Please Don’t Take My Baby and I Miss Mummy 2-in-1 Collection

‘Just a quick one. After I leave you I’m going to drop the coat I’ve bought for Courtney in to Rachel, so that she can get it to Jade this evening. She’s visiting Jade at the hospital after work. Has Rachel been in touch about the arrangements for tomorrow?’ Jill asked, following me into the kitchen.

‘All I know is that Jade is being discharged at one o’clock,’ I said, filling the kettle.

‘OK. I’ll tell you what’s happening,’ Jill said. ‘You won’t have to go to the hospital to collect Jade and the baby, as Jackie’s going. Jackie wants to be involved and will go to the hospital straight from work. She’ll take with her the baby things they have at home – first-size clothes and nappies. She should be there soon after one o’clock and then Jackie, Jade and the baby will come here in a cab. Jackie would like to see Jade settled in and I told Rachel I thought that would be fine with you.’

‘Yes. So I guess they’ll be here about 1.45?’ I said.

‘I would think so.’

‘I’ll have to leave just before three to collect Paula from school. I assume it’s OK to leave them here alone?’ I passed Jill her mug of coffee.

‘Thanks. Yes. If you’re comfortable with that?’ I nodded. ‘Although Jackie will be here with Jade tomorrow, there will be times – like when you do the school run – when Jade and Courtney will be left alone. That’s fine. Jade needs supervision and support but you’re not expected to be here with her the whole time.’

‘I understand,’ I said.

Jill took a sip of her coffee and her gaze fell on the sterilizing unit I’d put ready on the work surface. ‘It’s strange seeing that in here again, and the pram in the hall,’ Jill said. ‘How do you feel about it all now?’

‘OK, I think.’

‘You’ll be fine,’ Jill reassured me. ‘And remember, if you have any concerns or problems don’t hesitate to contact the agency.’

‘I will. I’m sure I’ll be fine once Jade and Courtney are here. As with any new child, it’s the waiting that makes you nervous.’

Jill finished her coffee standing in the kitchen as she was in a rush and called goodbye to Adrian and Paula on her way out.

After we’d had dinner Adrian and Paula came with me upstairs to Jade’s now tidy bedroom and helped me assemble the cot and then make it up with the new bedding Jill had brought. Paula then disappeared into her bedroom and returned with one of her small soft toys, which she placed in the cot.

‘That’s a present for Courtney,’ she said. ‘I hope she’s happy here.’

‘I’m sure she will be, love,’ I said. ‘That’s very sweet of you.’

While Adrian remarked dryly: ‘Jade’s room is next to mine. I hope I don’t hear her baby bawling all night.’

‘I’m sure you won’t,’ I said, for Adrian had slept through thunderstorms that had woken Paula and me.

While Adrian played on his Nintendo, Paula, eager to see what Jill had brought, helped me to unpack the bags and put away their contents: the baby bath oil in the bathroom with the baby flannel and sponge; the lotion, nappies and wipes in Jade’s bedroom; the bottles in the sterilizer; and the formula in the kitchen cupboard.

Later when the children were in bed I read the instructions on the packet of formula to remind myself how to make up a bottle of formula. I also placed the changing mat on the table in Jade’s bedroom with the nappies, wipes and cream within reach. The table usually doubled as a desk for older children to study at but would now be a baby-changing station. By the time I’d finished I felt I was as prepared as I could be, and before I settled on the sofa to watch some television before bed I phoned my parents and brought them up to date with the news: that Jade had had her baby and I would be looking after both of them for a few weeks.

‘How wonderful, a little baby!’ Mum cried, delighted. ‘And will we be able to see them both when we visit you on Sunday?’

‘Yes, of course. They’ll be here.’

‘Fantastic. I’ll tell your father.’ And I knew that when my father saw the baby he would be just as enthusiastic as my mother was.

Chapter Twelve (#ulink_2c33fb71-f987-55cb-8a92-652f072840ff)

Worth It (#ulink_2c33fb71-f987-55cb-8a92-652f072840ff)

The following afternoon I had been looking expectantly from the front-room window on and off for about twenty minutes when I finally saw the mini-cab arrive. I was out the front door before the driver had switched off the cab’s engine. Arriving on the pavement, through the window of the cab I could see Jade with Courtney on her lap; ideally she should have been in a car seat, but no one had thought to take one. Jackie was sitting on the seat beside her.

‘Oh, isn’t she beautiful!’ I gasped, gazing at Courtney as Jade opened the cab door. ‘Well done, love.’ I kissed her cheek. ‘Congratulations. You have a lovely baby. She’s beautiful.’

‘Hi, Cathy,’ Jackie said.

‘Congratulations, Jackie. You’ve got a lovely grand-daughter.’

‘Thank you.’

I helped Jade out of the cab as Jackie paid the driver. Courtney was indeed a lovely baby, really cute, and without the redness that newborn babies often have. Her tiny features were relaxed in sleep and seemed even cuter under the little white hat she was wearing. She was dressed warmly in the zip-up suit Jill had bought, and a shawl Jackie had presumably brought from home.

‘You go on in with Courtney,’ Jackie said to Jade. ‘I’ll bring the bags.’

Jade took a couple of steps towards the garden gate and grimaced, so I guessed she was sore from the birth. ‘Can you carry her in?’ Jade asked, holding Courtney out to me.

‘Yes, of course, love,’ I said.

I carefully took the precious bundle in my arms and holding her close followed Jade slowly up the garden path. I could smell that lovely newborn-baby smell and I couldn’t help but kiss Courtney’s little cheek. Jade took off her coat and threw it over the hall stand, and then continued into the sitting room. I left the front door open for Jackie, and carried Courtney into the sitting room.

Once Jade was comfortably settled on the sofa I placed Courtney in her arms. Jade looked at her and then up and around the room; she seemed overwhelmed, which was hardly surprising with everything that had happened since she’d last been in this room.

‘It’s bound to seem strange at first,’ I said. ‘Your body has been through a lot and will need time to recover. I’m here to help you all I can. You know you’re staying with me for now?’ I asked, and she nodded. ‘Would you like to take off Courtney’s coat?’ I suggested. ‘It’s warm indoors.’

Jade looked at me and then at Courtney but didn’t move. ‘Undo the zip and take out her arms first, and then her legs,’ I said. ‘It’s easier to do it that way round.’

Jade began sliding down the zipper of the all-in-one coat and then awkwardly took Courtney’s arms out of the sleeves, and then her legs. Courtney screwed up her face but didn’t wake or cry. ‘Well done,’ I said to Jade, and helped her slide the suit from under Courtney. As with many procedures in caring for a baby, Jade would find it became easier with practice, so that before long she would have Courtney in and out of the suit in no time, and without disturbing her if she was asleep.

‘Shall I take these baby things up to Jade’s bedroom?’ Jackie called from the hall.

‘Yes, if you like,’ I said, going to meet her. I thought Jackie would probably like to see Jade and Courtney’s bedroom. ‘I’ll show you where it is.’

I led the way upstairs and to Jade’s room. ‘It’s not very big,’ I said apologetically as we entered. ‘But Rachel said it would be fine short term.’

‘It’s nice,’ Jackie said pleasantly, placing the carrier bags on the bed. ‘You’ve got a lovely home.’

‘Thank you.’

‘It’s a lot bigger than my place. Although now Jade’s gone we’ve got a bit more space. Mikey and Danny are in her room now.’

I knew from the paperwork that Mikey and Danny were Jade’s younger brothers. While I could see the practicality in utilizing Jade’s bedroom straightaway I hoped Jackie hadn’t told Jade, for it seemed a bit insensitive to move them in so quickly, as though Jackie couldn’t wait to get rid of Jade. But Jackie continued: ‘I’ve told Jade I’m boxing up her things and I’ll store them until she has a place of her own.’ By ‘a place of her own’ I assumed Jackie meant a council flat, but this too seemed a little premature, for when Jade left me it would be to go to a mother-and-baby foster home, where she could stay for a year or more while a parenting assessment was completed. Only if Jade demonstrated adequate parenting and was allowed to keep her baby would she be eligible for social housing – as a single mother.

We returned downstairs, where Jade was on the sofa with Courtney still asleep in her arms. ‘Would either of you like a drink?’ I asked Jade and Jackie.

‘Orange, please,’ Jade said.

‘No thanks,’ Jackie said. ‘I’ll need to be off soon.’

I went into the kitchen and poured Jade’s drink, and then returned to the sitting room. Jackie and Jade hadn’t spoken in my absence and although Jackie was sitting next to Jade on the sofa looking at Courtney I sensed an atmosphere.