‘Kitty!’
I stopped rifling to look up at him. He was holding one of the bank statements, frowning at it.
‘What?’ I said. ‘Why do you look like that?’
‘Have you seen these? Did he ever let you see them?’
‘Bank statements? Well, no.’ I yanked open the drawer above the one I’d been searching and let out a sigh of relief when I spotted the little red passport nestling there. ‘Oh, thank God, it’s here. He’s been reorganising, that’s all.’ I scooped it up like an old friend and tucked it into my jeans back pocket. ‘Hey, wonder if we can find my bank card while we’re here? If he hasn’t already had it stopped, I might be able to make one big withdrawal before he gets wise and cancels it.’
‘You won’t be able to.’
I frowned. ‘What?’
‘Kit, these statements—’
He stopped, and my heart did too. Because there was a sound coming from downstairs. The sound of a key, turning in the lock. I jumped to my feet.
‘I thought you said he was at work!’ Jack hissed.
‘He is – I mean, he should be! Oh shit! What do we do, Jack?’
‘It’s too late. You’ll have to confront him.’
‘I told you I can’t!’ A panicked sob bubbled out of me. ‘We have to get out.’
‘You can do it. I’ll be here with you.’ He reached for my hand. ‘You’re stronger than you think you are, Kitty.’
‘No, please! You don’t know what he can do to me. Maybe we can hide until he—’
But the deep voice that sailed up the stairs made it quite clear that wasn’t an option.
‘Kitty! Where are you? I know you’re here.’
I felt like a cornered animal. My eyes darted around the little room, but there was no way out except the door. The door that any second now, if the footsteps on the stairs were anything to go by, would be filled by Ethan’s lean frame.
‘You don’t have to be afraid of him any more,’ Jack whispered, and he squeezed my shoulder.
A second later… there was Ethan. Instinctively, I took a step backwards.
‘Kitty, darling! You’re really here.’
I don’t know what I’d expected. Anger. Blame. But Ethan actually laughed with delight as he threw himself at me for a hug. ‘Mrs Bartholomew said you’d come home, but I wouldn’t believe it until I’d seen you,’ he said. ‘Oh my God, baby, I’ve missed you so much. So much. Don’t ever, ever scare me like that again, you hear?’
I blinked helplessly at Jack as Ethan continued to embrace me.
‘It’s okay now,’ he said in a soothing voice, obviously under the impression I needed a bit of soothing. ‘Everything’s okay now, Kitty. We can make it okay.’
‘Ethan, please,’ I whispered. ‘Let me go.’
‘Yes, sorry. Sorry. I just had to feel you, make sure you were real.’ He released me from the hug, but he kept hold of my shoulders, regarding me with undisguised joy. ‘You’ve really come back to me. Thank God.’
Jack, lounging against the wall observing it all, cleared his throat. Ethan turned to look at him, as if he was noticing him for the first time.
‘Kitty, who the hell is this?’
‘A friend,’ Jack said.
Ethan’s eyes narrowed. For the first time, I think it dawned on him that my being there might not mean what he thought it meant.
‘I’m not staying,’ I mumbled, staring at the floor. I couldn’t bring myself to meet his eyes. ‘I just came…’
But the words stopped in my throat. There was something about his presence that, even now, even after what he’d done, still cowed me. I felt like a naughty little girl. I felt guilty for the obvious hurt in his eyes. I felt… exactly the way he’d trained me to feel when I’d upset him.
‘Of course you’re staying,’ he said firmly. ‘Look, I don’t know what happened to make you run off like that, Kitty. Nearly giving me a heart attack with worry—’ He took a deep breath to calm himself. ‘Well, never mind that, we can talk about it another time. For now, let’s just concentrate on the fact you’re home safe.’
He put his arms around me again. I didn’t push him away. I didn’t hug him. I just stood, stiff and silent, wondering if I was going to be sick, and hating myself for letting him affect me like this, still. Why did he have that power over me, even now I knew the kind of man he was? I was so used to pleasing him, putting all my wants and needs aside for his, that it was a real fight with myself to break the habit.
Jack was frowning at me. ‘Tell him, Kit. Tell him you’re coming with me.’
I opened my mouth, but the words struggled to form into sounds.
Ethan glared at Jack. ‘Who asked you anything? Who the hell are you anyway?’
‘I told you. A friend of Kitty’s.’
Ethan held me back to look into my eyes, his lip curling in disgust. ‘Jesus. Tell me you’re not sleeping with this guy.’
All I could do was shake my head.
‘Some might say that’s none of your business,’ Jack said. I noticed he was no longer lounging and had drawn himself up to his full height.
‘None of my business? This is my wife, mate! What the fuck do you think you’re playing at, messing about with married women? Get the hell out of my house, before I get the police involved.’
‘It’s Kitty’s house too. And I’m not going anywhere without her say-so.’
‘I’m not your wife,’ I finally managed to gasp. ‘Not in any real sense. I left you, Ethan. Me and you – there is no me and you. Not any more.’ Jack gave me an approving nod.
‘Why are you talking like this, Kitty? What did I do?’
‘You know what you did. At the reception. At the… the trees. I saw.’
Ethan frowned. ‘Saw what?’
‘You. What you…’ But I couldn’t bring myself to say it.
He laughed. ‘Oh, this is ridiculous. I don’t know what you imagined you saw, but…’ He softened his voice to a croon. ‘You’re not well, darling. You need a bit of TLC, that’s all. And then we’ll get everything sorted out, take a delayed honeymoon, whatever you want.’
‘And how were you planning to pay for that, Ethan?’ Jack asked brightly.