‘No, I am not. I’m gonna hang out with my friends from university. You?’
‘Me…I’m at home. Stupid me, I thought that you’re at home and we’d speak… I’ve broken up with Daniel…’
‘Oh, shit!’ Vasilisa took a sad sigh. ‘You couldn’t imagine how I hated myself for blabbing out. First, I thought that it wasn’t my business, then I thought you had to know. If I’d calumniated, I’d have apologized, haven’t I, Vic? You aren’t mad at me, are you? Did he confess?’
‘Oh, come on! No mad!’ Vic smiled. ‘On the contrary, thank you for opening my eyes.’
‘Honestly, Vic, I wish I hadn’t been that person who opened your eyes… Let God be with it.’
‘God with it?’ Vic gave a shiver when she heard God’s name. ‘He did betray me, what God would be with him? He sinned!’
There was a quite silence on the phone.
‘Vic.’ The friend said in a low voice. ‘I’ll come on you, ok?’
‘Come on me?’ the girl was surprised.
‘Even distantly I feel you getting through your breaking up. What God, Vic? This statement makes me be suspicious. I’d not have said anything then… I wish I’d not stopped my tongue…’
‘Calm down. It’s ok. Go hanging out. Don’t think about me. I’m preparing to my philosophy exam and I seem to have over read about theocetricism… Don’t pay attention. When are you free?’
‘Ah, I forgot completely about your exams. When’s it gonna be? On 13
? So, you’ll pass it and we’ll meet then right after it if you really don’t need me now.’
‘Deal. I’ll call you before it.’
‘Okay. So, I’m leaving. Don’t be upset, please. If anything happens, call me at once, I’ll come no matter what could happen.’
Vic smiled and hanged off the cell. Her eyes pierced into silent night ceiling. Whatever she imagined to herself, whatever she dreamt about, passion didn’t want to leave her alone. Fear of God absorbed her more and more. She was sure she had nothing to lose yet. Any Lord of the Highest would inflict her only for her chaotic thoughts of evil deeds.
Having turned half of the night, Victoria finally got asleep in the morning. She dreamt about nothing. There was only darkness. But her mind had a rest with no seeing merciless Kharon’s picture. Her mind planned nothing and wanted to delegate it to her subconsciousness. The subconsciousness used to exist on the level of a static chaos, that was one of its favourite deeds.
10
June 2013 (Monday)
It was about 11 am when Victoria woke up and immediately got the mystic figure into her consciousness.
Having no thoughts of taking a shower, combing, having breakfast, the girl rushed to the laptop. She was carefully looking for the information about incubi and succubi, God and angels. She didn’t understand what exactly she was looking for, but all her inward nature was yearning.
‘Doesn’t fit, no…’ Vic whispered, crazily jumping from page to page. ‘No. Nonsense. Rubbish. It can’t be. Never believe…’
After an hour and a half of searching Victoria could calm herself down: she wasn’t crazy, and insanity didn’t threaten her. There were a lot of stories on internet whose authors hardly could be called of sound mind. Despite of that the girl had face the demon and his abilities personally she couldn’t believe in what was written on web-sites.
Suddenly among the piles of advice, stories and spells, Vic saw a black angel icon, often appeared, whose owner commented each site, mocking at those or other comments.
‘That’s interesting now’ the girl clicked the link and turned out to be in the personal profile of a man, called himself as a “magician”.
Vic sent him a message and was about to run to the bathroom when the laptop sounded in an intriguing way.
Unknown Person:“What’re you looking for?”
Victoria: “For something that will help me to keep near a demon or…to make him run my commands.”
Vic texted and looked at the screen. Ten minutes passed but there was no answer and being upset the girl went to freshen up.
Olga Vladimirovna was at work, the flat was empty. At such moments Vic felt free. Nobody watched what she did, what she ate, how she washed herself, why she did that. There was no needless advice.
Having backed to the room with breakfast and tea Vic sat down with a flop before the laptop. There was a little envelope on the semi-dark screen, exhorting to open it. She wasn’t long in coming.
Unknown Person: “A demon? What demon? There is a special spell for each level demon. Indeed, tiding up a demon is a dangerous idea.”
The girl shrugged her shoulders and texted an answer.
Victoria: “Why?”
Unknown Person: “Because there is no spell which can untie a demon. You tie him to yourself for all your life.”
Having read the message Victoria got happy. She was ready to spend her life with Kharon, she believed that her life began only when he was with her.
Victoria: “I don’t see any danger.”
Unknown Person: “Then you’re another idiot from sites who believes in magic and fairy tales. Put your thinking-cap on, what a demon would like to be tied to?
Victoria: “What can he do?”
The girl was silently looking at screen and waiting for the intriguing strange to answer.
Unknown Person: “Eat away at nerves. Kill. Do in. Anything rather than to get rid of. And he can get rid of if you’re dead.”
Vic frowned. Not a good perspective cropped up. She didn’t really want to be killed by the demon. She dreamt to be loved by him and not only at nights. But she couldn’t make up how to hold featherbrained Kharon near herself.
Victoria: “Can you send me the spell?”
Ignoring all the warnings Vic hoped in her heart to get the spell. Having seen the person texting her heart started madly beating, having some pleasure in fabulous future.
Unknown Person: “I didn’t get what demon you need?”
The girl sighed. She didn’t want to tell a stranger that her heart craved for tiding an incubus to herself. Feeling of shame pinched her throat from time to time.
Vic turned to the window and pursed her mouth thinking how to get the necessary spell.
Victoria: “There’s no special demon. I just wanted to read spells and find out what and how to do. Study information as it were. For example, how to tie an incubus to…”
Victoria sent the message and, full of hope, stared at the screen. Fifteen minutes later the stranger sent no answer.
‘Shit!’ the girl used a vulgarity and was about to switch off the laptop as another envelope appeared on the screen.