of her appearance.

“But,” he concluded, “you will have to be wise as serpents, lest aiblins (possibly) ye kep (intercept) a lost sheep on her w’y back to the shepherd, and gar her lie theroot (out of doors), exposed to the prowlin wouf. Afore God, I wud rether share wi’ her in that day, nor wi’ them that keppit her!”

But when he reached home, the minister was startled, indeed dismayed by the pallor that overwhelmed Isy’s countenance when she heard, following his assurance of the welcome that awaited her, the name and abode of her new friends.

“They’ll be wantin to ken a’thing!” she sobbed.

“Tell you them,” returned the minister, “everything they have a right to know; they are good people, and will not ask more. Beyond that, they will respect your silence.”

“There’s but ae thing, as ye ken, sir, that I canna, and winna tell. To haud my tongue aboot that is the ae particle o’ honesty left possible to me! It’s enough I should have been the cause of the poor man’s sin; and I’m not going to bring upon him any of the consequences of it as well. God keep the doors of my lips!”

“We will not go into the question whether you or he was the more to blame,” returned the parson; “but I heartily approve of your resolve, and admire your firmness in holding to it. The time may come when you ought to tell; but until then, I shall not even allow myself to wonder who the faithless man may be.”

Isy burst into tears.

“Don’t call him that, sir! Don’t drive me to doubt him. Don’t let the thought cross my mind that he could have helped doing nothing! Besides, I deserve nothing! And for my bonny bairn, he maun by this time be back hame to Him that sent him!”

Thus assured that her secret would be respected by those to whom she was going, she ceased to show further reluctance to accept the shelter offered her. And, in truth, underneath the dread of encountering James Blatherwick’s parents, lay hidden in her mind the fearful joy of a chance of some day catching, herself unseen, a glimpse of the man whom she still loved with the forgiving tenderness of a true, therefore strong heart. With a trembling, fluttering bosom she took her place on the coach beside Mr. Robertson, to go with him to the refuge he had found for her.

Once more in the open world, with which she had had so much intercourse that was other than joyous, that same world began at once to work the will of its Maker upon her poor lacerated soul; and afar in its hidden deeps the process of healing was already begun. Agony would many a time return unbidden, would yet often rise like a crested wave, with menace of overwhelming despair, but the Real, the True, long hidden from her by the lying judgments of men and women, was now at length beginning to reveal itself to her tear-blinded vision; Hope was lifting a feeble head above the tangled weeds of the subsiding deluge; and ere long the girl would see and understand how little cares the Father, whose judgment is the truth of things, what at any time his child may have been or, done, the moment that child gives herself up to be made what He would have her! Looking down into the hearts of men, He sees differences there of which the self-important world takes no heed; many that count themselves of the first, He sees the last—and what He sees, alone is: a gutter-child, a thief, a girl who never in this world had even a notion of purity, may lie smiling in the arms of the Eternal, while the head of a lordly house that still flourishes like a green bay-tree, may be wandering about with the dogs beyond the walls of the city.

Out in the open world, I say, the power of the present God began at once to work upon Isobel, for there, although dimly, she yet looked into His open face, sketched vaguely in the mighty something we call Nature—chiefly on the great vault we call Heaven, the Upheaved. Shapely but undefined; perfect in form, yet limitless in depth; blue and persistent, yet ever evading capture by human heart in human eye; this sphere of fashioned boundlessness, of definite shapelessness, called up in her heart the formless children of upheavedness—grandeur, namely, and awe; hope, namely, and desire: all rushed together toward the dawn of the unspeakable One, who, dwelling in that heaven, is above all heavens; mighty and unchangeable, yet childlike; inexorable, yet tender as never was mother; devoted as never yet was child save one. Isy, indeed, understood little of all this; yet she wept, she knew not why; and it was not for sorrow.

But when, the coach-journey over, she turned her back upon the house where her child lay, and entered the desolate hill-country, a strange feeling began to invade her consciousness. It seemed at first but an old mood, worn shadowy; then it seemed the return of an old dream; then a painful, confused, half-forgotten memory; but at length it cleared and settled into a conviction that she had been in the same region before, and had had, although a passing, yet a painful acquaintance with it; and at the last she concluded that she must be near the very spot where she had left and lost her baby. All that had, up to that moment, befallen her, seemed fused in a troubled conglomerate of hunger and cold and weariness, of help and hurt, of deliverance and returning pain: they all mingled inextricably with the scene around her, and there condensed into the memory of that one event—of which this must assuredly be the actual place! She looked upon widespread wastes of heather and peat, great stones here and there, half-buried in it, half-sticking out of it: surely she was waiting there for something to come to pass! surely behind this veil of the Seen, a child must be standing with outstretched arms, hungering after his mother! In herself that very moment must Memory be trembling into vision! At Length her heart’s desire must be drawing near to her expectant soul!

But suddenly, alas! her certainty of recollection, her assurance of prophetic anticipation, faded from her, and of the recollection itself remained nothing but a ruin! And all the time it took to dawn into brilliance and fade out into darkness, had measured but a few weary steps by the side of her companion, lost in the meditation of a glad sermon for the next Sunday about the lost sheep carried home with jubilance, and forgetting how unfit was the poor sheep beside him for such a fatiguing tramp up hill and down, along what was nothing better than the stony bed of a winter-torrent.