The Lost Landscape

“THEY ALL JUST WENT AWAY” (#litres_trial_promo)

“WHERE HAS GOD GONE” (#litres_trial_promo)

HEADLIGHTS: THE FIRST DEATH (#litres_trial_promo)

“THE BRUSH” (#litres_trial_promo)

AN UNSOLVED MYSTERY: THE LOST FRIEND (#litres_trial_promo)

“START YOUR OWN BUSINESS!” (#litres_trial_promo)

THE LOST SISTER: AN ELEGY (#litres_trial_promo)

NIGHTHAWK: RECOLLECTIONS OF A LOST TIME (#litres_trial_promo)

II

DETROIT: LOST CITY 1962–1968 (#litres_trial_promo)

STORY INTO FILM: (#litres_trial_promo)

“WHERE ARE YOU GOING, WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN?” AND SMOOTH TALK (#litres_trial_promo)

PHOTO SHOOT: (#litres_trial_promo)

WEST ELEVENTH STREET, NYC, MARCH 6, 1970 (#litres_trial_promo)

FOOD MYSTERIES (#litres_trial_promo)

FACTS, VISIONS, MYSTERIES: (#litres_trial_promo)

MY FATHER FREDERIC OATES, NOVEMBER 1988 (#litres_trial_promo)

A LETTER TO MY MOTHER CAROLINA ON HER (#litres_trial_promo)

SEVENTY-EIGHTH BIRTHDAY, NOVEMBER 8, 1994 (#litres_trial_promo)

“WHEN I WAS A LITTLE GIRL (#litres_trial_promo)

AND MY MOTHER DIDN’T WANT ME” (#litres_trial_promo)

III

EXCERPT, TELEPHONE CONVERSATION (#litres_trial_promo)

WITH MY FATHER FREDERIC OATES, MAY 1999 (#litres_trial_promo)

THE LONG ROMANCE (#litres_trial_promo)

MY MOTHER’S QUILTS (#litres_trial_promo)

AFTERWORD (#litres_trial_promo)

PHOTO SECTION (#litres_trial_promo)

ABOUT THE AUTHOR (#litres_trial_promo)

NONFICTION BY JOYCE CAROL OATES (#litres_trial_promo)

ABOUT THE PUBLISHER (#litres_trial_promo)

AUTHOR’S NOTE (#ulink_70c480ec-1690-520e-a5d7-2929434b0cec)

The Lost Landscape is not meant to be a complete memoir of my life—not even my life as a writer. It is, for me at least, something more precious, as it is almost indefinable: an accounting of the ways in which my life (as a writer, but not solely as a writer) was shaped in early childhood, adolescence, and a little beyond. Its focus is upon the “landscape” of our earliest, and most essential lives, but it is also upon an actual rural landscape, in western New York State north of Buffalo, out of which not only much of the materials of my writing life have sprung but also the very wish to write.

Because it is essential to The Lost Landscape, “District School #7, Niagara County, New York” has been reprinted from The Faith of a Writer (2003), in a slightly different form. In a more substantially altered form, an updated “Visions of Detroit” ([Woman] Writer, 1988) has been reprinted under the title “Detroit: Lost City 1962–1968.” Other chapters have been revised significantly from memoirist pieces published in a variety of magazines, journals, and books, often in response to an editor’s invitation.

To the editors of these publications, heartfelt thanks are due:

“Mommy & Me” originally appeared, in a shorter form, in Civilization, February 1997.

“Happy Chicken” originally appeared in Conjunctions 61: A Menagerie, 2013.

“Discovering Alice” originally appeared in AARP Magazine, 2014.

“Piper Cub” originally appeared, in a substantially different form, in Rhapsody, November 2013.

“After Black Rock” originally appeared in the New Yorker, June 2013.

“Sunday Drive” originally appeared, in a substantially different form, in Traditional Home, March 1995.

“They All Just Went Away” originally appeared in a substantially different form in the New Yorker, October 1995. Reprinted in The Best American Essays 1996 and in The Best American Essays of the 20th Century. This essay incorporates “Transgressions,” originally published in the New York Times Magazine, October 1995.

“Where Has God Gone” originally appeared, in a substantially different form, in Southwest Review, Summer 1995, and was reprinted inCommunion edited by David Rosenberg, 1995 under the title “And God Saw That It Was Good.”

“An Unsolved Mystery: The Lost Friend” originally appeared, in a substantially different form, in Between Friends edited by Mickey Pearlman, 1994.

“Start Your Own Business!” originally appeared in substantially different forms in the New Yorker under the title “Bound,” April 2003; and in Conjunctions 63 (2014) under the title “The Childhood of the Reader,” which will be reprinted in Pushcart Prize: The Best of the Small Presses 2016.

“The Lost Sister: An Elegy” originally appeared in Narrative.

“Nighthawk: Recollections of a Lost Time” appeared originally in Yale Review, 2001, and in Conjunctions, 2014; reprinted, in a substantially different form, in Narrative, 2015.

“Story into Film: ‘Where Are You Going, Where Have You Been?’ and Smooth Talk”appeared originally in the New York Times, March 23, 1986.

Detroit: Lost City 1962–1968” appeared originally, in a shorter form, in (Woman) Writer, 1988.

“Photo Shoot: West Eleventh Street, New York City, March 6, 1970” originally appeared, in a shorter form, under the title “Nostalgia” in Vogue, April 2006; reprinted in Port, 2014.