The Girl Who Broke the Rules

CHAPTER 74: Amsterdam, police headquarters (#litres_trial_promo)

CHAPTER 75: South East London, 14 February (#litres_trial_promo)

CHAPTER 76: Amsterdam, hospital, later (#litres_trial_promo)

CHAPTER 77: Soho, London, later (#litres_trial_promo)

CHAPTER 78: Laren, the Netherlands, 15 February (#litres_trial_promo)

CHAPTER 79: Cambridge, St John’s College, later (#litres_trial_promo)

CHAPTER 80: Laren, the Netherlands, 16 February (#litres_trial_promo)

CHAPTER 81: Broadmoor Psychiatric Hospital, later (#litres_trial_promo)

CHAPTER 82: A secret location near Laren, later (#litres_trial_promo)

CHAPTER 83: Stansted airport, Essex, later (#litres_trial_promo)

CHAPTER 84: Amsterdam, then Laren, later (#litres_trial_promo)

CHAPTER 85: A secret location near Laren, later (#litres_trial_promo)

CHAPTER 86: A secret location near Laren, moments later, then, the Laren house (#litres_trial_promo)

CHAPTER 87: A secret location near Laren, later (#litres_trial_promo)

CHAPTER 88: Amsterdam, hospital, 18 February (#litres_trial_promo)

CHAPTER 89: Broadmoor Psychiatric Hospital, later (#litres_trial_promo)

CHAPTER 90: Amsterdam, hospital, later (#litres_trial_promo)

CHAPTER 91: Soho, London, later (#litres_trial_promo)

CHAPTER 92: Berlin, Germany, 23 February (#litres_trial_promo)

CHAPTER 93: Amsterdam, hospital, later (#litres_trial_promo)

CHAPTER 94: Amsterdam, women’s prison, 28 February (#litres_trial_promo)

CHAPTER 95: Amsterdam, the Cracked Pot Coffee Shop, then, the hospital, later (#litres_trial_promo)

Keep Reading … (#litres_trial_promo)

Acknowledgements (#litres_trial_promo)

By the Same Author (#litres_trial_promo)

About the Publisher (#litres_trial_promo)

PROLOGUE (#u858f87e4-89d4-5bab-b531-ef7959dea265)

Amsterdam, red light district, 16–17 January (#u858f87e4-89d4-5bab-b531-ef7959dea265)

The jagged pain between her shoulder blades was fleeting. Magool flinched. Breathed in sharply at the unpleasant sensation. She loosened her seatbelt. Wriggled in the passenger seat to look behind her.

In the dark, there was nothing to see.

Then, she tried to reach behind to feel the leather. But her hands would not move. She stared down at them, bemused. They felt neither leaden nor numb. It was simply as if they no longer existed. And yet, there they sat, chapped from the cold, bitten nails, primly folded over her wringing-wet, jeans-clad thighs.

Frowning, aware of her accelerated heartbeat, she tried to lift her legs, move her feet, wiggle her toes. Nothing. Why was her body not obeying her brain? She looked askance at the driver.

‘I can’t move,’ she said in Dutch. ‘What’s going on?’

The driver stared resolutely ahead. Peering through the windscreen of the car as hail rattled onto the glass, accompanied by fat snowflakes. Swept by the wiper-blades into thin white columns on the windscreen’s periphery that grew thicker and thicker with every second that passed; white screens closing slowly on the real world.

‘Hey! Stop the car! Something’s wrong, I’m telling you. I can’t feel a thing.’ With difficulty, Magool could still turn her head – enough to see the side of her driver’s face. ‘Did you hear me?’

Silence enveloped her, and she realised her words had not sounded at all except inside her head. Through the windscreen, she could just about make out the white-dusted cobbles of the road. The snow, illuminated by the bright, triangular shafts of the streetlights, came down like yellow-gold icing sugar, falling through a sieve. But where the hell were they going on this beautiful, foul night? Not towards her apartment, she was certain. And what was happening to her?

She started to loll forward, held in her seat only by the belt. The driver reached out and with a large, strong hand, pushed her up against the window.

‘Don’t want you to hit your head, do we? Try to relax, Noor. It won’t hurt.’ Her captor had finally spoken in a kindly voice. ‘I’ve given you a very strong spinal block. The syringe was rigged in your seat. But try not to worry. I promise you, I know what I’m doing.’

Magool wanted to scream. Her brain shrieked for help; phantom hands hammered on the window each time they passed a figure on the street, huddled in dark winter clothes, braving the blizzard. Unaware of the young girl who was imprisoned in the same vehicle that had just splattered their work trousers with virgin slush.

With only her mind unfettered, she considered the sequence of events that had brought her to this terrible place.

Standing in her booth, she had watched with fascination when the flakes began to waft down from the heavens. Pink sky overhead, as though the very neon lights of Amsterdam’s red light district were reflected in the snow clouds hanging above her in the night sky. It was the first time she remembered ever having seen snow. The mangroves that clung to the coastline like grasping old men’s hands; the turquoise splendour of the Indian Ocean; the baking heat of her homeland – they were all half a world away. Now, the hail came down among the snow, making the same musical rattling noise against the glass door of her booth that the tropical rains of the Gu and Dayr wet seasons had made on the corrugated iron roof of her family’s shack.

Just hours earlier, watching that snow, Magool had felt something bordering on elation. She was finally safe. On these crimson-lit streets, she was Noor. Different girl. Different continent. Different life. Magool resolved, there and then, as the hail pounded against the glass door to her booth, to look upon her parents’ selling her and her infant brother to the al Shabaab militia men as an act driven by desperation, not greed. They had thought, perhaps, that she and little Ashkir would both have a good life in that exotic, far-off place they called Italy. Hadn’t the soldiers promised?

When she had arrived in the arid, rubble wasteland of Mogadishu, clutching the squalling infant, her hope had faded quickly. Tears had pricked the backs of her eyes as she remembered Ashkir being plucked from her bosom by those corrupt African Union troops. Burundian men, who had laughed heartily and exchanged easy greetings with her couriers.

She had overheard them saying that her brother was destined for adoption in Milan. But, at thirteen, she had been too old to be adopted.

Magool had cursed the name that marked her out as the early flowering girl. Had cursed her parents, each time the men forced themselves on her. Her own kind, amid the diesel-stink and filth of the ramshackle Somali ship. Then, white men when she reached Rome. There was no distinction to be made between them. By the time she had escaped the cocaine fug of nightly abuse and arrived in Amsterdam on the train, she was already five months pregnant. Not showing yet.

Two full years later, now. Watching the snow and feeling hopeful, just as that charlatan showed up, knocking on her window. She should have known better than to let him in.

He had caressed the jagged, lumpy line of her caesarean scar before putting his hand between her legs.

‘You healed well,’ he said, kissing her neck.

She bit her tongue. Swallowed the retort. Money was money and he’d paid up front.

He lay down on the narrow bed and pulled her on top. Guiding her onto him. Hands on her small breasts. ‘Tell me I’m the best,’ he said, closing his eyes. ‘Faster.’ His voice was high. His breath came short. ‘Tell me again how I saved your life.’